SOme photos finally. Ok WARNING lotsa photos. So if u dun like it, dont read. And for once i have the time to sit down and take my own sweet time to blog and upload pics ( unglam ones). Lets start off with a ghastly photo of some random dude i picked up from the library apparently. dunno what went over him. Maybe strike toto or something. Or got some hope finally.





















And then out to sentosa and vivo today. Just sitting on the sand, feeling the light sea breeze, chatting and tanning, without any work in mind feels really good. I could imagine myself sitting there for hours. Dont ask me what's with the act cute pose. I purposely chose them and put them all up. hahaha.

And basically let's just say today. i was terribly upset that my camera's battery went dead. So photo whore here din have a camera for the day. And then the next tragic news was she-who-laughed-at-me photo whore queen 2, CRYSTAL GOH's camera didnt work too because she left her memory card at home. So we had to turn to Xiuhui, whose camera has been subjected to previous tauntings by us because of the quality of the photos. But u see, this poor little camera whom we have been laughing at did us the kind deed of photo whoring. I am never going to laugh at u again ok. Promise.

And DONT SAY I NEVER PUT UNGLAM PHOTOS OF MYSELF LA. It was supposed to be sultry, ghastly, scared and normal. Looking ghastly has always been my forte. And for crys-happy, bui song, geeky and glad. Somehow she looked more glam than me. Brrr.

And of cos, to complete the story, we have the most unglam photo of the day.. presenting to u, Miss East-man girl. HEr bf is called east man. When u translate it to english.

And then, being bimbos, we went to MAngo to try on dresses we would never imagine ourselves in, just for fun. I know. As always, i look ghastly. Terrible. Two weeks of exam killed me.

And ok one last shot to end the day. All of us, being nice daughters, rushed home to be with mummy on Mother's day. Seee yer all again soon. Esp aloy n sharon! XOXO. Gotta start packing for e melbourne trip. DID I MENTION I HATE PACKING.

ok somehow i morphed into the world's most disorganized person.
i know there's 1001 thing to do-(nope not mugging but miscellaneous stuff). But i am not doing them. There's 10001 little little things to do, from planning or reading up on my trip, to applying for this and that, packing, going out, buying stuff, (trying on e graduation gown) <--must put if not i will forget. etc etc etc etc. So i am free but busy in a way. busy thinking about what i have to do and not doing them.
stuff i did over the past few days. let's see. basically meeting up with people i want to.shopping. eat.sleep.get fat. oh ya, wii is fun! i should ask poei to get one. Anyhow had a pretty nice talk with a friend over dinner yesterday.. it left me with some revelations and thoughts abt stuff and myself. but let's not dwell into that. After that, helped him move out of Raffles Hall (thereby setting foot in raffles hall for the 1st and possibly the last time in NUS). I know. Me being a mover doesn't sound very believable. But watching people move sorta reminded me of how i moved out of Buchanan Hall. Basically, i had one day to pack everything into 2 suitcases and it was done in such a horrible rush that i didnt even had the time to feel sad. And then everything sunk it when i had the time to sit down and think abt it.Not too good a feeling i would say.

Ok. Gotta go out Again. Sigh.

haha because i am such a weirdo, i secretly enjoy taking photos with couples and being a mega-watt lightbulb ;P
















something exciting happened..but because i am such a weirdo, i am not revealing anything!
Was out with a friend yesterday..caught the Iron man which was not too bad i guess... but it was the 1st time i set foot in Orchard Rd for i-dunno-how-many years and felt reallllly free... gonna try to appreciate this period of time before i start work, where it's really stress free. no worries from school or work. yet. haha.

heey forever...hey forever...

IT"S OVER!!!!!! HAHAHAA
4 years of CHEMICAL ENGINEERING...
"celebrated" the end of everything with a few friends at blooie which was a pretty decent place to chill... all those talks about job hunt, grad trip, who's gonna get married 1st etc etc makes me feel really old.

looking back at my 4 years in chemical eng, i honestly can't rem what happened in the 1st 2 years. Probably cos there was nothing worth remembering.
Guess the turning point came in year3 sem one when i left for iowa. Come to think, i still have rather vivid and nice memories of ISU, the campus and life there. Missed everything like crazy and I would seriously love to go back there. But i guess not in the 1-2 years to come. It will be really awkward.
And the yr 3 sem 2 was spent on internship. Which was a whole new experience by itself. And then yr 4 sem 1 which was really slack, and then this last and bittersweet sem. Bittersweet i would say because School work was horrible but there was stuff that made school much better=P.

Anyhow,

I can already think of 1001 things i want to do!

The first and most important is : do nothing!

whahaha then meet up with all my friends and all e "hot dates" i have promised.


And then plan for my melbourne trip!

Oh n sleep n sleep.

Thats it for now!

In this crazily warm night, with one whole stack of polymer notes to mugg. kinda feel like packing up n leaving for somehwere else by myself. somewhere else cooler. without expectations. without worries. with nothing to think about.


=/

3 papers down
one left! the final exam in nus. next week. haha.

I think too much mugging has taken its toll on me. Maybe if u ask me who i like now, i can go " Naphtha! "
I just feel nothing. Or rather, i feel like a piece of stone.

Anyhow, was seated next to some xena warrior today during exams. This girl, really reminds me of xena. She was punching her calculator as if it owed her $100000 or more cos it was so loud and i relly wanted to throw my pencil case at her. And when she flipped her paper, she did it so loudly and with so much might that it seemed like she was angry with the paper. I think she prolly ate a cow for dinner. dam fierce

Too tired to think nnow.
Sleepy time.
Brand new day.

Ok


I think i am pretty dead. (as always). but really, judging by the stack of stuff waiting to be processed into my brain. i know i am dead. i need 36 hrs a day. grrr.

Maybe time should stop here. I know this sounds crazy because everyone is prolly wishing exams could just come and go, like that of u when u go to sleep and wake up, then poof, everything's over.

These days, it's all about tweety. The 2nd pic has its hidden msg carefully concealed for the safety of the faint hearted. The first pic is from one of my current fave shirt which i got from walmart back in iowa. It's funny cos when peple ask me what my shirt says, i just say shutt up


Kinda miss walmart. (badly)

miss 3031.I miss all the stuff i did back then. grr. even the cold. or checking mail boxes. but memories are but memories. they are not real anymore. i do however, keep the nice memories close to heart, bringing them out just to look back at them a little and smile at them. but it ends there. There's so much more of the future to look forward to. For things that i miss or want to do again, for places i want to visit again, i have alr made a silence promise to myself to do them or return some day. As for people of the yesteryears, they don't matter anymore. Or rather, those that matter are those i still keep in touch with.

With a touch of your grace.Shadows fade into the light
BAck to mugggggging.

muggmuggmugg
kinda feel like i am in some sort of hibernation mood, casually neglecting the world and everyone around me, doing things at my own pace. i can't study with people around bcos they just stress me out totally.
sometimes i feel i really dont understand myself. like telling people to "follow their heart" but yet i could never do so myself. but i will save this long and complex story for another time.
5th may. e day when i am finally done with exams. I can already think of 1001 things i want to do. Even the smallest little thing like just having the time to sit down with a warm cup of coffee and read all the newspaper article i want to sounds good to me.

Oh well. Back to mugging. Won't be updating much bcos THERE IS NOTHING to update except whine about how i think i am so dead and how horrible my mood is.

Rawr.

Mugging.
My favourite form of entertainment -->online shopping. reminiscing. Visited the long abandoned friendster. Aiyayyaya.. kinda brings back lotsa memories. ACKSX, RJ days, and people in ISU, esp the evil bro and mistress. Can i have some of those days back? Those carefree times. I miss. But i think 2006 was really a year where i changed the most. Can't really explain why. And was reading Sharon's blog. More reminiscence. This one's for u babe. This is u way back in 2004, terrorising aloy. Cheers.


























































Someday, somehow, i'll make my way back.Those days.

Ok tomorrow is my laswt day of school. Officially, not counting exam. So, my last class will be the Engineering Professionalism lecture. (unless i decide to do some masters next time) . The last time i get to sit in a lecture, to roam NUS, to chill with friends or classmates in school, to work on project in the E5 com lam etc etc. Although i don't think i am gonna miss NUS a lot, but there are stuff i will miss, like my classmates, some of whom i think are pretty nice n funny.

So anyhow, i am finally done with design 2. Undoubtedly, the most horrendous module ever. I wish i could party and play, but there's still the much dreaded exam to deal with. I wish i have another hour to blog and write down every single stuff going through my mind and the happenings of this last sem of mine. It's really a sem full of ups and down. And a sem, where i am really totally into school, not so much of wanting to but rather having not much of a choice. So much so that there are days, i get through just thinking of the stuff to do. Of cos, there are the rare surprises along the way. Like getting to know new people through projects. (like the 2 WEIRD chinese high BOYS in my Eng prof group). One of them has a strange penchant for earrings:



















(just so u all are wondering, he's single but not available. )
And HE's not GAY. sorry. Girls, u can send me ur resume if u are interested.

Actually, i have had people or friends telling me they like it when i blog about them. I am not too sure abt the one above. hahaha. prolly, i better avoid him for a while. hahaha.

I'll blog more abt stuff another time. And crys, this one's for u. SO KAWAII!
LET'S MEET IN NUS FOR ONE LAST TIME AND TAKE photos at every single building. Ok peace out. Time to get back to mugging.

It's 2am, and somehow, i feel the blues of school and other stuff in life. Kinda like having lived in some sort of alice-in-wonderland sort of mood the past few days,and somehow, sitting here, typing a report at 2 am, i suddenly felt like reality closed in on me once again. Can;t really explain why, but really, more of disappointment in myself as always. Sigh

Oh well, sch's coming to an end. might as well enjoy what's left rather than linger in what that has gone by. What i really need now is prolly a really nice, long and uninterrupted sleep and maybe a really nice hug.
But i am thankful for a yellow creature who appeared from nowhere and caught me offguard but makes my days alot happier.
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So i really should stop complaining and be thankful for everything. After all, many stuff in life are ephemeral. You just gotta cherish what u have at the moment.



If we close our eyes it could be just me and you

There's actually 1001 stuff on my mind. I wish i have the time to pen everything down. And actually, i have to admit, i am sharing lesser stuff on my blog as compared to the past. It's isnt because i have something to hide, just that, some stuff, u can keep them in ur heart and feel good about it. :)
How long it will last, i dont know. And it doesnt matter.

Anyhow, i am going to Melbourne to visit Poei!!! ;)

but for now... i need to get thru exams. oh and design.

Eeps..rather busy...but promised to do up this post because some people complain i nvr ever blogged about them..Anyway presenting to u, the executive, the professor and the ka kia. (miss u, weiyi)
Always enjoy their company cos they always make me laugh till my cheeks hurt. Executive, u come back more ok! much as we like to tease u abt how u take plane like taxi..we do love to have u back=P
Cheer up k!!!
Next up, sentosa in speedo swimming trunk n BiGini ok. oh and the ping-pong show down.
Some random photos in which we were sorta clowning around. We managed to get the prim-and-proper executive to act cute. Haha.

Anyway, i think i am gonna hibernate again. Cos i am gonna be really really busy for the next one month or so. Critical period. esp the next 8 days. I wont have time for anything till i get my costings done.Much as there are some really crazy beautiful and amazing stuff i can talk abt, there's also the crazy dreadful stuff on my mind. Take care all of u. xoxo

Haha remember i once wrote a post in which i said i like to actually do something crazy every now and then, venture out of comfort zone and go against the norm if i have the chance to do so?

Well i just did something really really crazy.. really really crazy
But i am not saying what.
Cos if i did, i know, i will prolly get 1000001 qns. and 10000001 "OMG!"

Anyhow, had the honour of being driven around today. And managed to catch up with all my darlings for dinner today. Seriously. drama stories as always. Well at least this time round, it's all the nice things. I still rem the past few times, it was break-up and sad stuff.
So another one has fallen over to the OTHER side. pretty soon, i will start seeing all the " nothing but sweet" or "sweeter than sweet" or "just love" stuff.wahahaha
The expression me and Crys gave:




















But i am truly happy for u two ok. :)
Not gonna post too much photos.Cos at the amount of sleep i am clocking, i think pretty soon, i am gonna look like crap. So don't want to give u guys too much nightmare. But just in case, some of u really miss me. haha























































Ok back to reality.. must get through the next 2 -3-4 weeks..at least..now..there's some sort of motivation n something to look forward..:)
but i don't really want to think too much either...or rather the other intriguing thing i think about these days is design2 .. sigh.

So today, i did something i have always wanted to do but didnt have the time to.
I cleared my laptop of barnacles of the past.


"There comes a point in life where you realise who matters, who never did, who won't anymore and who always will"

People walk in and out of your life. People come and go like season. That's what i have been told. I couldnt agree more.
& to me What matters is who remains at the end of the day.
Or rather, what i want to is to cherish those people who matter to me now and try not to let them become an object of the past.

I am just really disappointed and upset with myself.like really
But i figure i will go to bed and wake up to a new day.
Sometimes, all the horrible stuff just come in packages. .
Although nice things do happen..like exploring unchartered territories. Just less frequent these days.

i'll update more when i have the time.
Gotta spend more time with my pillow. It's been a while

Ok
I m off for hibernation and intensive camping in some dark secluded corner by myself till thurs when the cooling tower gets done.

Take care everyone.
xoxo

Hmm when u are at year 4, last semester, things feel a little different. Having been too caught up with studying and school, i have never really took time to appreciate being in NUS. It's kinda like walking but never looking up at the sky . (ok its not normal to do that). But sometimes, if u take just a little time to look up, u may realise that actually the sky(at night) with the stars is crazy beautiful. So these days, admist all the crazy projects, i have been rediscovering NUS., hanging out in the library, going to places that i have never been to. (and trying to appreciate life as a student)

Sometimes i think, it is really the little little stuff in life that makes life ok. Nice conversations, taking the time to just sit down, have a drink(not beer though) and chill, supper etc etc. Basically, just taking your mind off school. That was an amazing feeling.

Ok. Back to reality. Cooling tower=/

i wish i could sit down and write a long grandma story about life, my thoughts and stuff going on. But sadly, there's a peak oil essay, a cooling tower report and a couple of projects and presentation separating me and blogging. But i'm not complaining, because the crazily hectic life kept emptiness from settling in. By emptiness i mean, the notion of waking up to nothingness. Nothing to do, nothing to feel about.
Anyhow, Kinda like the feeling where i wake up with something to do in mind and go to sleep with things to do tomorrow. But i know, i am sort of too caught up with my own life that i am sorta oblivious to the people around me and what's going on in their life. I am still with the notion that no one's indispensable in the world. Or at least i haven met someone who can make me feel otherwise.

That's is. i tell u. Pretty soon i am gonna turn into a robot.

ithinkwearewalkingondifferentsidesoftheroad

There was a time i remembered saying : It's actually a pretty nice feeling to have someone to miss.

But if u ask me to emo-nemo now, i can honestly tell u, there is no one i will or can emo about. As heartless and callous this may sound, it's true. . Seriously, even all the anger, disappointment that i felt for a while has vanished without a trace.
I mean some memories stay, but the significance of them has changed. I no longer look back and wish that those were real once again. Rather, i looked back upon them for they were my past.

Right now, i m more worried how am i gonna finish studying for my test. my peak oil essay, my 40 page cooling tower report . my tutorials. my webcast.


there'snogravitytoholdmedownforreal

I actually have not been blogging much because each time i try to sit down to type something, i realise i dont know where to start. All i can say is that life's crazily busy for me but interesting. Or at least, i'm trying to see it in a more positive perspective. There are ups and downs but all i want to say, at the end of the day, i am really thankful to friends who have never fail to make me smile. I think i was laughing the whole of yesterday's night.

Speaking of which, i think i am really down with some laugh-non-stop disease.


Random stuff
this one's from some Sian Ah guy
Tap tap:" So how you practise singing"
XXX:" I sing into the pillow"
nope. not telling u all who sings into pillow.

(from crys blog) this one comes from someone who just fell in love recently & which i thought was funny because that certainly doesnt sound like something she will say.
SSS: " hey is the train coming? i cant see cos i'm blinded by love"


This one's from another friend who fell in love recently( and rather hopelessly in love)
ZZZ: " hey taptap, i'll talk to u another time ok. I need to go over to her house to make breakfast now"
This one i expected la.




As for me. HAHAHA. Don't ask. But thanks all, for the very kind act of matchmaking me.
Some random day in school and walking with a friend:
Friend A :" Ay (pointing to a guy that just walked by) this kind of pattern you like or not. My pri school friend"

After i am done with my cooling tower and peak oil, i'll prolly have more time to think about that. hahaha.

And so i was told my blog has gone haywire.
And so, I have no choice but to change the template.
sigh.

I suddenly wish that time passes by just a little slower.

Somehow, my blissful ignorance came to an end and i became a slave of deadlines. Even though i am feeling the stress , i guess i am really taking things as they come to me and just doing what i can to the best of my ability. There are just too many stuff in life you have no control over. Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly.

So where do we go from here

Ok photos from the FYP poster day. of class mates, my research group and random chem eng friends. feels a little like graduation. eeps. And Crys. Thanks ah! for travelling down from ARTs to Engine just to say hi. I promise to cross over to Arts next week to hunt you down.
n i know there's a whole lot of photos. so bear with it. i put everything in cos i have no time to upload on FB. So if anyone of u wants ur photo, let me know ok! i'll send u.
AND MUTHU NO PHOTO FOR U COS U MISPLACED MY TEXTBK AND NOTES BY LEAVING IT ON BUS 72. RAWR
.

Today's mail from my Professor reads:
"The FYP poster exam this year is scheduled on March 12-14. May I propose that we all visit the posters and the FYP students from our research group in the following schedule"

We all= him and his group of PhD students. abt 10.
i can so imagine the whole entourage of them coming down n watch me do my presentation. and scrutinising my poster. and shaking their head in disgust at the horrible posters and results.

i am so so dead.

what i really wish for now, is a nice and long sleep, without any worries and undone stuff cluttered at the back of my mind.
But i figure i am not alone in this. prolly all the year's 4 are now basking in the horror of being, well a Year 4. The things we talk about these days are : hydrogen plant& FYP.Speaking of which, after next week, i will be finally liberated from FYP. speaking of which, i think next week during the poster presentation i am going to try to hide in one corner with that 'wonderful' poster of mine.


It's like 3 am now. got too caught up doing my FYP. Alright. a collage of random pictures of friends who never fail to cheer me up.
N Presenting 2 u, ur friendly ambassadors of Changi Airport T3, kai ling poh and sharon teo. Yoz girl, be strong! tree trunks..are but tree trunk

ok bcos blogging isnt safe, i have to take down some entries.
I just had this weird notion--> being free from any emotional attachment to anyone, feels prettyl good to me right now. . All i have to think of is myself. And i'm at a phase of life, where what lies ahead is a circle of grey.. So it's kinda like i am just drifting and wandering till i meet that someone who can make me look his way.



anyway. it's march. yes march. march spells horror. the air is filled the acrid smell of stress and gloom. march also means 2 months till e end of school life. sadly, i am at a phrase where i wish i don't have to move forward yet. because i think i am not ready.
i dont exactly want to look back but i dont want to move forward as well. Kinda just want to escape from everything. i know jolly well that i never look back at stuff. & people who belongs to the yesteryears will always remain as a remnant of my past.
But the inertia in me in not wanting to move forward, i can't explain why. After all i am the same person who proclaims that i embrace changes.

alright. sch starts again. i m outta here for a while too!
till next time. xoxo