Tuesday, September 22, 2009

HELP LA

Yet another traumatising experience. The TAXI DRIVER tried to pick me up. not pick me up from the taxi stand.Haaaa
HELP LA!
Taxi driver :" Wow..you look so young and pretty to be an engineer...i thought u were 21"
Taptap: " *roll eyes* thanks

Very funny ah. anyway this cab driver is very "young". 33 with an earring that spells " i am so not fashionable".
So anyway, i reach my house. Then this cab driver wound down the window " Can i have ur no, so i can specially pick u up from ** hotel tmr" ( u see, i am on ANOTHER training course at the hotel AGAIN..)
HELP la.
Taptap:" i think you should go"
Now that i think..very scary eh. Thankfully i din tell him where i stayed. I alighted somewhere further from my house. But anyway Tmr, i 'll carry a knife with me. I hope the hotel security dont check my bag.
Sigh.

Friday, September 18, 2009

21 guns

friday wraps up an pretty stressful week. hello to long weekend.
Job .career. I pretty like the way others look upon us. The new comers of the working world, fresh out of school, all so excited and ready for a brand new refreshing change. This excitment quickly fad into a sense of apprehension and sometimes self doubt as we grapple with the reality of the working world. The responsibilities that you shoulder and the amount of new changes and challenges ahead. No longer are you a student or an intern. Those seemed so far away and child's play. The things that you do in school, the stuff that got you through college with good results doesnt seem to work anymore.
"Your life, your career, you are in charge" . Suddenly we find ourselves out of the comfort zone and gone are the natural progressions that come with ease. The burden of seeking what you truly want in your job, of doing well in your job lies soley on you. Sometimes you dig deep into what you have got or what you think you have got to prove to the world out there you are capable. The self doubt comes in when everything you do seem so small and when expectations fall short. Expectations of others and yourself. Maybe it's all about taking things in stride, never giving up in your search to bring out the potential in you. The little pebbles or big boulders that get you down, they will make you stronger one day. Fear and setbacks are ever present in our lives. You Pick a fight and you fight to win. Sometimes we set too unrealistic goals that are doomed for failure right from the start.
This is nothing personal. And i am not refering to anyone per se. But i am just summing up what i am hearing from people around me. I am one of those, struggling to find what's my potential and dealing with setbacks. Such is life.


We had a two days career developement training over the past two days. I often find the most complex person to understand to be myself. During the class, we were suppose to identify our top 5 values. Reason being your values in your life kinda guide you towards the decisions you make. So mine was economic security, family happiness, achievement, health and personal development. I think before i try to understand others around me, i should take time to understand myself more. You know all those stuff about Myers Briggs indication. Johari windows. I think they kinda make things more complicated. Instead of understanding myself better, i m more confused. I prefer feedbacks. I was talking to the person next to me, in which we are suppose to find out more about the person based on random questions and then try to find out 3 values of that person. He couldnt, but what he wrote was pretty interesting : " Happy person, expressive and fast paced"
I never knew i came across as happy. And then, there was another sections on : "If i could lived my life again, i would..." I took up my pen and the words flowed. I never knew i had so many regrets in life and so many things i m grateful for. So i ended off with : " i would wish i never met XXX and YYY" Go figure XXX and YYY.
That aside. So much tv shows on cheating. Doesnt anyone realise things never become the same anymore when trust has been broken? You are a fool if you think you can pretend nothing happened. There's no such things as a second chance in everything you do. There's no such things as " it's a mistake. " It's over means it's over.




So much for a lighthearted post for a long weekend. Actually someone asked me why i blogged. Simple. i have no answer. It is just excuse for me not to read my book. :P




Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

Sunday, September 13, 2009

on a hot saturday


sun burnt from tennis.on a sat, we went around city hall taking polaroid shots. some thai food later. all the food for 20$! i was dressed like a malay because i had sunburns on my shoulder, so cannot all my sexy dresses *___*



Like my new Coach Bag? Can still see the patch of sunburn on my chest area T___T
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The only side of him that looks good. Last night, we weere talking about how we first met last year. Kinda miss all the times when we first knew each other..We talk about exs, love problems of people ariound us, pretend to be totally cool in fromt of each other..dress our best etc etc..You know the sweetest part of a relationship is always when two pple just fall in love..the guy is chasing the girl and super nice to her.. i guess girls like the feeling of being chased everynow and then. so every now and then the feeling of guys chasing me is a novelty and fun BUT it always ends up with me feeling of sorry and feeling bad.
so anyway, to keep the novelty of the relationship going, i pick up a quarrel everynow and then. Very difficult one ok, must think of new thing to quarrel each time.
tuptup: " so blah blah blah XXX and meeting u was like a dream come true"
taptap : "yup. and the dream became a nightmare"
....

See..i told u i was in the muslim attire. haha
Polaroid shots


chubby and hubby love ice cream!
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More bimbo shots.



We like to eat ice cream. This one is Sarsi and Sea Salt caramel
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Friday, September 11, 2009

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

lazy pig

so lazy
lazy to blog lazy to write.. u can imagine the effort it took me to write this.
lazy to meeet friends, lazy to go out, lazy to do anything..lazy to sms..lazy to call.
everyday i knock off, i feel so........dead.
so much so i fall asleep listening to lady gaga.

Monday, September 07, 2009

Gleeful 16th month



























Happy 16th Month!!!!! Look what tuptup got me:P



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Sunday, September 06, 2009

i am such a bitch
sometimes i think there is something wrong with me