in need of a dose of reality

so long since i blogged.
a series of unlucky incidents
my blackberry and camera died from a flood in the bag.. sad sad sad.
but i attribute the lack of blogging to being stuck in the world of korean drama. it's getting hard to differentiate between reality and tv shows. damn. oh and the korean guys are so manly.. so hopeless, so lost.. i need a dose of reality.
sometimes i think i am getting better at masking emotions. i can feel so terrible but yet appear so fine at work. no one will know. sometimes i feel that i dont know what i am doing and why i behave certain ways or say certain things in front of others.
i think i am a hopeless case.