mecherry and maria

cute guy!! the organiser,well sort of

beautiful scene in autumn.when it was all sunny n pretty 

autumn is one the prettiest season
but theres a subtle hint of gloom
trees of cardinal and gold leaves are a lovely sight.
but all that is so fleeting
winter and snow has arrived. without u knowing. without any warning

THERE"S GONNA BE SNOW TOMORROW!

ok. not those horrible blizards or those snow huge enough for u to make snowman..but still... i guess the sight of snow falling will be pretty. but trust me. the cold is not fun! just last week..the weather was hot.comaprable to singapore.. and then.....

on a cold rainy tue night.kai the fat has to go for her exam at 8pm.sighz! the good news is i am done with my exams for the week. the bad news is there's another one next week. and my damn plant design project is due. haiz. just last week. cute guy 1 was reassuring me everything's under control and that we still have a lot of time to do it. n then yesterday i checked my calendar. oct 19 is next week! cuter guy 2 is seriously the coolest guy i have met, seriously. i dun see people or guys like him in singapore . well he comes to class. no wait he doesnt come for class except for the project. he skips the lecture. he wears shades to class and his jeans are those with silts here n there. he is cute and cool. haha. the 1st thing he asks me is "how is it going man". now the point is he doesnt come for class but he knows what is going on. so me n cute guy 1 are usually the one in the lab doing the project. we will be like asking each other question and confusing ourselves. so ok for this project we have 3 cases to work on. cute guy 2 is taking case one. me n cute guy 1 are suppose to take a case each but because we are so lost, or rather i am lost.so i decide to do a case together with cute guy 1.

so every tue n thur saw kailing n peter in our own maze, and i'll be flooding him with rubbish questions. i think he must be very irritated. haha thats beacuse scott the cuter one is perpetually missing in action. lab is 2hrs. he comes 1hr b4 the class ends. so today he was like. "how is it going man." then me peter were like.."eh we still working on the 2nd case" *sheepish grin*
and he went" oh i am done with my case. i shall work on the 3rd case then." cool.very cool. now. u would think.maybe he is just pretneding to know. but no. he discussed stuff with the professor and whenever i ask him a question.unlike cute guy 1 who only goes 'eh..' he always give me very detailed answer.


anyhow..a stupid long post. stoning a little before i start mugging.
some canoe pics..long overdue though. and for those who like my photos.. i have added more links

2 exams nxt wk on mon n tue
sighz...........................................
haven really been doing much.
the people here have all kind of after sch life. but i m quite tired.
theres this guy, a fellow exchange student. who organised a PYJAMAS PARTY. somehow a PYJAMAS party doesnt appeal to me.. and its a pyjamas party with booze..
and anyhow. i rather study n surf crap website or play maple. or pack and unpack my room. pyjamas party sounds sleazy. sometimes i think. i m not a fun person.
the nxt 2 weeks will probably be spend mugging. or just lazing around. i am not really in the mood to study... can't wait for november and december to come

wake me up when october ends.
haha

no
i was wrong
my other cute guy.even cuter guy.has every thing under control. he was teaching me how to calculate the thing. n he sounded like my professor. hmm i like guys who knows what going on. u know. haha not those undecisive ones
anyway
so today plant design. they were talking abt the project .how to do it and stuff. and kailing was the one who din know what was going on.
ITE

wee all my favourite bitches n himbo.seriously. they call themselves that in the card! hah 

KAi ling went to the gym today
thanks to ivie
must work on that fat thighs n that fat tummy
n to look at hunks . haha
AND XIUHUI!!!!!
READ THiS
IVIE is YOUR NIECE!!!! i just found out recently..what a small world
i can meet ur relative here in IOWA!!!

me and ah girl?? hahaha i took a photo! 

THIS post is specially for the ACKSX only!
THANKS YOU guys so much!! just want to make my cry right!! i'm already missing home n all of u n now u must make me feel like i miss u all more with this bear.. boo hoo hoo!! i love the bear so much!!! night time wont be lonely anymore! haha.. yes VERY TOUCHED!!!! probably the nicest thing any of my friends have ever done..sharon.. i m sorry i complain that ur blog has more of bryan's photo than mine. crys. i m sorry i said i m gg bring u tampons frm us. and xiuhui..such a darling.. always making the effort t0 contact me. and aloy..oh ya i receive the letter! wa ur handwriting not bad what.. see the card on top of the box is his letter to me. what can i say.. i LOVE all of u ! sob. boo hoo hoo.. can i go home now??
and no. no more tampons n gums for u all. actually ha i already bought something for u guys. but when i go travelling to the different states, i'll make sure i buy more things for u all ok? ahh what did i buy..it was something small..since ames got not much stuff to buy..n i m kinda broke actually.. haha but i wont tell u yet ok. when i come back in jan, u will know.


to all the bitches! hah take care n miss u all.cant wait to b back to irritate u all. january ya? kai the fat girl n terror will be back=P 

horrible weekend
sat was spent doing some plant design assignment. not the project. so i started from 3 pm n did till 12 am.. having to learn how capcost n hensad or whatever the crap works n i was going a little bonkus. if i see anymore heat exchanger i m going to explode 1st before
it does.
and then checked out air tics for end of the year. i realise my tics for thanksgiving had some problem so i stayed till 3 plus am resolving it..but all is well now. i m gg california n chicago for thanksgiving ..n new york n florida(disney! yay) end of the year.tics have been bought. let's just hope nothing goes wrong anymore! i'll be back in singapore early jan..

and hopefully i'll have some time or chances to meet with da 6B pple here before i roll back to singapore..like that the bird in michigan who will probably be going for his 3rd..or was it the 4th honeymoon during thanksgiving.. n the rabbit who seems to be having tons of fun in virginia. n who has promised to introduce hot american hunks to me. n there's poon in brown.. daryl in michigan. there's lots of rj people in michigan..i should prolly make a trip down there some day. but it seems really hard to get out of ames n i have been trapped in the city for the past 1 month or so. anyone wants to come save me? its like in the states, no car=stranded. taxi are so expensive. mayb i shall organise a 6b outing here. like everyone meet under that christmas tree in des moines. n of cos, no one will turn up..haha

ahh some of u wants to see photos.
but i haven really been doing much these days' cept rushing tutorial ,studying for tests..
i'll try to take some photos the nxt time i go out..but it will b a long time because i have so many exams on da way for the next two weeks or so! grrrr

ahhhhhh so many projects n exams and homework! i thought i came here to enjoy life?
ha but anyway i mean i could just heck them all but i guess kai ling just like to work hard..
my new plant design project consist of 2 cute handsome n cool american dude plus me.. one with a really nice smile and eyes. that i could stare into. haha no, just joking. i m not interested in guys.period. my heart is dead. well in the sense. looking at blogs and photos of couples posing happily, or describing how happy they spent their aniversary and stuff doesnt make me feel like having a guy in my life right now.haha. right now i m just interested in seeing the world, experiencing new things.being independent..probably like what i am doing right now. there's so much out there to learn n explore. relationship. i guess are out of my life for the time being.

i recalled this conversation with a friend. haha when i told him i have sworn of relationship for the time being and will not get into one until i m ready for it. and i guess on my part i have a rather high expectations of one. and his reply was" i am happy for u. because u still have intentions to get married''
well that remains a mystery.
haha. but a few eye candies to look at is not a bad deal.

back to projects. oh yea sure thing they are cute. but i think they r the cool american dude who DOESNT do work. in fact i have heard complaints abt the other guy n he did not even turn up today!! sigh... whatever. grades are suppose to mean more to them than it is to me.
and then i have another huge project for my elective n my group consist of three unknown guys n me. SIGH. how come the professor dun put a girl in my group. bleah
and the worst thing is my projects are due the week after thanksgiving.but i have like plans for thanksgiving. SIGH isnt thanksgiving suppose to b for holiday.. like chinese new year?
and yea. two exams the week after this.. oct is a horrible month of exams and projects.
welcome to iowa state n the US education system.
i guess..i shall stone in my room for the weekend. sighz

lethargic.stone.down.bleah.
not in the mood to do anything

was looking at IA companies.
i doubt i can get any.but thats not the point. the point is i don't even know much of them.

whatever
i'm just gonna hide under the blanket again today.

today at hyvee
i saw them selling mooncake
mooncake festival already ah?

sigh
tap feels sad today
=(

the hei ren down the hall is at it again
it used to be loud music. those hei ren kinda music. he doesn't close his door and he plays his music really loud as if they are really nice and as if he is the only one living here

these days
he is starting to rap with the music

sighz

canoeing today was fun! i love it..although i know tomorrow, i'm gonna wake up to sore arms
but sorry to say i forgot my camera! so no pics..till i get them from other people..
but i love the scenery, the company and the weather, even though it was supposed to be like below 10 degreee celsius, it certainly didn't feel so!
i was lucky that my partner,heather is really good at canoeing since i HONESTLY do not know how to.. i mean i can't swerve, change direction or go straight. she's from wiscosin and is totally into outdoor sports.some kind of iron woman.she did those kind of marathon iron race kinda thing. and i spend my time talking to her about singapore, durian, dominican republic,how thanksgiving and christmas came about..and she's gonna be a doctor! in reconstructive surgery. and yea she commented i can speak good english too!
actually my partner was an indian guy(yes indian) but it ended up we both can't canoe and kept going into the rock at the side. so kailing threw her paddles up in exasperation and told him" i don't want u anymore!" haha
the scenery was really nice too..nice cool air..like those scenes u see in movies..where people go hiking kinda thing and then a monster or anaconda pops up. but no, nothing happened..it was a calm peaceful relaxing trip.. with crazy singing from some of the guys.
and then after the canoeing
some of us went to the mexican restaurant. ahhh 1st time trying mexican food. i asked maria to recommand a really good one because back in singapore, there are mexican food but i wouldnt know if they are authentic or similar to mexican's food. the food was nice though a little ex..but worth it since i have never tasted mexican food and really wanted to know what real mexican food was.

ok i got an exam next tue
got to study over the weekends. bleah. i got lotsa exams coming back
but i'll still have my fun somehow! =P

canoeing tmr.. at a temperature of 62° F , 47° F =17° C , 8° C
wish me luck
on the other hand
the studying life here is getting slightly more busy
actually according to the students here,chemical enginnering is one of the toughest course here as well
guess
the chem eng hell is everywhere
all over the world.
haha

and then horror of horror
i was trying to find out who was my chemical engineering mentor
u know.. in yr 1 u pretty much ignored that list and i mean after looking at the name of my mentor i pretty much ignored it since the name was too long
and guess who?
>
>
>
>>
>>
>
?>>>
Lakshminarayanan

i mean ok its not as bad la.. it could be worse
i promise i wun laugh at the hair anymore. i mean i wun look at the hair anymore
i still remember for cn 2108 exam, i was sitting in like the first few rows. and i kept staring at the hair. i dunno. why. hahaha..maybe thats y i din get the A for 2108. haha just joking la!


congrats kailing
congrats

wee!
i bought tics to california n chicago today for thanksgiving break
thanks to my friend cherry=)
but its quite expensive!! 500 usd!! tmr, i m gonna rob the bank down the street of my hall..

but i mean it will be cows year till i come back to us..so must tour more places..
wee!! exciting=)
can't wait for november and december

n i could think of songs in my head now
the oc theme song
''california here we come''
and theres this song i listen to when i was young abt san fransisco
''if u are going to san fransisco, be sure to wear some flowers in your head''
=)

ahhaha cold cold day
stuck on some crap problems i can't solve..sighz..its so cold that i don't even feel like stepping out of my house =(
and so i entertained myself with random net surfing as usual
ahhh its amazing how alot of Rj girls my age or older are now dressing up so well.. like wearing beautiful makeup and clothes. like dress. and looking all mature and more attractive.
and then here i am. wearing my tshirt n pants. ugly specs. yup i wear spec most of the time i m here..with a slightly deranged look(haha) and hideous hair. but its ok. i think sooner or later we will all learn to pay more attention to looks..but its also like..u need the grass to make the flowers more seem more attractive right..
hahaha anyway there was this american girl who commented i don't look like my age. maybe she meant i look like a kid. cos when i told her i was 20 going on 21, she gave me a "oh really?!" look and said i look young..

and for now..gotta head back to some plant design.. as usual. i m hoping for a pass. i m not too sure about the rest of my group though...=/

and this very special goes out to the acksx!
i miss u guys so much!
n aloy especially!!! because he wrote to me!! haha. i mean asking aloy to write is like asking him to study? haha.. i'll make sure i smuggle some gums back for u..ahhh..

and weiyi also=P
for msging me everynow n then!

love u all loads=)

ahaha my 1st exam in iowa. and the one for graduates. i just hope to get a pass la. haha
its freaking cold..44F which is abt 7 degress celsius?
oh i just realise its so cold after doin my conversion
and there i am wearing my thin black little jacket..the one i always wear to sch..well its not my fault. i woke up and i saw the sun so i thought ahhh sunny day.. remind me to check the weather website every morning.!


n so i just found out
56° F 32° F
13° C 0° C

its going to b zero degrees tmr!??!!!

anyway today i did my plant design project alone with thee msia guy
ahhhh i must be nice to him already
since theres a team evaluation which counts towards the final grade..sigh!

  

when i told people i am going to iowa.they are like.what are there in iowa.farms?cow boys?
yea so i went to the farm today! ahhhh i got to pick raspberry,apples and ride a horse..sing songs..do line dancing..!haa i'm surprised the americans tell me that i speak quite good english.maybe cos in comparison to the china n msian?no offence though. because i personally do not think i speak english well.

anyway
haa ok got to study....bleah!

the hayride trip... so fun! me and my friend sarah .. haha.the beautiful corns fields.bean fields of iowa.

the dog.the bbq pit where we grilled hot dogs 

the farm.i went raspberry picking!!! 

haa kai the fat girl on a horse looking scared. 

ahaha my neck is aching..
these few days were spent mugging..for my exams..since i m going to the farm on saturday n the exam is on monday. i better mugg hard these days.
n i signed up for the canoeing trip..hopefully it will b exctiing
theres an engineering ball coming but i dun think i am going because
1) iits 15 dollars for ticket
2)think prom night. ahhh i got no prom dress i make up and shoes n i don't want to spend money on them. clothes here are not that cheap. i mean the dressy kinds
3) ah no date leh...

and for now..back to books=/

 

memorial union.buchanan hall(where i stay).the lake in the sch.study abroad fair!check out the babe with us! she went to nus! today i actually promoted nus n singapore! hahaha it was quite fun..u know what is the question that almost everyone asked?''are the courses taught in english?'' haha ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i m so envious of the girl in yellow in the pic..she studied in nus for a sem,stayed in pgp n she had alot of fun travelling to msia,thailand, indonesia n hong kong. i have been in singapore for so long n i have not been to much SEA countries! =.=
haha and then i saw my freaky msian guy at the fair with his other friend who has a 101 question abt nus..hohoho i've been seeing alot of msian here..some r pretty nice. but i still prefer looking at the americans.they are better looking n hunkier..haha
n ok.today we had the design project. my bad breath boy played it cool by wearing a cap. but i just ignored him for the entire lesson n did my own stuff..well partly cos i was too engrossed in designing my crap distillation column..oh and one thing the professor in charge of my booth told me.. he is biased towards NUS. ntu people will kill me.. haha we are suppose to promote both uni but its like he prepared all sort of info and posters about NUS and kept telling the american student abt nus only.. hahaha ok la. i mean who cares abt what people in iowa think anyway right .ntu is good also right.no difference la=P

sunday was spent mugging
u cant kill the mugger personality in me. shipping me to ames here will still make kai ling a mugger. and it was raining anyway. i din feel like getting out. although greedy kailing was caught in the rain and she ran all the way back to the hall.the distance in which she ran was about that from science to engine. i hope i don't fall sick here.

theres a fair next tuesday where i m suppose to promote singapore and nus. i have not done anything yet. on one hand, i want to do my best to promote singapore n nus so that it reflects well on us..on the other hand.. i m simply too lazy.

and the worst thing is theres a canoe trip next sat at some river. ah i hope no crocodiles ah. but the thing is i have an exam on the monday after and two exam n one plant design project due 2 weeks later. it did not help that for the design project, theres a guy in my group with tremendous bad breadth,(ASIAN guy whose nationality will not be revealed). he is those slacker lazy worm kinda person. he doesnt contribute anything nor opens his mouth during discussion. but when he does open his mouth, i'll squirm and move away because the smell is horrendous.
this, is, i would say the type of guy i will never ever marry. ok throw me down the river if i do. kill me. not only does he have a poor sense of personal hygience, his outlook towards life n work is poor. i don't like slacker. u know. i don't the kind of people who pushes the work to others. they will never make it big.blah. blah blah. i m just ranting
oh well

i woke up today to a grey sky
its autumn here already
when winter comes. i guess it would be more depressing
was reading my friend's blog. i don't really keep in contact with him but we are the kind who would converse on msn every once in a while
i was saddened by his mum's passing
it was just a year ago we gathered at his house, where i saw his mum. preparing food for us. it seemed like only yesterday we were back in primary school. and that i've seen his mum.

''May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun''

the ISU band. the monster kailing at the game. YES i'm slowly gaining weight!  

players doing warm up ..ahh i am a tad sheepish to announce i have no idea whats american football aka rugby is about despite being from RJ. but the atmosphere there was great..really cool.. there were cheering.booing.cheerleaders.bands.. ahaha things u will never see in singapore
and in my 1 month here. i heard the US national anthem for the 1st time! ahh some americans are truly patriotic.

me n cherry with our ISU tatoo
the stadium was filled! 

ahaha before the game! this is the ISU band. n thats Jack Trice Stadium 

random pics

ahhh just a quick update
weekdays are filled with homework homework n homework! exams on my way..ahhhh help.. i need help for my graduate level module! its freaking --hard
u know
i realise
i m slowly being more comfortable here already
experiencing some sort of college life finally.. going to school. chilling out with friends in their rooms, having friends over n distracting me from my work..
and tailgating+ football game this sat
!!!

boring weekend
wasnt in the mood to study
so yesterday i was randomly reading blogs
u know i think most girls in a relationship complain that their bfs don't spend enough time and attention on them
haha guys u see why its good to be single sometimes
girls are demanding. its hard to please them. but don't take them for granted as well.


today was slightly better..maria suddenly popped by and asked me for lunch.oh and she gave me something from mexico!how sweet! and then i met this guy from peru who's quite funny.
movie later
ooh my 1st movie in the states... ;P

my new friends are iowa are actually quite lovely
so in facebook i wrote that i was sad and tired
because ok. taptap isnt here with me and i have 3 homework due tmr
n it doesnt help my classmates in one class are all graduates and teaching assistants n are doing their PhD.
n so 2 of them actually msg me abt asking me y i was sad.

anyway
was intending to head down to chicago with them over the long weekend since monday's labour day
but air tic cost ard 200 usd!! n i cant find anyone to drive us there..so i guess.. the weekend will b spend in maple or jc penny. haha

http://www.dining.iastate.edu/menus/udm/2006-8-31.pdf
with a menu like this(n it changes daily)
and a buffet style of dining.meaning u take whatever u want(everything on the menu is avilable to u!)
how not to get fat?

my mum surprised me today when she talked to me on msn
to think i was going to teach her how to use it

i m beginning to be a little worried
are the people here too friendly or dangerous
as i have mentioned to a few of u
a few week back
this black guy talked to me in the com lab. introduce himself. asked if i wanted to hang out with him. i was freaking scared. like hell. till today. i m still damn scared.


that aside
maria my friend thinks i m too shy and she wants to open me up
the reason why she thinks so is that i dont talk much to people
haha
the point is. crys would probably know
if i start talking, people will think i m morbid
haha

cold day..like walking in an air con room

sometime
i would start thinking
how nice it would be to b back home
or i would think
how would it be
to b at nus. gg for lectures.stressing myself out.would we still be together. was i happy then.

everynow n then.there's still this fear in me..
maybe the only thing i can tell myself is never look back

random thoughts.on a cold cold day
--In my dreams I'm not so far away from home,
What am I in a world so far away from home--

back to ODE=)

i miss these 2 person the most 

another party..which lasted till quite late.. seriously.i dun like party. i dun see whats so fun abt drinking,dancing,doing craxzy stuff. caucasians can really drink.really well. even the girls. i dont think i m going for any party anymore. i know i said that last time. but i mean it this time.haha but its like u gotta see some things for experience and some sorta eye opener..its like going clubbing. so american(or scottish) parties confirm the fact that kailing will nvr love clubbing.
and i m gonna mugg fer the rest of the sem.
the next time,i'll post pics of my studying in my room

cherry;cherry&rossa;randompple;adwoa(from uni of birmingham.jiawei!!!;maria n ivie;rossa;lando;food;maria



some international thing today
ahhh we had a tug of war..asian vs the rest of the world..and asians lost! boo hoo

i miss mummy,tap tap n lala=(

so this goes down the history book
kai ling did salsa dancing today
well..ok if u consider walking around counting the step, being out of the beat with every other person salsa dancing
well kai ling is lucky she did not step on any of the guy's feet. but they were pretty nice actually n cool about kailing the klutz telling me its alright. but i bet deep dpwn they must be thinking:what the hell is she doing
haha
anyway
it was quite fun
the nxt time, i m gonna find a guy friend/boyfriend/guy partner to go for dance classes with. like that i wont embarrass myself. no scratch that.make that a guy friend/boyfriend/ guy partner who won't mind kailing the klutz
like i say
big bear can't dance
i spend half of my life in the water not on dance
i'm sure i'll do better at water aerobics

friday!whee
ok every now n then i still think abt home.. now i finally know how it feels to be studying abroad.not easy huh..
n kai ling is going salsa dancing later..lol
now.bears cant dance right?

ok my classes are not cool.i hope i can survive=(
but i love meals at iowa
its buffet style
n i lunch with random people.today was with a bunch of international student. theres this chinese guy who's from mauritius. i nvr knew there were chinese there.hah bimbo?
some days i just lunch alone because i just cant b bothered.
haha
anyway
today i receive this box frm my mail
instinctively, i put in close to my ear and listen for any ticking sound.haha not a very smart move since if it was a bomb i would have die faster like that
turns off to b a package frm the bank la. hahahah
n mum just told me.my phone bill for the month is 100 plus!!!!!!!! now. thats really bad

i am working with this teaching assistant at iowa who graduated from MIT in chem eng for one of my module's assignment. the problem now is. he doesnt know how to integrate and i don't as well because i left my maths note at home. MIT huh.sigh.help.
the nightmare begins

i might as well post more
so yea bad day. i just sat n cry for like 5-10 min and den i called home and den somehow.theres some internet now.
more abt life here
classes has started
feels more like tutorial rather than lectures
the style of learning and teaching is really different here. the grading system is also very different.theres no bell curve.but straight grading. so maybe the gd thing is that it will be less competitive and people will be more wiling to help one another
had some kinda picnic today but i left early because i was feeling so upset over my laptop.
hmm but i guess i will get used to life alone
it has always been so hasnt it.
haha
and ok i have only 2 finals exams. haha. not sure if thats a gd thing
got to know this mexico girl(maria) and some other pple from malaysia.
there's some kinda road trip to minneapolis and maria Might be planning to go to new york for thanksgiving
i dunno if i shd go..haha
haven really study much.since its e second day. but i guess..i have so much time that i'll just end up mugging.
once a mugger always a mugger

stupid pics i have taken
not really interesting 

today i just came back to my room n cried
because my internet would not work and the com centre people cant fix it
my friends cherry n maria(this mexico girl ) was very nice about it and tried comforting me. no i cried after they left actually
i miss mommy. i want to b back home
and then somehow
the internet works now.i m not sure how long.. but i have no anti virus software alr..
boo hoo hoo

back at com lab
waiting for maple to dl and falling asleep
weeekends..rather boring here..
as for fun. i'll leave that to the next few months. i am suddenly tired.
yesterday attended my 1st american party over at someone's apartment
of booze,music n drugs i heard. beacuse i left early. so typical of kai ling.
but met some nicer and less wild people. like this girl from mexico and another one from finland.
but being a mummy's girl, kailing returned back to her room before 10.30pm
now..thats more cinderella than cinderella.haha
and kailing is now known as kylie,kelly,caitlin etc because i give up pronouncing my chinese name.haha kylie poh kailing,kelly poh.tappy poh. i think tappy sounds better
to divert
the pple i've talked to..they are all from this society of engineers thing that i am in as well..and they all want to b engineer. honestly. i stilll don't know what i want to be when i graduate.i'm a little obfuscated about what i want in life actually.
sometimes i feel like my heart is dead. or tired. like nothing really interest me.and i just want to lead a simple life. and i don't have the passion to do alot of things. even towards relationship of any kind. i have no interest and hobbies. its like the character i am in in maple. who goes around alone doing her own stuff. no zest.no passion.only a piece of stone in me.
haha
anyway back to reality
the weather here's really erratic.somedays its freezing cold and other day its so hot. like worse than singapore.i would say the weather is as erratic as my mood.

shall end off here b4 u guys think i am crazy or depress. i m fine.just not my day today

today i woke up
and suddenly i felt sad
like reality overcoming me suddenly
suddenly i started feeling homesick n missing everyone. n mourning over my laptop n the internet.
talking to people on msn
i suddenly felt sad n far away from everyone

haiz
lunch followed by some orientation stuff.
take carez all

ur dearest
morbibd kailing

my dam laptop is giving me problems and i cant get internet
so i sent it to the com centre and i think they wun know how to solve it as well
sian!
been out of touch with pple back home
but i din miss anyone(just joking la!) well in e sense that the 1st 2 days i came i was really sad and kept thinking abt everyone back there.but nowadays i feel better alr.
haha cos the days are all so packed and busy
doing admin stuff...shopping.walking ard.parties.meeting.crap. somedays i just feel like stoning in my room actually. i cant wait to start sch n to mugg! hahaha
checked out the mall
there's gap.american eagle.vic secret.aeropostale
bought lotsa stuff
no.i am not bringing nice stuff for u all beacuse the luggage wun have space
so its tampons for the girls( 1 each only) and gums for the guys( 2 each)
LOL!
took some pic but i think i will never get the chance to upload them cos of the dam internet.sob
anyway theres lotsa free food everyday
and watch me come back pui pui ok.
i've moved to my room alr. theres a phone but i dunno how to use it
but anyway i have no idea what is this post all about
my thoughts are jumbled up.

i want my laptop n internet.=(

wee
did anyone miss me?
i'm quite lazy to update about stuff because there are simply too many things to talk about..everything's so different here.
the people i've met so far are great..the americans.asians..etc...they are really helpful and friendly. there are quite alot of asians here so i dont feel that weird
anyhow
these few days are mad rush for orientation programms..which are boring.. but the people at the uni are REally nice to international students.they have a whole loads of programms and meetings,lunchs etc to help u know the place n people better. got free lunch today at some church.wee free! haha
shopped at walmart yesterday.bought this tshirt at 3usd only.. haha walmart stuff are REALLY cheap.. like snickers here are 44 cents in usd.i was so exhilarated to see the chewing gums until i realise i have braces.the gums here are cool.like m&m kind.ha i think i'm gonna to be happy just shopping there. there are soo many food that are interesting over here. everything's is like cheaper then singapore(except textbook. i bought one at 110usd!!luckily i got the rest of the text alr... sigh but i am worried for one of the modules which seem pretty cheem..=( and oh the PDC text we use last sem is like 100USD. u go do the maths. 1usd=1.56 sing dollar). i love walmart anyway. haha and its really near the school.i'll check out the mall n k mart next.
i got lost yesterday! scary scary. and was alone. but managed to find my way. luckily. its summer now and the day's really long. the sky's bright from 6 in the morning to almost 9 at night!
oh and my time table are
mon.wed.fri :11am to 3pm
tue and thur : 9am-2pm
ok i got too many things to say..too little time
really hard to contact u guys here in singapore because i still haven move in to my room.so no laptop set up yet and the time difference is bad. its like 5.49pm here. and i think its 6.49am in singapore. no one on msn. haha
oh well..shall end off here...
p.s:weiyi :i received ur sms. not sure if i can reply cos i m not sure how much it will cost.
and to everyone else.. thanks for words of comfort. i keep telling everyone to bring me home..oh well..i'll learn to be strong. and hope for the best
take care all.. =)
i love u guys.

ha and kailing has arrived at the university
no internet yet.using someone's else who kindly signed in for new students

life alone,out of comfort zone beckons

n so this is it
leaving for airport in 1 hrs time
cant sleep
these days. sometimes i just cry a little alone. fear.apprehension.confusion.mixed feeling.sadness
i'll miss everyone of u here.i'll miss papa n mama. how to survive without taptap n lala.boo hoo
take carez all my dear friends
thanks for all e meet up n gifts
i'll be back soon
n will update as soon as i have connection there.

sometimes i wonder
if leaving or being left behind worse
on one hand. i am excited. yet there's still the apprehension and sadness in me. there are some things i still cannot bear to leave behind
and i really hope everything runs smootly.sometimes being paranoid n pessimistic gets one prepared i guess.
the past two weeks flew by.
got to get out now.
will continue tonight. its hard falling asleep these days with so many things going through my head.=/

waiting for some maple patch to load
might as well type some crap

these few days have been rather emotional. feeling depressed at times, making myself feel better at times.
well its nice to have friends around me
the bird for the magic keychain today..thanks ah.was quite touched n surprised. it sure was tiring shopping for the old time buddy shiwei's present. but i think it was quite fun. anyway shiwei, we got u superman walkie talkie. they r 2 walkie talkie of a superman model.hahaha
u know sometimes i really think small presents are enough to make me happy(of couse i won't mind an expensive n big presenthaha)..its really the thoughts that count. there's no such things in e world as 'i don't know what to buy so i never buy anything''
seriously if a person tells u that. it shows enough about how much he/she values the friendship.
well its all in e past anyway. we will all move on

and then a couple of my friends offered to send me off. i think by now
those who truly cared would have known or ask me abt my flight. thanks everyone for the offer to send me off..but u guys don;t have to. SERIOUSLY.i'll feel bad making u all come at those unearthly hours
theres another uni classmate of mine who offered to help me check out books. thanks alot dude
and sheryl my jc morning friend where we spent the morning before flag raising talking about rubbish,stoning in e cold lts,looking at guys who made the effort to meet up..too bad kl dun club so she can't go mos.
and the list goes on
people who bothered. n cared.

anyway
i supposedly cut my hair yesterday by a laobeng with long hair. i don't usually fancy guys with long hair because most do not look good in it.well except the 5566 show where there's a rather cute guy with rather nice hair.
anyway laobeng cos just laobeng la. long curly hair with those golden colour dye
all this because my usual stylist,a younger beng has moved on to another branch to work. haha

and anyway i may have discovered why i am so ghastly looking
a blood test shows i do not have enough blood! i m serious. near anemic
pig liver anyone?

i've got a terible confession
i made a mistake abt my flight n told everyone e wrong date=/

1 week arghhhhhhh

was at a uni classmate 21st bday thingy today
happy birthday lisa!
feels a little weird to tell people see ya next yr
feels a little long but actually its just 4-5 mths
i'll be back in a jiffy.haha
anyhow was looking at my textbooks
they don't seem very friendly=/

sigh
more shopping tmr
my right ankle actually hurt these days
i don't know if it's due to having sprained it once b4
or is it due to 10 craps years of swimming
that whenever i walked too much
it starts to hurt

1 week till hols end....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

these few days have been a hectic ones
going to nus,ntu n clementi,orchard to look for textbooks, jabs,laptop servicing,buying necessities
night time are spent on maple but of course. haha doing brainless stuff instead of levelling up
and tomorrow i still have to make my way to nus..grrr
speaking of ntu. the sch's rather huge. but i managed to walk frm engineering to business, where popular is. was a tiring walk but the sch was rather vacant n quiet.
nus. is rather vibrant these days thanks to various ongoing orientation crap
sorry but i just tend to frown upon these OGs and orientation stuff like dancing,cheering
but anyway thats a personal thing
i just feel its rather redundant
but of course. u may beg to differ.
which makes me wonder
how do i get thru the orientation thing at iowa?

and anyway 1 more week
shd i be excited? haha
nxt wk will b spend packing n packing plus
a couple of bdays parties
dinners with friends
thats about it

but theres one HUGE question
how do i fit taptap into the luggage?

conquered ntu today
walked a thousand miles

and now
finally
to get some packing done...

from bedok to nus to clementi to indian shop
ntu tmr
this is how i waste my days
no prize for guessing correctly
what i've been doing

10 days..
time really fly by without u knowing
may,june,july. i can't remember how i spent the hols
was touched by crys n xh's offer to send me off.. since the flight is at unearthly hours
haha but u guys dun have to=)
wait i cry n refuse to get on the plane how!?
n thanks to aloy..for taking leave yesterday=)
n crys for the teddy bear earrings.. I'll wear it. hah!
n sharon.have a great trip to perth!

more pics
just don't feel like sleeping early today
--couting down the days-- 

will miss u all=( 

today my darling boy told me he got scratched by durian cos he ran into them.. haha so poor thing right? but i kept laughing..hahaha no la. if i were there i would scold e durian seller or haul one durian at him. and then he knocked his head into someone in sch. so it was red. and when i asked him when he knock his head. he told me from ubi to bedok... haha so cute!! i don't know what he was talking abt.
anyway
my last day at work
bade a tearful farwell to him
my other darling was sick.. boo hoo hoo..i cldnt even terrorise him for one last time



so many things to buy n do
haiz
i feel the same old dread creeping in
which occurs towards e end of hols
=(

14 days
i haven start packing. in fact i have not bought my luaggage. haha. maybe i am waiting for night of the 11th and then i will start panicking n packing.u know. some sort of cheap thrill.. =/

work will end nxt week.
sigh.i'll miss my 2 boys..=(
they have made my days really happy=)
i haven smile so much than e past 5 weeks.
no wonder they say kids are a bundle of joy.actually. i think i m in love with a 3rd boy. haha frivolous indeed.
no to mention, i'm an extremely bias person who practise favourism.they get better treatment n presents. i am only nice to people i like.

i really wonder how they will all grow up to be
on the other hand, i may be somewhat pyschotic n sometimes i enjoy making kids cry. hahaha.i was joking.

these 5 weeks have been great.really.honestly.living in a world of innocence and free of facade,complicated relationship. i simply dread the day i have to go back to nus.it's like an antithesis of my life right now. of ugly and unhappy days.of people u don't really want to see but have to.

anyhow
got so much stuff to settle and do
must TRY to meet up with friends.
lotsa friends' 21st on the way. i'll be celebrating mine in e cold winter of iowa. haha. no fear. i'll build a snowman for myself. or find myself a farm boy. hahaha
-tako pachi.tori Q. -

buddy time
the bird was shopping fer his daughter.
i was shopping for my boy
e bird looks tanner n better
while the bear is still as ghastly as ever 

and then the hermit life begins.e phone is down. msn are for weird hours with no one there.
i attribute this to surfing too much nus website.looking @ cors crap.which occurs at the twilight of my three months of lovely holidays.

i know of only one fellow RJ hero enterting chem eng. e one who commented he will b there to increase the no. of cute guys in chem eng =.= haha
of course. happy babe and hunk watching everyone
new sem marks a new facade. which manifest itself in orientation. (orientation camps are a big no-no haha)
everyone is nice. guys and girls check out each other. haha.
and excitment soon retreats into dread

'They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor'
''lifehouse----blind''

haha i sound so morbid
ok anyway that aside
its monday tmr=)
looking forward to my 2 eye candies. haha
see yer all nxt wk=)

party today
food food food
pretty kids in pretty customes
i am so in love with my two little boys;P
if i have kids like them i will love them to death
i only manage to get the photo of one of them. so cute!
i m very sure i want kids next time. if not my own kids, i'll adopt.haha

on e other hand
hols are ending because cors is starting.
somehow hols is like a dream. all rainbows n butterflies. no stress.no late night of mugging.feeling tired.wanting to sleep but not being able to due to endless schwork.no drooling on textbooks.gg out with friends. wasting time on trivial stuff.shopping.eating. watever
n pretty soon
we will all go back to reality.sighz

shopping!
saw a very nice mini skirt today but decided against buying it because my thighs are too fat for it. sob! it was those kind of skirt i always wanted to buy=(
n then i spent alot on facial products.sigh.
its hard being a girl. in e sense.i think girls in general have more to spend on as compared to guys.from hair products.to facial products.some have to spend on makeup. and then there r the never ending amount of uber nice clothes n shoes to buy.accessories.earrings. chains.cute stuff.
of course maybe for some guys, they spend alot.because they have to spend on the girlfriend. *cough*(like e one in melb)hahaha. and then there are some vain ones like lala. hahaha

but for people like me. i have less to spend on.since no matter how much money i spent. i'll still look like a witch. hahaha.but i have to spend the minimal so that i do not become the ugliest of the witch. haha sounds very morbid again.

whatever
monday blues!!!!!!!!
see yer all next week!

hmm a relaxing day today
spent e morning watching tons and gazillions of shows that i've recorded over e weeks
and then met the bear-friend-cum-gay.got spotted by cousin.who threatened to complain to mummy.chilled at tcc.took neoprints with me looking ghastly as usual. checked out guys at num.
it's been long since i roamed orchard with friends.

late night of mapling.msn chats.blog surfing.tv watching.
ah.precious weekends.
bro back to melb fer his honeymoon. haha.he was back but not really back. because i think he spent most of his time out with someone.haha.although it was still nice to have someone to play maple with.
today i realise i may b a paedophile.
i m in love with two little guys whom i think are very adorable n good looking
hahaha then again, i may also b a bi, since i also like this little girl whom i think is so cute

so in the future i will marry a guy 15 yrs younger than me n then maybe i will have a few kids n hopefully they are cute.since i m a paedophile.must have kids to play with me.
haha
sounds morbid.slap yourself twice if u believe me.
although after watching this reality show yesterday abt what happens to women after they gave birth is giving me second thoughts. stuff like ugly stretch marks on e tummy to balloning frm 45- 90 kg.uh-oh.

today i have cravings for
bah kwa.haha

time is really flying by.mid july alr!!
cherish the remaining days of hols!!
i m counting down the days alr=( =) (mixed emotions)

happy birthday to debra!!

i think i've come too far to change my mind
not that i have regrets
one should never look back anyway
life's back to normal n i am fine with the way it is
stress-free at the moment.
nothing to feel sad about.
nothing to feel happy about.

the only thing i enjoy is-eating.

changi village nasi lemak aint that fantastic what.i think its over rated.
but well i do have cravings for
1)soup spoon--that mushroon thingy
2)pasta-those creamy type
3)steamboat
4)yong tau foo
5)fastfood.

of course.when girls start eating.they put on weight.
haha.

no work tmr=)
which explains y i am still online
half day on tue cos i have to go sch=)
ok its july already. one day zoom pass really fast
before i know it, aug will b here
excitment,apprehension...mixed emotions basically.in some way,i cant wait to get away frm life here,yet on e other hand, there is still e fear n inertia in me.
well at least work keeps me from thinking abt anything
so in a way, life is happier.haha
accompanied a friend to shop today.conquered orchard. i realised today. gasp!its not easy to buy guy's clothes too. esp since i have nvr bought any clothes fer guys b4.n my fashion sense is quite bad apparently. so hopefully when he wears e shirts no one give really bad comments.
n i'll b glad already since this is honestly the 1st time i shop fer guy's stuff

bleah
haven done anything fun/exciting these days=(
except playing with monsters. hahaa