neopets is back on my agenda wif e retards game that amuse mi
aniway i will b spending e nxt 4 yrs of my life in chem engineering.. i hope it will b fun.. hey yj congrats...nxt time remember to give mi free braces..

watched van helsing today..quite a cool show..realli enjoyed myslef n miss u guys so much!! we've got so much catching up to do... and aloy got to be e biggest country bumpkin.. i had to bring him to marina and suntec..haa n so funky huh? pink shirt..ok aloy if u r reading this, i m gonna praise u la.. mi n crys agreed u have matured alot actualli..=)..doing more studying now..though i still think u need to spend juz a little more time in yer studies..ok but mayb thats cos i m a mugger..

as fer crys..ha u realise its a long time we wrote to each other? but guess we r still pretty much e same..ha psychology fer u huh? mayb nxt time when i am depress u can give mi free counselling..actualli i m always interested in e subject myself..it sounds fun..
as fer xh congrats too on yer recent attachment(though sad that i onli got to know 2 mths later), thus making kailing e great e onli sad case among us five.. ay nxt time u bring yer cx, crys bring her jon, aloy bring his loren n sharon her ming chuan out la...so cool...and i mmust comment u realli do look happier..its just this glow of happiness that i see on ur face which u prb wun realise..but i m still on e singlehood thing..mayb i will change my mind someday.. but rite now..it juz seems unimportant and faraway... eh no i din get ditched or rejected or wat.. its juz mi n my weird thinking..and also if i cant even b a good friend towards others why wonder to b in a relationship..i dunno alot happened recently that makes mi feel i m a failure in alot of things i do.... aloy n crys commented i take ages to reply smses.. and i agree.. i admit i have distanced frm e entire world.. it feels like i am living in my own world.. call mi insensitive but i can juz heck care things n not care abt wat others feel..i do not practise wat i preach.. i can tell others not to do sthg n do it myself..
oh well..i m not making sense n u all prob wun know wat i am talking abt...so nvm..its juz another night which i feels particular moody and screwed up..

1.00am... n i dunno wat to do now.. gave up on gunbound.. i think listening to evanescence distract mi..haa
i hate having to sleep everynight
haa looking at deb's album actualli brought back some memories...sumtimes i wish i was back in sch, stoning wif my notes but minus all e mugging

haa aloy u r e onli person i know who can still play gunbound e day before yer exams and plan to go watch van helsing.. haa cool..
freaking sian.... i finished all my vcds and i m on a losing streak in gb..mayb i shd go hibenate in iceland...book a ticket n nvr come back

haiz my good frend yj actually lied about mi... i am utterly devastated, dejected, disillusioned,disappointed, distressed, distraughted..nono words cant describe the hurt and pain inside mi...lol..joking..haha but yj...we know the truth..=)..hee and if i ever do go out wif my lovers, i wun deny la...and so i can give u all my utter assuarance that i was at ps ALONE since i have 0 lovers, 0 crush since long before time,and intending to stay this way until i changed my mind duh..=P

anyway b4 yj kill mi or send her lovers after mi, ok la..enuf crap aniway.. well bird was wif yj but i guess not hot date la..they juz happen to be there earlier...the previous post was an attempt to create some excitment and confusion..hehehe as usual....hmm but i was there at the worng place and wrong time...

aniway enuf crap.. haa debra went jogging.. i went swimming... oh but actualli going back to the pool makes mi feel so empty sometimes...so many memories.. and its not helping that i am now a complete wreck in water.. so aniway after sometime i juz stood in e water n stared into space...well e reason why i go swimming again is bcos i have some crap competition coming up.. n e reason why i joined is cos...haha i got 170 bucks last time i joined n when they won the overall title or sthg..but guess i wouldn't be much help this time...haiz.. crys u netter stand by in case i need cpr..=P..and mayb aloy can stand by fer u...hahaha

went wif my mum to crystal jade yesterday... since she 's treating mi..haha
watched troy today...TROY rawks!! brad pit rawks too!! cute guys wif chio bu... nice man! haha hmm but i accidentally ruin a "secret" hot date btw birdbird n yj today...u see its realli not my fault... thinking yj might b left alone wif e guys, i rushed my way down to meet her...den at ps, i saw her coming down e escalator so i went up to her...and den dats when i realise bird was there... haa i tried to hide..seriously... i tried hiding in e lift n in MJ...but.. i think they got shy den keep following mi... hahahhaha.. [yj is prob going to chop mi up e nxt time i see her so i better go MIA fer e nxt outing of sthg..=P)...

haa watching NBA is now my new interest...esp watching LAkers!!! haha

(everytime) by britney spears is nice.... suprisingly

thats AVRIL fer u!!! chio rite...haha

i need to spend more time wif gunbound

more abt embarassing moments... today, i knocked down e pole while trying to do this parallel parking..n e licence plate drop..lol... and my instructor tried to knock some sense into mi that family is more important den money... apparently he gave up some veri well paid job for this ikan bilis driving instrutor which pays him only a meagre sum monthly but is supposedly more relaxing n gives him more time to spend wif his family... lets juz say thats not my point of vieew right now...

crap... my driving is in serious crap... i feel so devastated today...seriously...
aniway i think mayb i shd go look fer a job... being a cashier sound fun? or is it not?
met up wif violet and weiyi dear today... haa how come u all sound so surprise at my dream huh? haa ok violet i understand u r e all out singapore-all-the-way person... aniway i still think its cool to travel ard e world and juz walk without any aim in some foreign country alone... haa yup there's still nothing and no one in singapore that makes mi miss the country.. ( ok violet dun kill mi..juz dun b surprise to receive a postcard someday frm mi frm, some ulu country..haha) i dun mean i dun like singapore.... oh well... but if life is juz abt work or settling down n getting married den i think its boring... but den again sometimes dreams are juz a waste of time... i dun know i just feel that i think abt so many many things that i want to do or intend to but in e end everything comes to nothing... oh well i guess thats life... u cant always get what u want...sometimes its good to heck care abt everything u know.. but i guess it isn't too bad to have some aims or goals in life otherwise u will feel that turn into a zombie which was exactly how i feel a few months ago until i thought abt what i want to do in e future... hahaha

seriously i cant believe its may... omg 5 mths have passed and i am still rotting... but i cant remmember anitime in the past 10 yrs where i felt this relaxed and happy... and i cant believe in a few months time e fantsay will end n the nightmare will begin as university starts........ i DUN WANT to go sch... boo.... haa which is realli weird... i remember in Sec 1 i was damn pysched up abt the first day of sch...and i was also looking fer the first day of J1...but now, onli negativity and dread lingers in my mind when i think abt starting uni...4 yrs of torture..... and den its time to work and i shall embark on my journey to my dream... hahaha

was trying to clean up my room today.... freaking tired..... i realise that thanks to my shopping freak nature over the past 19 yrs..the amount of stuff and junk that i possessed is tremendous....
aniway........ i am still enjoying life....... and in conjunction to my living in a world of fantasy fer the past 1 mth of so, indulging onli in tv, computer games, books and vcds and having realli minimal contact wif all my fellow frends, i have come up wif what i intend to do fer the nxt half of my life... haha firstly i shall work hard to earn enuf money to buy myself a big house a car and some countrty club membership..unlike zihua dear, i dun intend to rely on finding a rich husband cos juz look at mi... do i look anithing like a tai-tai ? or the kind who can snag a rich man?no..so there...i got to rely on myself...( not that i know wat e hell i am going to do nxt time ) but there i think i will prob be the kind who value career more... haha and of cos my ultimate dream wld b to travel ard the world and shop n mayb settle down in some country that i like and nvr come back..of cos i wun forget my parents though... so being single helps u see cos u haf all e freedom... although i mean finding The One to enjoy all these wif aint that bad BUT right now who cares...haha in fact i dun think i will ever bother searching fer one...i personally enjoys the freedom u know.... but aniway my dream dun sounds that bad rite???

hehehe some kindergarten relief teaching tmr....

read books fer 5hr straight..nvr been this hardworking b4..even when i was mugging fer A's... some tragic story dat makes mi feel so empty n depress...

i guess i m still not in e right mind...

haa or go to the happy tree friends n den go to watch epsiodes...there will be a short replay after each shows (except fer e first one)... wait a while fer e nxt one when e red words appear
veri cute one=(

visit the mondo mini shows website..go to shows den happy tree friends... freaking cool=(

i m still living in my world of fantasy

sian la.... on a losing streak..=(
haa eh zihua..who's yer bashful eyes or watever huh? how come u always talk abt them but nvr tell us one....... tsktsk u r secretly love-sick rite..hahahahhaa