Thursday, August 31, 2006

my new friends are iowa are actually quite lovely
so in facebook i wrote that i was sad and tired
because ok. taptap isnt here with me and i have 3 homework due tmr
n it doesnt help my classmates in one class are all graduates and teaching assistants n are doing their PhD.
n so 2 of them actually msg me abt asking me y i was sad.

anyway
was intending to head down to chicago with them over the long weekend since monday's labour day
but air tic cost ard 200 usd!! n i cant find anyone to drive us there..so i guess.. the weekend will b spend in maple or jc penny. haha

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

http://www.dining.iastate.edu/menus/udm/2006-8-31.pdf
with a menu like this(n it changes daily)
and a buffet style of dining.meaning u take whatever u want(everything on the menu is avilable to u!)
how not to get fat?

my mum surprised me today when she talked to me on msn
to think i was going to teach her how to use it

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

i m beginning to be a little worried
are the people here too friendly or dangerous
as i have mentioned to a few of u
a few week back
this black guy talked to me in the com lab. introduce himself. asked if i wanted to hang out with him. i was freaking scared. like hell. till today. i m still damn scared.


that aside
maria my friend thinks i m too shy and she wants to open me up
the reason why she thinks so is that i dont talk much to people
haha
the point is. crys would probably know
if i start talking, people will think i m morbid
haha

Monday, August 28, 2006

cold day..like walking in an air con room

sometime
i would start thinking
how nice it would be to b back home
or i would think
how would it be
to b at nus. gg for lectures.stressing myself out.would we still be together. was i happy then.

everynow n then.there's still this fear in me..
maybe the only thing i can tell myself is never look back

random thoughts.on a cold cold day
--In my dreams I'm not so far away from home,
What am I in a world so far away from home--

back to ODE=)

Sunday, August 27, 2006

i miss these 2 person the most Posted by Picasa
another party..which lasted till quite late.. seriously.i dun like party. i dun see whats so fun abt drinking,dancing,doing craxzy stuff. caucasians can really drink.really well. even the girls. i dont think i m going for any party anymore. i know i said that last time. but i mean it this time.haha but its like u gotta see some things for experience and some sorta eye opener..its like going clubbing. so american(or scottish) parties confirm the fact that kailing will nvr love clubbing.
and i m gonna mugg fer the rest of the sem.
the next time,i'll post pics of my studying in my room Posted by Picasa

Saturday, August 26, 2006

cherry;cherry&rossa;randompple;adwoa(from uni of birmingham.jiawei!!!;maria n ivie;rossa;lando;food;maria



some international thing today
ahhh we had a tug of war..asian vs the rest of the world..and asians lost! boo hoo Posted by Picasa

i miss mummy,tap tap n lala=(

Friday, August 25, 2006

so this goes down the history book
kai ling did salsa dancing today
well..ok if u consider walking around counting the step, being out of the beat with every other person salsa dancing
well kai ling is lucky she did not step on any of the guy's feet. but they were pretty nice actually n cool about kailing the klutz telling me its alright. but i bet deep dpwn they must be thinking:what the hell is she doing
haha
anyway
it was quite fun
the nxt time, i m gonna find a guy friend/boyfriend/guy partner to go for dance classes with. like that i wont embarrass myself. no scratch that.make that a guy friend/boyfriend/ guy partner who won't mind kailing the klutz
like i say
big bear can't dance
i spend half of my life in the water not on dance
i'm sure i'll do better at water aerobics
friday!whee
ok every now n then i still think abt home.. now i finally know how it feels to be studying abroad.not easy huh..
n kai ling is going salsa dancing later..lol
now.bears cant dance right?

Thursday, August 24, 2006

ok my classes are not cool.i hope i can survive=(
but i love meals at iowa
its buffet style
n i lunch with random people.today was with a bunch of international student. theres this chinese guy who's from mauritius. i nvr knew there were chinese there.hah bimbo?
some days i just lunch alone because i just cant b bothered.
haha
anyway
today i receive this box frm my mail
instinctively, i put in close to my ear and listen for any ticking sound.haha not a very smart move since if it was a bomb i would have die faster like that
turns off to b a package frm the bank la. hahahah
n mum just told me.my phone bill for the month is 100 plus!!!!!!!! now. thats really bad

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

i am working with this teaching assistant at iowa who graduated from MIT in chem eng for one of my module's assignment. the problem now is. he doesnt know how to integrate and i don't as well because i left my maths note at home. MIT huh.sigh.help.
the nightmare begins

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

i might as well post more
so yea bad day. i just sat n cry for like 5-10 min and den i called home and den somehow.theres some internet now.
more abt life here
classes has started
feels more like tutorial rather than lectures
the style of learning and teaching is really different here. the grading system is also very different.theres no bell curve.but straight grading. so maybe the gd thing is that it will be less competitive and people will be more wiling to help one another
had some kinda picnic today but i left early because i was feeling so upset over my laptop.
hmm but i guess i will get used to life alone
it has always been so hasnt it.
haha
and ok i have only 2 finals exams. haha. not sure if thats a gd thing
got to know this mexico girl(maria) and some other pple from malaysia.
there's some kinda road trip to minneapolis and maria Might be planning to go to new york for thanksgiving
i dunno if i shd go..haha
haven really study much.since its e second day. but i guess..i have so much time that i'll just end up mugging.
once a mugger always a mugger
stupid pics i have taken
not really interesting Posted by Picasa
today i just came back to my room n cried
because my internet would not work and the com centre people cant fix it
my friends cherry n maria(this mexico girl ) was very nice about it and tried comforting me. no i cried after they left actually
i miss mommy. i want to b back home
and then somehow
the internet works now.i m not sure how long.. but i have no anti virus software alr..
boo hoo hoo

Saturday, August 19, 2006

back at com lab
waiting for maple to dl and falling asleep
weeekends..rather boring here..
as for fun. i'll leave that to the next few months. i am suddenly tired.
yesterday attended my 1st american party over at someone's apartment
of booze,music n drugs i heard. beacuse i left early. so typical of kai ling.
but met some nicer and less wild people. like this girl from mexico and another one from finland.
but being a mummy's girl, kailing returned back to her room before 10.30pm
now..thats more cinderella than cinderella.haha
and kailing is now known as kylie,kelly,caitlin etc because i give up pronouncing my chinese name.haha kylie poh kailing,kelly poh.tappy poh. i think tappy sounds better
to divert
the pple i've talked to..they are all from this society of engineers thing that i am in as well..and they all want to b engineer. honestly. i stilll don't know what i want to be when i graduate.i'm a little obfuscated about what i want in life actually.
sometimes i feel like my heart is dead. or tired. like nothing really interest me.and i just want to lead a simple life. and i don't have the passion to do alot of things. even towards relationship of any kind. i have no interest and hobbies. its like the character i am in in maple. who goes around alone doing her own stuff. no zest.no passion.only a piece of stone in me.
haha
anyway back to reality
the weather here's really erratic.somedays its freezing cold and other day its so hot. like worse than singapore.i would say the weather is as erratic as my mood.

shall end off here b4 u guys think i am crazy or depress. i m fine.just not my day today
today i woke up
and suddenly i felt sad
like reality overcoming me suddenly
suddenly i started feeling homesick n missing everyone. n mourning over my laptop n the internet.
talking to people on msn
i suddenly felt sad n far away from everyone

haiz
lunch followed by some orientation stuff.
take carez all

ur dearest
morbibd kailing

Friday, August 18, 2006

my dam laptop is giving me problems and i cant get internet
so i sent it to the com centre and i think they wun know how to solve it as well
sian!
been out of touch with pple back home
but i din miss anyone(just joking la!) well in e sense that the 1st 2 days i came i was really sad and kept thinking abt everyone back there.but nowadays i feel better alr.
haha cos the days are all so packed and busy
doing admin stuff...shopping.walking ard.parties.meeting.crap. somedays i just feel like stoning in my room actually. i cant wait to start sch n to mugg! hahaha
checked out the mall
there's gap.american eagle.vic secret.aeropostale
bought lotsa stuff
no.i am not bringing nice stuff for u all beacuse the luggage wun have space
so its tampons for the girls( 1 each only) and gums for the guys( 2 each)
LOL!
took some pic but i think i will never get the chance to upload them cos of the dam internet.sob
anyway theres lotsa free food everyday
and watch me come back pui pui ok.
i've moved to my room alr. theres a phone but i dunno how to use it
but anyway i have no idea what is this post all about
my thoughts are jumbled up.

i want my laptop n internet.=(

Monday, August 14, 2006

wee
did anyone miss me?
i'm quite lazy to update about stuff because there are simply too many things to talk about..everything's so different here.
the people i've met so far are great..the americans.asians..etc...they are really helpful and friendly. there are quite alot of asians here so i dont feel that weird
anyhow
these few days are mad rush for orientation programms..which are boring.. but the people at the uni are REally nice to international students.they have a whole loads of programms and meetings,lunchs etc to help u know the place n people better. got free lunch today at some church.wee free! haha
shopped at walmart yesterday.bought this tshirt at 3usd only.. haha walmart stuff are REALLY cheap.. like snickers here are 44 cents in usd.i was so exhilarated to see the chewing gums until i realise i have braces.the gums here are cool.like m&m kind.ha i think i'm gonna to be happy just shopping there. there are soo many food that are interesting over here. everything's is like cheaper then singapore(except textbook. i bought one at 110usd!!luckily i got the rest of the text alr... sigh but i am worried for one of the modules which seem pretty cheem..=( and oh the PDC text we use last sem is like 100USD. u go do the maths. 1usd=1.56 sing dollar). i love walmart anyway. haha and its really near the school.i'll check out the mall n k mart next.
i got lost yesterday! scary scary. and was alone. but managed to find my way. luckily. its summer now and the day's really long. the sky's bright from 6 in the morning to almost 9 at night!
oh and my time table are
mon.wed.fri :11am to 3pm
tue and thur : 9am-2pm
ok i got too many things to say..too little time
really hard to contact u guys here in singapore because i still haven move in to my room.so no laptop set up yet and the time difference is bad. its like 5.49pm here. and i think its 6.49am in singapore. no one on msn. haha
oh well..shall end off here...
p.s:weiyi :i received ur sms. not sure if i can reply cos i m not sure how much it will cost.
and to everyone else.. thanks for words of comfort. i keep telling everyone to bring me home..oh well..i'll learn to be strong. and hope for the best
take care all.. =)
i love u guys.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

ha and kailing has arrived at the university
no internet yet.using someone's else who kindly signed in for new students

life alone,out of comfort zone beckons

Friday, August 11, 2006

n so this is it
leaving for airport in 1 hrs time
cant sleep
these days. sometimes i just cry a little alone. fear.apprehension.confusion.mixed feeling.sadness
i'll miss everyone of u here.i'll miss papa n mama. how to survive without taptap n lala.boo hoo
take carez all my dear friends
thanks for all e meet up n gifts
i'll be back soon
n will update as soon as i have connection there.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

sometimes i wonder
if leaving or being left behind worse
on one hand. i am excited. yet there's still the apprehension and sadness in me. there are some things i still cannot bear to leave behind
and i really hope everything runs smootly.sometimes being paranoid n pessimistic gets one prepared i guess.
the past two weeks flew by.
got to get out now.
will continue tonight. its hard falling asleep these days with so many things going through my head.=/

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

waiting for some maple patch to load
might as well type some crap

these few days have been rather emotional. feeling depressed at times, making myself feel better at times.
well its nice to have friends around me
the bird for the magic keychain today..thanks ah.was quite touched n surprised. it sure was tiring shopping for the old time buddy shiwei's present. but i think it was quite fun. anyway shiwei, we got u superman walkie talkie. they r 2 walkie talkie of a superman model.hahaha
u know sometimes i really think small presents are enough to make me happy(of couse i won't mind an expensive n big presenthaha)..its really the thoughts that count. there's no such things in e world as 'i don't know what to buy so i never buy anything''
seriously if a person tells u that. it shows enough about how much he/she values the friendship.
well its all in e past anyway. we will all move on

and then a couple of my friends offered to send me off. i think by now
those who truly cared would have known or ask me abt my flight. thanks everyone for the offer to send me off..but u guys don;t have to. SERIOUSLY.i'll feel bad making u all come at those unearthly hours
theres another uni classmate of mine who offered to help me check out books. thanks alot dude
and sheryl my jc morning friend where we spent the morning before flag raising talking about rubbish,stoning in e cold lts,looking at guys who made the effort to meet up..too bad kl dun club so she can't go mos.
and the list goes on
people who bothered. n cared.

anyway
i supposedly cut my hair yesterday by a laobeng with long hair. i don't usually fancy guys with long hair because most do not look good in it.well except the 5566 show where there's a rather cute guy with rather nice hair.
anyway laobeng cos just laobeng la. long curly hair with those golden colour dye
all this because my usual stylist,a younger beng has moved on to another branch to work. haha

and anyway i may have discovered why i am so ghastly looking
a blood test shows i do not have enough blood! i m serious. near anemic
pig liver anyone?

Sunday, August 06, 2006

i've got a terible confession
i made a mistake abt my flight n told everyone e wrong date=/

Saturday, August 05, 2006

1 week arghhhhhhh

was at a uni classmate 21st bday thingy today
happy birthday lisa!
feels a little weird to tell people see ya next yr
feels a little long but actually its just 4-5 mths
i'll be back in a jiffy.haha
anyhow was looking at my textbooks
they don't seem very friendly=/

sigh
more shopping tmr
my right ankle actually hurt these days
i don't know if it's due to having sprained it once b4
or is it due to 10 craps years of swimming
that whenever i walked too much
it starts to hurt

1 week till hols end....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Friday, August 04, 2006

these few days have been a hectic ones
going to nus,ntu n clementi,orchard to look for textbooks, jabs,laptop servicing,buying necessities
night time are spent on maple but of course. haha doing brainless stuff instead of levelling up
and tomorrow i still have to make my way to nus..grrr
speaking of ntu. the sch's rather huge. but i managed to walk frm engineering to business, where popular is. was a tiring walk but the sch was rather vacant n quiet.
nus. is rather vibrant these days thanks to various ongoing orientation crap
sorry but i just tend to frown upon these OGs and orientation stuff like dancing,cheering
but anyway thats a personal thing
i just feel its rather redundant
but of course. u may beg to differ.
which makes me wonder
how do i get thru the orientation thing at iowa?

and anyway 1 more week
shd i be excited? haha
nxt wk will b spend packing n packing plus
a couple of bdays parties
dinners with friends
thats about it

but theres one HUGE question
how do i fit taptap into the luggage?

Thursday, August 03, 2006

conquered ntu today
walked a thousand miles

and now
finally
to get some packing done...

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

from bedok to nus to clementi to indian shop
ntu tmr
this is how i waste my days
no prize for guessing correctly
what i've been doing

Tuesday, August 01, 2006


10 days..
time really fly by without u knowing
may,june,july. i can't remember how i spent the hols
was touched by crys n xh's offer to send me off.. since the flight is at unearthly hours
haha but u guys dun have to=)
wait i cry n refuse to get on the plane how!?
n thanks to aloy..for taking leave yesterday=)
n crys for the teddy bear earrings.. I'll wear it. hah!
n sharon.have a great trip to perth!
more pics
just don't feel like sleeping early today
--couting down the days-- Posted by Picasa



will miss u all=( Posted by Picasa