D-day strikes

monday. the day i have been dreading. sigh. well..it's all gonna be over soon. or at least i hope it will be. and then i will stop whining so much on this blog.



ahahah and this is me in e process of blogging. let's just say, taptap will always be bad taptap.

ok aeroplanes take me away(Edited)

waiting for my hair to dry at 2.42 am, munching some koropok. no wonder i am looking worse and worse each day. not to mention. many stuff still unsettled. for a temporary respite, tweety took me out today. we visited the RSAF's open house today.pics up soonn!
Was pretty cool, plus lotsa cute pilots around. hahaha. dam, if i were single, i would marry a pilot. hahaha. joking.

I think i am kinda thankful to many people around me..esp friends who have showed care and concern towards me in this whole shit mess i am in. ok and of cos the xian hong too. hahahaha



P.S ( my facebook kena hacked ok. explains all e mushy stuff =P)

Ok pics!

oh damn i am in this thing alone

i realise when i am upset, i tend to blog alot more.
but i dont need people to ask why.
lets just say i am erratic.
when it's not ur day, it's not.
the worst thing is... i am on my own. because it's my life.
bleah.

Say ( All i need)

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

So i came home. whizzed past the routine stuff i do. let the tears fall a little. no that was not sadness. i think they were frustration, apprehension and feeling jaded. Theoretically i should be glad with what i have achieved thus far. But, enough is never enough. As always, i know i am in this alone. I gotta make decisions myself.

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it


I want to see the end too. i wonder when.
every night has its dawn.
i hope so.

decisions and choices.
oooh..i think i am losing my marbles
hahaha
irritate me now. and i will slap u.
RAWR

Oh there u go again

Kinda too much things to think. Such that i just want to sit back and watch the world goes by.
Weekend was all fun . And when Monday comes, it seemed that reality over again.
FOrget it, i dont want to say much. So lets turn to the less gloomy stuff.

Sat was Cory's housewarming party, overflowing with booze. there were prolly 30 over pple. many kiwis. oh well.kinda remind me of e american parties i had back then. Some pics with friends and finally a grp photo of my classmates who went.























































Sun was a class outing by bird. My fave girls in S06B, a grp photo and shiwei, one of my fave guys in class last time.






















































Anyhow all e pics are up on FB. =)


There are many things i wonder about. Life, in particular, work and love. Work.. in the sense i pretty much feel like a lost sheep, unsure of where to head towards. That alone is enough to drive me bonkus.
Love. Well i am looking at couples around me. All sort of problems exist. Sometimes, we just become different or lose ourselves when we are in a relationship. Things that didnt mattered now matter. Expectations u never knew existed suddenly come into the picture. Things u never knew about each other suddenly become more apparent.
Some start becoming possessive, some controlling, some suspicious and wary of exs, and some become Energizer exs who never let go, never say die. Thus i wonder, a few years down, looking back.. would we look back in amusement.

For now...back to my own problems. ugh.=X But i think what someone once told me was right. "Everyone has their own problems. What makes u think urs is bigger than theirs"

mask the fear, hide the sadness

recently.. i think i got out of equilibrium again. sigh.. i dont really think it is a good idea to let it out here..but anyhow.. amidst all the unhappy stuff in life right now, today i was pleasantly surprised to receive a call from the mistress..aiyo..miss the mistress !! wonder when we will meet again.
this is like 2 yrs back on my 21st. One of e very few pictures i took with the mistress. miss everyone else too. and back then i still have my braces. thus e stiffled smile when i take photos. miss US too.






































oh decided to cut the hair. hopefully got some difference. This is with goh the pal before e hair cut. and with tweet the boy after a hair cut. tweet the boy looks sad. i wonder why. maybe he kena bullied by taptap ( as in e real taptap and the teddy bear)





























































and lastly, i miss the acksx.
Even though we dont meet up much..still heart u all!















Ok i think i need many many rainbows right now.

I need to get this off my chest
I think i seriously should just kill myself or bang my head against the wall! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i am the world's blurrrrest sotong ever! OMG!
(details will not be divulged) i can alr imagine 1001 pple laughing or slapping me to wake me up.

Dont break my nail!

Subjected the nails to some tortuous stuff today. As u can see, they are quite TERRIBLY done by me. But thats not the point..


















I always wondered and is still wondering how girls can tahan long nails.

I survived just a few hours with these supposedly long and 'beautiful' nails before happily getting rid of them because my daily activities were seriously impeded. From changing the tv channel to flushing the toilet to eating to sending sms to wearing clothes, these nails were one hell of a trouble.
Though these nails would be a good weapons against all those weird random guys trying to pick me up. Bedok is getting dangerous.
Funny, i have a hunch they were attracted to the two huge pimples i developed recently.

N to all u girls who have nice long fingernails.. U deserve the praises.

Anyhow, went to HeyHey hotpot recently. Apparently, a shop by Terrence Cao. Not too bad i would say for the quality of the food but a tad too expensive..about 30 per person.... The usual steamboat stuff..the broth was good..i liked their dim sum and snacks more though. I'll end off with photos of tweety. If not he sure cheep cheep cheep again. haha












































foto whore queen!

U wan der prata?

There, there... now bloog looks happier! =)

(Edited) It's just one of those things You'll have to get over it

Stuck at doing something forｈｏｕｒｓ...that brought back bouts of memories of good times.
Ok 270 degree..sometimes i wish i could just find a hole and hide inside and disappear for a while. Take away all the horrible stuff that is. I could stay comfortably inside forever then.
I think i better stop thinking so much before i start losing my marbles. HAHAHA
But there are really too many stuff making their way to my brain. No wonder i am listening to rihanna's song -Disturbia incessantly.

What's wrong with me?

Why do I feel like this?
I'm going crazy now

No more gas in the rear
Can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can't even speak about it
Out my life out my head
Don't want to think about it
Feels like I'm going insane

HAHA pls dont read into the lyrics too much. I am good.. just ranting.
Met Mr k and the bird for some temporal relief．．i think Mr k said something like..
u have to be responsible for your own emotions..much as emotions are uncontrollable at times.. i guess that it is something i also figured out. Just because you are in a bad mood doesn't mean u can give people the shit and expect them to take it. Take over your emotions instead of letting them take over you. Not that easily achieved though.haha
Sometimes, i think i am just not in the mood to entertain anyone..I guess that's when i am better left alone. Sometimes its like a viscious circle. Feel Upset, upset someone, feel more upset. Grr.

Ok pics to take ur wandering mind away..

Hmm, i bought a new teddy bear recently. It's yellow.


















BirD. As promised. He's gettin married on 090909. HAHAHA. so better meet up while we can. If not next time he get married liao how to meet?

Long Long Post for a long long time

Oki. Pictures. For those who kinda miss me. Kinda reach 270 degree yesterday. At 360 degree today. Casuarina Prata for supper.

Ooh me!




































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Ok chummy photos..before some people complains. haha









































Its you, and me
Moving at the speed of light into eternity
Tonight, is the night
To join me in the middle of ecstasy
Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around you
Ima take you there, Ima take you there
So dont be scared, Im right here, ya ready?
We can go anywhere, Go anywhere
But first, its your chance Take my hand Come with me
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Tommy and friends!! This is little tommy. HE found some durians in a tub recently. He also likes dim sum, thats why he is pui pui (fat fat)







































Muthu's shop






















Dont like what i am seeing next.

hahhaa feeling pretty sian ..so i destroyed tweety's blog


Oh well
will do a post on prata soon when i am feeling better
good nightz all!

Here we go again

I think my mood follows that of a sine curve perpetually. So sometimes i linger at the 0,180 and 360 deg and hence the gloomy posts. (270 means i have lost it. haha).
Just in case anyone is wondering, the previous post didnt refer to anyone i knew in particular. Rather, it was a thought i had after reading about a post of angst in a girl towards someone. Makes me wonder, if there is really right and wrong in a relationship.

Blog surfing also made me realise that most of the time, we blog for a particular audience. In general, I think reading about yourself being cast in a negative way isnt exactly the best feeling.

[ to divert(as always), someone told me my english not very good on my blog. Apologies ok! when i blog, i dont proof read and i have to agree my english not really the powerful and i do make stupid grammatical and tenses error]

Well, i dont exactly feel like blogging about unhappy stuff in my life. Hmm but i have been doing weird stuff like making DIY bling bling earrings for myself. So if u see me wearing weird looking earrings, yup those are the DIY kind. And also, exploring biore pore pack with tweety, who was visibly amazed with it. Or rather, the amount of blackheads he had.

Someone taught me how to do collage without using photoshop. So here goes a really random one: PINK! haha oh ya like i mentioned in a post that i think i deleted. My com crashed a while back and i lost quite alot of photos and stuff from the past cos i didnt really back them up. So these are the remnants. .But oh well..some memories stay in ur heart...

Let Go

Easier said than done.

WE question others on the hurt and sorrows they had brought. We talk about expectations that weren't met.

But how many times do we question ourselves on the hurt we have brought to others and expectations of others we could not live up to.

We remember the bad of others and forget about the good. Even if the good existed, they get marred by the bad.

Sadness, unhappiness, disappointments. Myriad of negative emotions that will always come to us to bring us down much as we try to run away from them.
Maybe we all need to learn about letting go.
Not for anyone. But yourself. For holding on to the angst, sadness or disappointment will also suck u deeper into a whirlpool of hatred and unhappiness.


Letting go. Is also something i am learning everyday.


To divert, if u happened to be in East Coast Park and chanced upon a girl who looked like the below, falling down n trying to roller skate like a noob, yup that's me. Trying to learn how to roller skate.

The light before dawn

Decided to snap out of all these crap feelings and hibernating which has only amplified the negativity i felt.Met Mr K for dinner yesterday, and maybe like what he said, everything is really a matter of perspective.

As quoted from The Dark Knight ( great show by the way) "The night is darkest just before the dawn" . Life's never smooth sailing, and i guess i need to learn to deal with the darkness to see the light at the end. Maybe we dont know happiness till we go through all the unhappy stuff. We dont know what's good till we know what's bad. Somtimes, there is really so little one can do and circumstances often veer one's life off course into another direction.but in retrospect that may not necessary be a bad thing despite the initial inertia and unwillingness

Today i also realise the impact others had made in my life and how some people will always matter. If life constitutes of different chapters, then i am still thankful for going through some chapters, even if they have already ended, because they were happy ones. Good times will always be remembered.

Convocation marked the end of a chapter in my life. Studying life. Surprisingly, i didnt feel particularly thrilled at the end of it. Maybe because my academic life has always been smooth sailing. Like what i said, We dont know whats good till we know whats bad.

It's amazing how 1 year makes such a big difference. The way i was a year back, my life back then. A year is short but a lot had happened.

Alright some photos i liked that i took during convocation.


























































































Thanks for everything..really

i sat down today, bent on writing about myself,my life for once instead of frivolous photos.
but changed my mind for some reason.
for it didnt matter because what u dont know is what u are not supposed to know.
blogging serves no purpose to me anymore, and thus i am off hibernating till i find the urge to blog.


crazily warm weather, but a cold cold heart
too many hello-goodbyes

xoxo

Another Tweety Time.

Cos taptap's not feeling too dandy lately... here's another tweety special. Good news for everybody is tweety won't be around soooon n there won't be no more irkish, eeky, chummy photos in the near future (i hear many sighs of relief haha.)

Sometimes der bad luck always come many many at a time. Bo pian gotta wait it out. As der old peeper say... der boat ah come to der bridge head, naturelly bcome slaight. An old flen oso used to tell me der sunshine always come after der rain ah... but i figured hor... der rain oso always come after der sunshine ah... so acherlly ah, it depend wedder u optimistic or pessimistic ah.

oki. No more der tweety grandpa story. See pikture time!

"it's der singlet day at der beach!" (3rd last chummy photo)
"Of course there's der food... taptap loves to eat!"
"Picture before gorging on der dinner!" (2nd last chummy photo)
"How come she look der so good in every pikture?"
"der tweety squeezing wee taptap so he can look der good also." (LAST.)