well for e 1st time since hols..i din step out of e house today
and watch vcd fer dunno how many hours n did tv surfing fer cow yrs
chi music juz dun turn mi on except fer a few jay chou songs wif a slight twinge of melancholy
feeling down again
its seems like as one gets older..more worries emerge n u find urself not being able to b as happy and carefree as u used to b..u haf more decisions to make.. and somehow u find that whatever the one u choose in e end is the wrong one and u can onli but add it to one of ur regrets in life
i used to think i m one who can dismiss stuffs in life as and when i like n be cool n calm n juz heck care things going on ard mi..but apparently i can't..

there are so many things in life which u cant choose or haf control over.. to start off wif..ur family ur looks... inherent traits etc.. these are things one haf to live wif n be contented wif.. if yer happen to b slightly better in e looks department or wealth..den i guess yer lucky..but i m contented to juz lead a simple life..better still in some deserted island wif mi n e monkeys

and yet another craapy post by kailing e not so great after all..haa