Ok
I m off for hibernation and intensive camping in some dark secluded corner by myself till thurs when the cooling tower gets done.

Take care everyone.
xoxo

Hmm when u are at year 4, last semester, things feel a little different. Having been too caught up with studying and school, i have never really took time to appreciate being in NUS. It's kinda like walking but never looking up at the sky . (ok its not normal to do that). But sometimes, if u take just a little time to look up, u may realise that actually the sky(at night) with the stars is crazy beautiful. So these days, admist all the crazy projects, i have been rediscovering NUS., hanging out in the library, going to places that i have never been to. (and trying to appreciate life as a student)

Sometimes i think, it is really the little little stuff in life that makes life ok. Nice conversations, taking the time to just sit down, have a drink(not beer though) and chill, supper etc etc. Basically, just taking your mind off school. That was an amazing feeling.

Ok. Back to reality. Cooling tower=/

i wish i could sit down and write a long grandma story about life, my thoughts and stuff going on. But sadly, there's a peak oil essay, a cooling tower report and a couple of projects and presentation separating me and blogging. But i'm not complaining, because the crazily hectic life kept emptiness from settling in. By emptiness i mean, the notion of waking up to nothingness. Nothing to do, nothing to feel about.
Anyhow, Kinda like the feeling where i wake up with something to do in mind and go to sleep with things to do tomorrow. But i know, i am sort of too caught up with my own life that i am sorta oblivious to the people around me and what's going on in their life. I am still with the notion that no one's indispensable in the world. Or at least i haven met someone who can make me feel otherwise.

That's is. i tell u. Pretty soon i am gonna turn into a robot.

ithinkwearewalkingondifferentsidesoftheroad

There was a time i remembered saying : It's actually a pretty nice feeling to have someone to miss.

But if u ask me to emo-nemo now, i can honestly tell u, there is no one i will or can emo about. As heartless and callous this may sound, it's true. . Seriously, even all the anger, disappointment that i felt for a while has vanished without a trace.
I mean some memories stay, but the significance of them has changed. I no longer look back and wish that those were real once again. Rather, i looked back upon them for they were my past.

Right now, i m more worried how am i gonna finish studying for my test. my peak oil essay, my 40 page cooling tower report . my tutorials. my webcast.


there'snogravitytoholdmedownforreal

I actually have not been blogging much because each time i try to sit down to type something, i realise i dont know where to start. All i can say is that life's crazily busy for me but interesting. Or at least, i'm trying to see it in a more positive perspective. There are ups and downs but all i want to say, at the end of the day, i am really thankful to friends who have never fail to make me smile. I think i was laughing the whole of yesterday's night.

Speaking of which, i think i am really down with some laugh-non-stop disease.


Random stuff
this one's from some Sian Ah guy
Tap tap:" So how you practise singing"
XXX:" I sing into the pillow"
nope. not telling u all who sings into pillow.

(from crys blog) this one comes from someone who just fell in love recently & which i thought was funny because that certainly doesnt sound like something she will say.
SSS: " hey is the train coming? i cant see cos i'm blinded by love"


This one's from another friend who fell in love recently( and rather hopelessly in love)
ZZZ: " hey taptap, i'll talk to u another time ok. I need to go over to her house to make breakfast now"
This one i expected la.




As for me. HAHAHA. Don't ask. But thanks all, for the very kind act of matchmaking me.
Some random day in school and walking with a friend:
Friend A :" Ay (pointing to a guy that just walked by) this kind of pattern you like or not. My pri school friend"

After i am done with my cooling tower and peak oil, i'll prolly have more time to think about that. hahaha.

And so i was told my blog has gone haywire.
And so, I have no choice but to change the template.
sigh.

I suddenly wish that time passes by just a little slower.

Somehow, my blissful ignorance came to an end and i became a slave of deadlines. Even though i am feeling the stress , i guess i am really taking things as they come to me and just doing what i can to the best of my ability. There are just too many stuff in life you have no control over. Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly.

So where do we go from here

Ok photos from the FYP poster day. of class mates, my research group and random chem eng friends. feels a little like graduation. eeps. And Crys. Thanks ah! for travelling down from ARTs to Engine just to say hi. I promise to cross over to Arts next week to hunt you down.
n i know there's a whole lot of photos. so bear with it. i put everything in cos i have no time to upload on FB. So if anyone of u wants ur photo, let me know ok! i'll send u.
AND MUTHU NO PHOTO FOR U COS U MISPLACED MY TEXTBK AND NOTES BY LEAVING IT ON BUS 72. RAWR
.

Today's mail from my Professor reads:
"The FYP poster exam this year is scheduled on March 12-14. May I propose that we all visit the posters and the FYP students from our research group in the following schedule"

We all= him and his group of PhD students. abt 10.
i can so imagine the whole entourage of them coming down n watch me do my presentation. and scrutinising my poster. and shaking their head in disgust at the horrible posters and results.

i am so so dead.

what i really wish for now, is a nice and long sleep, without any worries and undone stuff cluttered at the back of my mind.
But i figure i am not alone in this. prolly all the year's 4 are now basking in the horror of being, well a Year 4. The things we talk about these days are : hydrogen plant& FYP.Speaking of which, after next week, i will be finally liberated from FYP. speaking of which, i think next week during the poster presentation i am going to try to hide in one corner with that 'wonderful' poster of mine.


It's like 3 am now. got too caught up doing my FYP. Alright. a collage of random pictures of friends who never fail to cheer me up.
N Presenting 2 u, ur friendly ambassadors of Changi Airport T3, kai ling poh and sharon teo. Yoz girl, be strong! tree trunks..are but tree trunk

ok bcos blogging isnt safe, i have to take down some entries.
I just had this weird notion--> being free from any emotional attachment to anyone, feels prettyl good to me right now. . All i have to think of is myself. And i'm at a phase of life, where what lies ahead is a circle of grey.. So it's kinda like i am just drifting and wandering till i meet that someone who can make me look his way.



anyway. it's march. yes march. march spells horror. the air is filled the acrid smell of stress and gloom. march also means 2 months till e end of school life. sadly, i am at a phrase where i wish i don't have to move forward yet. because i think i am not ready.
i dont exactly want to look back but i dont want to move forward as well. Kinda just want to escape from everything. i know jolly well that i never look back at stuff. & people who belongs to the yesteryears will always remain as a remnant of my past.
But the inertia in me in not wanting to move forward, i can't explain why. After all i am the same person who proclaims that i embrace changes.

alright. sch starts again. i m outta here for a while too!
till next time. xoxo