Some random pictures to brighten up an otherwise seemigly depressing blog. horror of horror i am in a good mood today despite the lousy day at work. sigh.



Dont really feel like taking photos thee days so yea, not much to post these days either. instagram is quite fun. lol. just in case people dont remember how i look like. i think i have aged. i found a white hair today at work. and i am a lil more stress so i have a lil more breakouts that usual. ARGH!

but me aaside, i think the little dog at home is so cute!

hello!

this is such a random post because right now, i am a lil frustrated with the stuff i have to learn and the amount that actually gets registered. i think i need some gingko nut.
sometimes i amuse myself. my mood swing reminds me sometimes of those graph i see on DV every morning. LOL
anyway the twitter is now private so i can scold more people.
maybe i shall deactivate FB soon too.
that aside, something to look forward to..KRABI! to be honest, i dont know what u can do there. i just want to do nothing and think nothing. so i think i will just find a nice place to stone and then eat and get fat. I need to cultivate more inner peace.

ok, shall go back to read more stuff and get ready for monday*sigh*

feeling extremely like a piece of crap for the whole of today. i guess i have been unusually strange these days. maybe its the overwhelming stuff to pick up at work. or the overwhelming stuff outside work to cope with. feel so bad for being a tad off today and towards people.
or maybe its the recurring pangs of guilt. sometimes i dont even know whats wrong with myself and why i am feeling so unusually down.
such a terrible day


ugh

서울을 많아 그리워서 올해도 갈 거예요?
아마...

do u know what's worth fighting for

growing to like dempsey . some random photos while playing with the phone last night. manicure, a good dinner, friends and bens and jerry:)the tuesday holiday is a small respite despite being awaken by the monster. haiz.. but for some reason, i like how the day kept me busy till it's time to end work. it keeps my mind from wandering too much. ok i would like to type long grandma stories but i don't have the luxury of time these days.

here comes the rain again falling from the stars

so its korean + green day today.

being positive

its friday so i am unusually positive. ok so we might be going to krabi.. i hope we will still be friends

*credits to the siao ey for this picture.

*credits to the hiao ey for this picture.
that aside, this week has gotta be one of the more stressful one ever..(sigh nvr got so many pimples at one go..lol)
on an unsually positive note ( i think they call it split personality), i should be thankful for the little things in life that makes life a lil better. friends like those two above, uncle whom i antagonise to derive joy (kidding) and a slightly deranged dog that is so lovely.

come sunday maybe i will start feeling angsty again. lol .

긴 길이

i guess i figured that if life's gonna be like this for the next few yrs( spending a good part of my life at work), i better start figuring out what is it that really matters to me and learn to let go and give some stuff up.

which should not be too hard to figure out right?

난 지금 더 행복하니?

i think i need better time management. (ok i haf given myself 5 min to blog).
i don't even know what i do these days. Time just seems to pass by so fast. even at work.
sighz. and i really hate the sun. or maybe its the stupid respirator giving me so much skin irritation.

on a lighter note, i am now a iphone user, but the sad thing is, i dont even have the time ( u see, poor time management again) to go and dl any of those brainless games or app. and the touch screen keypad actually kinda make me feel even more lazy to reply or text.

ok tmr is fri. i just need to get thru the sun, the friendly contractors and i am more than happy.

its been such a long weekk...yet on the other hand, time seems to pass by way too fast
just glad its saturday. cos saturday is a long day and a stress-free day:)

one way street

Sitting with some random music (today shall be savage garden..courtesy of S2) stoning and doing nothing is a luxury. i give myself 15 more min. lol..when i buy a house next time ( if i mean) i am gonna make sure it has a nice balcony for me to n lie and stone with the sky above me. OMG such melancholy thoughts. ( ok THE GOH i am thinking of your balcony now. i should be your neighbour la..)
i realize i really have the tendency to blog when i am feeling super sian.
can't really understand myself at times, what i am thinking, what i really want.

on a lighter note, tue is over. one day closer to the weekend. :)

아름다운 한강

credits to http://www.thetravelword.com

가을에는 한강을 가는데 좋은일이 이잖아~
하지만 올해가 가지못해, 조금 아쉽다! 요즘 일때문에 아무도 못해는데!
[ for lovers of korea *ahem..the TEO* autumn will be a good time to visit the han river]
so busy with work these days, i dont even have the motivation or urge to do anything..(like filling in forms, meeting friends...sian]

Linkin Park - Iridescent [HD] - from Transformers: Dark of the Moon

Linkin park! always the emo lyrics... tsktsk

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

and finally. for what felt like the longest and most unbearable week, its friday. phew. so much to sort out at work, so much to sort out in my mind.
no wonder they say, there's nothing time can't take away...someday i believe all the negative thoughts will fade and things will go back to the way they were..i can't help but feel i am really such a terrible person at times. I think i need to deal with stuff better.

i think. over the past week, i managed to cultivate more inner zen and coldness already.lol.. or maybe i just dont have the additional energy to complain about stuff. everyone wants to be happy la, just gotta learn to accept why people do things certain ways and that people are people, you cant expect them to behave in a way you have imagined them to.
my favorite phrase these days? life's like this ...

have a good weekend all!!

우리 기회가 없어?

오늘까지만 너를 그저 바라만 보다
내일은 널 잊겠다고 다짐한다

지금은 어떻게 해야해는지 정말 모르겠어.. 가슴이 아프고 "왜요" 그건 생각을 항상 나와서 잠을 잘 자지 못해.... 이렇게 좋아해요? 나한테 존경을 아무도 없네요? 한순간도 없어요? 왜요? 왜 그렇게 속이다? 제발 나에게 좋은 대답을 주세요...

후회해? 아마... 혹시 당신은 처음에는 알수없어..혹시 처음부터 실수가 있잖아..

이제 믿음, 내사랑을 다시 떨이지가봐....다시 사라져요...

하지만 너의 미소와 사랑을 도 그리워요...
정말 아쉬워요..
우리 기회가 없어?
어떻게 다시 믿는데 가르쳐 주세요...

Keri Hilson - Knock You Down ft. Kanye West, Ne-Yo

Cause we had it, we were magic
I was flying, now I'm crashing

I think my baby love this song too... he seems to sleep whenever i blast this song leh.. lol (and my baby is the one in the previous post..better clarify )

좋았던 기억만 가져가라

Meet my new love (ok we share a love hate relationship..lol)
he follows me around most of the time when my brother is not at home ( apparently i am no 2 on his "people i like list") but ok la, most of the time it is so cute that i cant even be angry with not ( HE CHEWED MY KATE SPADE BAG and MY HAZEL CAN)

take the good with the bad, the happy with the sad.
one can't always expect things to be all good and dainty. cos life's about coping with disappointment. its about finding your way out of a quagmire, its about taking the shit people offer you, the hurt people deal you with. it's about feeling happy for the moment, while it lasts.연기처럼 사라진 내 사랑, 그래서 가지고 있는 순간 아끼해야해...
( i dont really know who reads this blog but FYI in case u are amused and confused by google translate, this means something like... sometimes love disappears like that of a smoke dispersing, cherish it while you have it) My korean getting powerful right? haha. must practise writing essays for exams... gotta cut me some slack if i start typing in korean some day ok? i tink the next post i shall do it in korean to scold people i dislike. Lol..

writing is so therapeutic..woot* and i have not shopped for a week! great achievement.. just feel like nuaing this whole weekend....lol..ok time to read on some chem engineering crap to polish an otherwise rusty brain. BLEAH!

Like strangers we meet, like strangers we part ways
there are so many people you cross path with, so many people who linger for such a short moment in our lives...

its been a hell of a week.

jaded. it's like i got another stab on a pretty fresh wound. ouch.
but i guess life's like this. like a test. to see how much you can endure before you fall.
Sometimes love comes around And it knocks you down Just get back up
:)

that aside excited abt a new job position. will miss this aunty though:) my mentor, my friend

had a really good time with the S2 folks at universal studio yesterday albeit the gloomy rain. Laughed so much till my mouth ached.... Amusement park are always fun when you are with a group of people.

there's still so much to look forward to in life.

so glad its the weekend. :)

Already Gone

Kept hearing this song and wasnt able to get the title and singer. This post is gonna be totally random. I intended it to be in korean but given that its 12 am now... heh. if i do it in korean, i will need 2 hrs. Anyhow, am on leave to slack before it's time to move on to a fresh new start again. A year of so many changes and fresh new start. heh. but each time i look back, i don't have the confidence to do alot of things all over again. But whatever la, it doesnt really matter. i always like to look back at older photos though. The other day, i was clearing my cubicle at work, archiving and clearing old emails and found alot of stuff from the past ( sounds old)... sometimes the guilt that comes out from me..its almost like imagining urself in a pallid beach.. the guilt are like the waves that come...and then go away...and then back again.
such melachonly. LOL.

I forgot about my favourite nutt nutt in the previous post. so cuuuttteee!
wanted to post these previously too... Old photos...
Back when i was 21 and Gotta agree i am aging fast right??...sigh

the more innocent crys.then. HAHAHA.

Time to move on. Maybe even from this space. LOL..

So juvenile

And so i am done...The exam was well.... i think as u age, u start finding exams juvenile. Gonna miss taking korean for a while..but i guess, gotta focus on some other things in life at the moment. Will get back to korean in time to come cos i am still in love with it. Come to think about it, maybe i shd have majored in like Korean Language and history. I would prolly do better than engineering. Then now i would be selling metal cups at Namdaemun in Seoul.LOL. But anyway i came to realise you really need passion to do well or rather sustain your desire to learn something.

Anyhow, was looking through my photo albums and saw a few funny pictures and a few pictures i like. So i chose 3 of them. This one, not cos i look pretty but cos i look happy. LOL. So vibrant too, the colors of it. I wish my world was this vibrant and bright everyday. LOL.

This one is not only cos its the ACKSX. Happy (belated) birthday Xiuhui. So sorry i forgot to wish you, i have spent the whole sat afternoon reflecting about it, hence the public apology. :p
Anyway i like this pic cos THE GOH IS CARRYING MY POOH! HAHAHAHA.

This one cos it's hazel.

:)

decisions

i came to realise i am hopelessly stubborn at times. Giving up on things in life sux. So often, i lapse back to the thoughts of holding on to them. By the way, this refers to the general context of life rather than certain specific things if you are wondering or thinking too much.

anyhow, i think i make things complex for myself all the time.

I think(haha) i think alot. Well if i don't, then i won't be who i am today.
It would be nice to have someone think and make decisions for me.
But then again,
i have not met someone who know me well enough or is smart enough to do so.
LOL

Nonsense aside. more random CRAP.
I really can't wait to finish the korean exams next week. then i can sit at some random coffee place on a nice afternoon and watch the world goes by around me. LOL.
I think people watching requires some skill. I have had male friends who stare at girls in such an obvious manner that sometimes i find it amusing. Being discreet is an art and a form of well, politeness in many aspects.

That aside, i really wished i had a lil more free time to go to Korea. I can so imagine. Walking down the streets of Myong-Dong, stoning at the 경복공 in peace.

Lastly, i am becoming a slave and a lover to the new doggie that my brother bought. It follows me around whenever my bro is not at home. It keeps me up some night or wakes me up at the wee hours at times. I have to feed it and run around with it. Well, hopefully at the end of the day, i learn to be more caring and loving towards well, the world in general. LOL