Friday, December 30, 2005

shoppping spreeeeeeeee today
mayb i shd shop wif frends instead
at least they can stop me from buying stuffs
today seems to b the day in which everything i try seems to suit me.
so.................poof.the money is gone....
and it din help that every shops seem to b having sales...bleah

hmm...
y is it.guys enjoy reading FHM,maxim etc
but gals dun read men's health etc
or do they? haha

Thursday, December 29, 2005

i m starting to feel the gloom of hols coming to an end
just the thought of it makes mi unhappy=(


aniway
nice day today
someone flew his 1st kite of his life
walked prob 2.4km...legs aching now.haha

i quite like this hols...too bad its ending
i will miss
hanging out wif the acksx... i miss all of u

the ah soh of cos. will b long b4 we meet up again

and i will miss
playing maple wif my bro n lala n my classmates
sob.............

just the thought of it
makes mi sad=(
sigh
hols coming ot an end
so much stuufs to do......so little time
i m torn btw gg out n playing games.sob.boo.boo.hate sch.dowan sch.bleah

went ktv wif bro. we rawk. ha.no we sux. we cannot make it.haha.
and had a GHASTLY dinner.cooked by bro.....EWWWWWWW!!hahaha u know things dun look gd when u see carrot appearing in all e dishes.well e soup has carrot. the veggie has carrot.the FISH has carrot.

=P

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

lazy to blog
a horribly bad day
the NUS staffs are all so unfriendly
bleah!

niway. went market today. felt a little out of place

n

i hate it when i m nice to pple n they r mean

my new yr resolution
1) study mugg study
2)be nicer to all my friends n love ones
3)lets keep it as that fer the time being

Sunday, December 25, 2005

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xmas eve..spent wif the ah soh gang who wanted to experience the joyous spirit of chritmas
lets see
we went to hooters. haha yes the place i tink aloy will like.
was quite an exciting outing. n doing some catching up with all the ah sohs.ah sohs all getting more n more funky. i tink i shd b the ah soh instead. haha
haha oh n i got stopped by a policeman while driving
hah!! no la. evrey other cars were stopped. they wanted to test if pple drank n drove. of cos. kailing din. she drank fruit juice. haha. but exciting. and weiyi could still tell me" hey the policeman quite gd looking"

things kl will NVR enjoy doing
1)taking photos. i look ghastly. y do i need to take more photos to prove to myself that. haha
2)clubbing. just dun appeal to me. hah i still haven stepped into any of such places yet. not intending to. n henceforth. i will nvr be fond of guys who club.
3) drinking. thou shall nvr touch any alcohlic drinks . i dun care. i just dun drink. i can't drink aniway. i love my fruity hooty fruit juice more can.haha
4)now u see. y nightlife doesnt suit kl. i feel like a bad kid just staying out late. see. boring kl rite. the activity i tink i enjoy most.is sitting n stoning. and oh ya how can i forget. reading newspaper. reading the same few articles over n over.


and sharon. i know u are stalking me. hahaha

Saturday, December 24, 2005

there r justtoo many a times i lament at my own indecisiveness n lack of firmness
dat i alwasy get caught in situation in which i can't seem to find a way out




aniway
its e festive season

merry christmas=0)

Friday, December 23, 2005

HappY BirD-DAY saMUEL

I JUST REMEMBERED uR BDAY TODAY AND HENCEFORTH I M REALLI SORRY to proclaim that i din send u any cards or gift!!! arrgh... but i promise when u return to singapore, ur bird gift willl be awaiting u
haha

Thursday, December 22, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL!!!!
I LOVE YOU! hah
welcome to the big 2 club!!! did u think u could escape? hahaha
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out with the girls for shopping yesterday

sharon-hope yer hot date today was great

yea..time to pick ourselves up

results was ok...was a big relief
at least i can celebrate xmas n new yr in peace...

now i just wanna enjoy the remaining hols!!its ending=(

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

these days i tink i haf sign in to msn less than my usual amount. yea..actually i dun particularly enjoy talking on msn.its hard to get an idea across sumtimes. maybe i shd blame it on my poor langauge skills. and there dun seem to pple i haf to tok to.
ever wonder y pple get into a relationship for? i seriously haf no idea. i tink one can b equally happy single or attached..
n its high time i start my hibernation again.. bears hibernate.so does kailing.

n oh ya. blogging is getting boring too.bleah.
excting trip to msia with shiwei jervis n yj
watched chronicles of narnia. i tink we can have the chronicles of johor already.
we kinda explored the place.walked an awful lot. took alot of cab too.thanks to a sabo kia.hah.hmm actualli the sight of the city of johor was a refreshing change of environment.. but i tink i just dun feel comfortable there.. yea i still prefer good old singapore. haha and somehow it seems pple can recognise u a a singaporean straight away.well just take a walk thur the shops selling vcds.somehow they will know u r a foreigner.and the way of queuing for toilet is also different...haha but movie there is realli cheap.yup so is the food. had a nice dinner of oatmeal with rice. haha it was suppose to be seafood dinner with clayfish,stingray n stuffs but i think the oatmeal appealed to me most.hahaha

fun is over..d day is here. boo hoo hoo guess i will rather not ponder too much....sighz.....

Friday, December 16, 2005

It was a windy aevening.


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Image hosted by Photobucket.comxh:huh? y all their kite fly so high. mine only like that???????
Image hosted by Photobucket.comhaha cos i am sharon ma.i can fly a kite.hah!
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Image hosted by Photobucket.com xh is secretly smiling if u observe carefully.haImage hosted by Photobucket.comnow she got her retribution.she had to go n pick up her kite.hah!

Image hosted by Photobucket.comi dunno wat was i doing.collapse in fatigue
Image hosted by Photobucket.comsharon decided. maybe we could tie the string onto her. n she could be the kite.so that we could fly her.(actually. wat happened was. the string got entangled to her hair)
Image hosted by Photobucket.comhaving her evil plot tharwted bcos our kites resume their activities,she spent her evening.winding n rewinding the string.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

i went kite flying today
haha dun laugh. it was actualli pretty fun. i luv flying kites. 1st time to fly kite. i m so proud of the monkey kite. haha.
oh n bowling was well..haa strenous..why all the balls so heavy one huh.haa
been gg out wif u guys so often. but i still enjoyed all the outings=)
cant join u guys tonight to sleep over.. but guess u all wil haf fun toking=P

ok i need to lose weight
dun ask mi why

haiz Dday is not too far away
i went kite flying today
haha dun laugh. it was actualli pretty fun. i luv flying kites. 1st time to fly kite. i m so proud of the monkey kite. haha.
been gg out wif u guys so often. but i still enjoyed all the outings=)
cant join u guys tonight to sleep over.. but guess u all wil haf fun toking=P

ok i need to lose weight
dun ask mi why

haiz Dday is not too far away

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

happy birthday kailing.
sian. 20 alr. the big 2. soon. the big 3. ugh. when that time come. i will go tibet to stone in the sanctuary.
niway.
heh was nice seeing u again....i tink we r both pretty weird.

aniway.. thnaks to all those who remmebered my bday!=)

and. guess who i met today
SHARON TEO SHIOK HUI. haha miss babe is stalking me. hahaha..hope u guys had fun today.. well shaorn..i think u freak him out again. haha
cant wait to see u all again tmr=P . i wanna see crys eat. haha.


ripped this frm sharon blog. i hate taking photo bcos i dun look gd in them.esp nxt to a photogenic person. haven post the photos at sleepover cos my internet connection in my rm is realli bad... wait a while more !






do i look sad.....y do so many pple tell me that.haha mayb i m. so if i am sad. i cant realli say it doesnt matter animore right. haha
WELL.i look sad in photos.cos i hate braces. realli.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

i hate sun!
in sentosa, pple suntan. i shadetan. i look fer shade to hide.having done biology. i dun love e sun animore. not that i did.
but i figure i cld do with a weeny bit of sun.a teeny bit is healthy.i look kinda pale.

m realli tired......... sigh......
i think time is passing by a tad too fast
mayb when u r occupied.u dun think so much of unhappy n gloomy stuffs. n maybe time pass by faster.

anyway
bought a bdae present fer myself today that cost 30 bucks...
these days...i think i spent more on friends den on myself..... presents this month alone cost 100 plus.

Monday, December 12, 2005

in a horrible mood.........
i din want to think abt stuffs anymore........but while waiting to get some stuffs done today
i filled myself with the same old thoughts again
and i am confused all over again
i have no idea wat lies ahead anymore
am i just testing my threshold level
maybe..i feel i m ready to snap soon
i think little stuffs acccumulate slowly until theres a point of no return
is it disappointment i m feeling right now?.. that things wasnt the way i wanted..or was it sthg else
close friends will probably knows wat i m talking abt......its hard making a decision....



had some pretty bad dreams yesterday..thanks to the descent... i dreamt i dropped into some hole.. i m claustrophobic i think......
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Sunday, December 11, 2005

i feel extremely guilty. cos i was supposed to organise the class party n in e end..shiwei did everything. i did not even bring any food.boo hoo hoo...
aniway.thanks shiwei.for all the effort.yj n e rest fer the bday cake=)..din expect it.

aniway.....a veri terrifying experience tpday
i got lost. u know things r not looking gd when u end up at an unknown place n unknown road wif no cars at 12 am. yes laugh at me. but fer 15 min i panicked. u see. i was supoose to exit at PIE changi airport. so being kailing, i missed it n exit at PIE jurong. for those who drive. u know. how sad this is.n den the nxt nearest exit was i some funny road which i cant even rem the name. so fer 15 min. i drove ard in e dark not knowing where i was. scary la. n den images of the movie saw2 i had watched began to appear in my mind. hahaha.. so dun ask mi how i got home. i must thank the road sign in singapore. easy to follow. haha. btw. i cant use a street directory. all i remebered. was. ending up at goldhill road. i dunno where it is. haiz...
watched e descent today
ok. everyone..STOP bringing mi to watch gory show. haha i pretty much covered my eyes wif my water bottle this time round......=(
hai...this hols is like half gone.....boo hoo.. i m actualli enjoying myself

Saturday, December 10, 2005

tired
i hate the feeeling of sleeping veri little.sleepovers are fun. but the feeling nxt morning is not
am dead broke too

xmas present:$50
dinner at petals:$26..haha it was weird to watch the 5 of us
pool:$5
ktv:$7
drinks:$10
total:100?
i m gonna rob a bank soon.haha
enjoyed myself though..thanks fer all the pressies=) and most importantly, the company..
1 person i must "praise"
CRYSTAL goh
well..why ah
1) she makes me walk alot.
2)she brings me to new urban male to check out guys.ya not bad.i must say
3)crys dear, i sense a sore throat coming. haha
4) no la. crys. thanks fer e free food n lodging. haha
5)for toking till 5am despite a sore throat..croak.brave!
of cos not forgetting the rest... xh n her xmas song n maggie mee hairstyle.. sharon..fer providing the laughter n fun always... haha. and aloy. fer just being there. dun get to see u ard much these days.love yer dance. haa


so aniway......photos wun b up so soon....................haaa

niway...... i almost fainted on e train yesterday. haha dun ask mi why. secret btw mi n the acksx.which got them freaked out.my bad though...i was a naughty gal. haa haa...ok la not funny.. i was apalled too.and aloy i wun write abt ur embarrasing act too....

class party tmr.... no need bring food. shiwei e chef cooking. kailing is doing nothing but sitting n watch .yay!looking forward to seeing evreyone

haiz...this hols is so short

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

the dam game is down fer the whole of today!!
hadnt realli been in e mood to blog
i dunno y...... it feels funny blogging abt myself. wat i did fer e day... as if i m reporting to myself wat i did..

i pretty much fill myself wif e same thoughts again....
toking to frends seem to haf make things worse
in e sense that they brought me back to reality
i haf been finding excuses for stuffs to make myself feel better
argh...........................................................i feel screwed up
help!!


but i dun wanta think so much
xmas coming!
does xmas hold ani special meaning?
no it doesnt...not to me


haiz.....................................................................
sian
exams over already....haiz.. hols...nutting much to look forward to
except maybe catching up on my sleep... to try to look less of a zombie... and maybe to resume a less fast paced life...exam period was like fighting with books and time. at least now. i can eat my dinner slowly and watch tv... den maybe play some games. though i broke the disc of my favourite game today.
haha. & i haf gained 2 kg!~ the pants now feel tight! gasp!

so i went to TRIM my hair today
a yr after having a disaster haircut at kimage, where this auntie snip off my hair as if she was on a rampage, the horror lives on as my hair still remains like wat is so called the ruins of a battlefield ..well its a long story. i hate u auntie. i hate u.
well. and i think hair dresser enjoys talking to me. my previous few visits to the salon ended up in chat sessions. so they tell me stuffs like how they dropout of sch, take up hairdressing, and how they like it. and telling me stufff like cherish the time of studying and school because it is still better den work.. i dunno..... maybe when i start work one day. i will reminisce abt sch. but chem eng. i dunno. half way thru the course onli i feel so mentally strained and tired....... i feel like i haf aged...... i dun feel like its something i will want to look back to......

den i was watching sea games... still enjoy watching swimming. but i think i found joy in gymnastic instead.so many chio bu. i think i recognise this gal from nus. chio! and den whenever u watch sports on tv. sure got some got those with the "suay" look. u know they are gonna fall off the beam the moment u see the face. hahaha

ok hols.but i m still at this dam sian mood... dun even feel like shopping or doing anything. the aftermath of weeks of mugging.. i m just gonna hibernate n waste my life away again.........oh well its just on month

haIZzzzzzzzzz

Thursday, December 01, 2005

suffocating frm the amt of stuffs to be done
ailenated from the world

crappy lab today
had my embarassing moment again
so it was filtration time
n i ws supposed to collect some slurry
den the tap was tight.after attempting to turn it fer quite some time. n den i lamented. 'aiyo.cannot turn.no strength". so the demonstrator heard me. n offered to help. but it was a rather embarrasing moment. cos after that. this other girl. who is much smaller size than me. turned it effortlessly. and after that. throughtout the whole demonstration. the demonstrator kept laughing at me.
so these days even as i try not to think abt the fact that sch is starting in ONE weeks' time, it appears that it is hard to do so
even as i decide to go shopping, fate has it that i meet NUS people
today,for example, i met ghost girl.ya if u haf forgotten her, she's e one who wears a white drapping dress n walk up n down the aisle of the lecture theatre
no she dun recognise me.duh.but the sight of her seems to send me an invisble msg "HEy ITS ME GHOST GIRL.U ARE GONNA SEE ME IN NUS IN A WEEK TIME"

and den today i realise y some people get hacked to death
u see
my mum n i was waiting fer the bus at the interchange
u know how sumtimes u dun join the queue but just wait at the side when the bus comes
so we waited at the side fer the pple in e queue to get up
n one FAT kingkong guy who looks fugly thought my mum was trying to cut queue
so he yelled"oi queue up lar"
u see. if i were some gangster ah beng or frm the tua pek gong society
he probably wld haf been hacked to death by now

these days
i seem to have abandon the world for my games
let me stay away from reality.....=(
spent new yr wif the ACKSX minus xiuhui at east coast


i m embracing the new yr with dread as usual
mayb bcos i m pessimistic
but also
new year=new semester
lazy to blog
a horribly bad day
the NUS staffs are all so unfriendly
bleah!

niway. went market today. felt a little out of place

n

i hate it when i m nice to pple n they r mean

my new yr resolution
1) study mugg study
2)be nicer to all my friends n love ones
3)lets keep it as that fer the time being
veri lazy to blog
i haf tons of sch stuufs to settle..ho ho ho
xmas eve..spent wif the ah soh gang who wanted to experience the joyous spirit of chritmas
lets see
we went to hooters. haha yes the place i tink aloy will like.
was quite an exciting outing. n doing some catching up with all the ah sohs.ah sohs all getting more n more funky. i tink i shd b the ah soh instead. haha
haha oh n i got stopped by a policeman while driving
hah!! no la. evrey other cars were stopped. they wanted to test if pple drank n drove. of cos. kailing din. she drank fruit juice. haha. but exciting. and weiyi could still tell me" hey the policeman quite gd looking"

things kl will NVR enjoy doing
1)taking photos. i look ghastly. y do i need to take more photos to prove to myself that. haha
2)clubbing. just dun appeal to me. hah i still haven stepped into any of such places yet. not intending to. n henceforth. i will nvr be fond of guys who club.
3) drinking. thou shall nvr touch any alcohlic drinks . i dun care. i just dun drink. i can't drink aniway. i love my fruity hooty fruit juice more can.haha
4)now u see. y nightlife doesnt suit kl. i feel like a bad kid just staying out late. see. boring kl rite. the activity i tink i enjoy most.is sitting n stoning. and oh ya how can i forget. reading newspaper. reading the same few articles over n over.


and sharon. i know u are stalking me. hahaha
veri lazy to blog
i haf tons of sch stuufs to settle..ho ho ho
xmas eve..spent wif the ah soh gang who wanted to experience the joyous spirit of chritmas
lets see
we went to hooters. haha yes the place i tink aloy will like.
was quite an exciting outing. n doing some catching up with all the ah sohs.ah sohs all getting more n more funky. i tink i shd b the ah soh instead. haha
haha oh n i got stopped by a policeman while driving
hah!! no la. evrey other cars were stopped. they wanted to test if pple drank n drove. of cos. kailing din. she drank fruit juice. haha. but exciting. and weiyi could still tell me" hey the policeman quite gd looking"

things kl will NVR enjoy doing
1)taking photos. i look ghastly. y do i need to take more photos to prove to myself that. haha
2)clubbing. just dun appeal to me. hah i still haven stepped into any of such places yet. not intending to. n henceforth. i will nvr be fond of guys who club.
3) drinking. thou shall nvr touch any alcohlic drinks . i dun care. i just dun drink. i can't drink aniway. i love my fruity hooty fruit juice more can.haha
4)now u see. y nightlife doesnt suit kl. i feel like a bad kid just staying out late. see. boring kl rite. the activity i tink i enjoy most.is sitting n stoning.


and sharon. i know u ar stalking me. hahaha
there r justtoo many a times i lament at my own indecisiveness n lack of firmness
dat i alwasy get caught in situation in which i can't seem to find a way out

aniway
its e festive season

merry christmas=0)
HappY BirD-DAY saMUEL

I JUST REMEMBERED YER BDAY TODAY AND HENCEFORTH I M REALLI SORRY to proclaim that i din send u any cards or gift!!! arrgh... but i promise when u return to singapore, ur bird gift willl be awaiting u
haha
excting trip to msia with shiwei jervis n yj
watched chronicles of narnia. i tink we can have the chronicles of johor already.
we kinda explored the place.walked an awful lot. took alot of cab too.special thanks to a sabo kia. haha
hmm actualli the sight of the city of johor was a refreshing change of environment.. but i tink i just dun feel comfortable there.. yea i still prefer good old singapore. haha and somehow it seems pple can recognise u a a singaporean straight away.well just take a walk thur the shops selling vcds.somehow they will know u r a foreigner.and the way of queuing for toilet is also different...haha but movie there is realli cheap.yup so is the food. had a nice dinner of oatmeal with rice. haha it was suppose to be seafood dinner with clayfish,stingray n stuffs but i think the oatmeal appealed to me most.hahaha

fun is over..d day is here. boo hoo hoo guess i will rather not ponder too much....sighz.....
i went kite flying today
haha dun laugh. it was actualli pretty fun. i luv flying kites. 1st time to fly kite. i m so proud of the monkey kite. haha.
been gg out wif u guys so often. but i still enjoyed all the outings=)
cant join u guys tonight to sleep over.. but guess u all wil haf fun toking=P
happy birthday kailing. haha
sian. 20 alr. the big 2. soon. the big 3. ugh. when that time come. i will go tibet to rest in the sanctuary.
niway.
heh was nice seeing u again....i tink we r both pretty weird.haha
aniway.. thnaks to all those who remmebered my bday!=)

and. guess who i met today
SHARON TEO SHIOK HUI. haha miss babe is stalking me. hahaha..hope u guys had fun today..
cant wait to see u all again tmr=P . i wanna see crys eat. haha.

ripped this frm sharon blog. i hate taking photo bcos i dun look gd in them.esp nxt to a photogenic person. haven post the photos at sleepover cos my internet connection in my rm is realli bad... wait a while more !
i hate sun!
in sentosa, pple suntan. i shadetan. i look fer shade to hide.having done biology. i dun love e sun animore. not that i did.
but i figure i cld do with a weeny bit of sun.a teeny bit is healthy.i look kinda pale.

m realli tired......... sigh......
i think time is passing by a tad too fast
mayb when u r occupied.u dun think so much of unhappy n gloomy stuffs. n maybe time pass by faster.

anyway
bought a bdae present fer myself today that cost 30 bucks...
these days...i think i spent more on friends den on myself..... presents this month alone cost 100 plus.
watched e descent today
ok. everyone..STOP bringing mi to watch gory show. haha i pretty much covered my eyes wif my water bottle this time round......=(
hai...this hols is like half gone.....boo hoo.. i m actualli enjoying myself actually...
i feel extremely guilty. cos i was supposed to organise the class party n in e end..shiwei did everything. i did not even bring any food.boo hoo hoo...
aniway.thanks shiwei.for all the effort.yj n e rest fer the bday cake=)..din expect it.

aniway.....a veri terrifying experience tpday
i got lost. u know things r not looking gd when u end up at an unknown place n unknown road wif no cars at 12 am. yes laugh at me. but fer 15 min i panicked. u see. i was supoose to exit at PIE changi airport. so being kailing, i missed it n exit at PIE jurong. for those who drive. u know. how sad this is.n den the nxt nearest exit was i some funny road which i cant even rem the name. so fer 15 min. i drove ard in e dark not knowing where i was. scary la. n den images of the movie saw2 i had watched began to appear in my mind. hahaha.. so dun ask mi how i got home. i must thank the road sign in singapore. easy to follow. haha. btw. i cant use a street directory. all i remebered. was. ending up at goldhill road. i dunno where it is. haiz...
if u receive a present fromme
and its nicely wrapped, den u know it must be mama who wrapped it
been trying to wrap stuffs fer e last half an hour
in e end i got so disgusted i kjust tore the wrapping paper n wrapped anyhow
exciting day tmr!! wee!!!!
a lazy day spent doing nothing
sometimes i think.playing games takes my mind off stuffs.
i m a tad of nonchalant n oblivious to stuffs
when the time comes. we will all know wat to do.
and so fret not my friends.... when u guys are troubled or wat, just play games. hahaha

n i m so out of touch wif everyone.maybe its time to come out of hibernation..... haa



yesterday i think i saw this guy frm my jc class fer e 1st 3 mths.. n being a shy person, i casually pretend not to haf noticed him. thinking he nvr see me la.. haha. this is so kailing's style. and aniway later when he came to tok to me, i had to think hard fer an excuse why i nvr say hi.haha.so embarassing la..

crap aside


n so 6B pple. most prob e gathering is on the 10th.shiwei will confirm wif u all
and u guys better make sure u all bring some food. well unless u all want mi n shiwei to cook. sure thing man. haha.cooking is a piece of cake fer me. i can make roti prata.pineapple tarts. in my dreams.haha. or else we ask debra and yj to make their specialty-ROCK BrOwnies. the one they did at lennard's hse last time.=P
SLEEPY
watched some psychopathic movie saw2.. which left me hiding my face behind the jacket
haha and u thot i was a weird freak. i get freaked out by stuufs like dat too.haa ok i m seeing stars again from the com
lazy to type
haa
ok 9hrs of com games
i m seeing stars again
now at least theres something for me to do during my hols liao.
haven been doing any stuffs. not even shopping. i think i haf a couple of xmas present to buy is it hur? ACKSX? ha lazy to shop....
hols r meant to slack
i admit
i m a boring person
i dun play. i dun party. dun club. dun go out with friends much.dun do sports now. dun watch movie. dun do anithing basically.but mugg.and wat do i do everyday dutring hols? i haf no idea.time juz fly by.


some things in life are meant to b forgotten
and some stuffs.......at one pt or so. it may matter to u. u may put in alot of effort. but sometimes in e end. everything comes to naught.

i m toking in secret language again. haha

ok off to zzz
must wake up early to plaY gaMES

Friday, November 25, 2005

back fer a while
done with onli the core modules
as fer how i think i fare........... just like dat lo.....
very brain dead.......
gonna slack till dinner time
den begin with biology
i love having exams from day 1 to the last day
so that i can prolong the agony of mugging n fully experience the adrenaline rush

see yer all again nxt thur

Friday, November 11, 2005

happy 22nD birthday my dear
although happy seems the least apt

gtg hit e books
shall end off with a fact i realise today
i realise i dun like chocolate. i feel like puking after eating chocolate-y stuff.
n i m seeing stuff from the triangular point of view.thanks to triangular diagram. ur nose. is 45%A,30%S,25%C.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

so u all missed mi? hah. i m still alive....barely...with so many stuffs to study...=(

sometimes when im tired of mugging n taking a break.. i drift off to lala land..... dreaming abt stuff...thinking about stuffs...how nice would it be... to be able to roam the world with someone i love... in a foreign land....basking under the sun.... just walking leisurely...strolling by a beach..without worries.... all the carefree-ness.....


to me,managing a relationship is as hard as making my room neat. period.
so if u guys have seen my room before... u know how good i am with it.
though
in terms of difficulty level. not importance

somedays.. , i re-read the newspaper or magazine countless times when i m bored of studying
yup. re read again n again the papers. but only certain articles.
somedays. i jump around the house. other days. i bang the wall.


p.s:bird:trying to make me feel happy? haa i think yer version of smallville is pirated la. i look into the mirror everyday and ask myself:"why oh why do i look so much like a zombie"

take care all.as i embark on a week long fight with books again.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

when i was in sec3
i had a chinese teacher who told us
never borrow stuff from people. people dun like it when u borrow stuff from them.and that we should bring our own stuff
den he went on to say how much a stapler bullet can cost . and dat there is no reason to borrow a stapler when u should be bringing ur own
n so. sorry to the 2 guys whom i borrowed a stapler from today

actually i m just VERY irritated bcos. i CAN"t FInd my notes and stuff for revision. well done kl. kl has to be e messiest gal alive dat she just throw her notes at different corners of her room after every few weeks. and so. she pays e price of not knowing where diiferent notes and stuff are. things are weird. u usually can't find something u are searching for. but that thing pops up later when u are not looking for it...... does this apply to certain stuff in life as well??
oh FReak.i give up on hunting. will wait for the notes to pop up.
yup.exams coming
gonna abandon this blog alr......wun be blogging much
take care all.. dun miss me...
see yer all in prob month's time

life is really about coping with dissappointments
things dun alwasy go the way u want them to be.

Monday, October 31, 2005

why i say i m under stress
well.... those who went to jc probably know how much organic chem we studied in the 2 yrs. in NUS, we are suppose to learn all these topics plus new topics,new reactions new mechanism and have them memorised in 3 months. ya u go.. learn before alr wat.shd be quite easy. no. really. no. not when u have over 500 plus pages of text

if i have the $, i would haf gone to the states to study AGRICULTURE. den after that i will live as a farmer. by myself with animals and crops. solitude isnt a bad things. human beings are by far the most difficult creatures one has to live with.



yay exams coming. so much stuffs to study......... yay!!!=) =)

Friday, October 28, 2005


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i m e more erratic person ever
my test results goes thru many hill... some day i do very well.some days i just screw everything
my mood goes thru several maxima n minimun.one moment i m happy the nxt moment i act like e world owe me $.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

feel like a piece of crap. i m not sure wat it means. just dun feel good.so many things to do.......so little time
beginning to doubt myself........haiz

Monday, October 24, 2005

i HATE sch
had a nice weekend of mugging n meetting up wif aloy crys n sharon.. i miss aloy! ya. i prefer this aloy to the beng beng one too. n sharon: take care babe. crys. cough*bio! will miss yer all.see yer all in decemeber. sob
ya a nice weekend. ruined by school. getting irritated by things n pple.i HATE sch. i dun want to go sch. at least sch is gonna end. i just wanta get away from sch n everyone else.
and now. back to the land of books. other unimportant stuff can wait. Books are wat that matter to me now. other stuff..i shall just leave them aside.
to find comfort in pain

Friday, October 21, 2005

about road hazard
what Do u do when u see an object in the middle of the lane and u cant avoid it?
u go past it. hoping the car goes past it
i tink i mentioned b4
once. while i was driving. i saw a helmet.yup those constrution type yellow helmet in the middle of my lane n much as i tried to avoid it, i couldnt. so the yellow helmet somehow got stuck to the car. and goes plop plop plop with my car for some distance. which freaks me out rather badly since we all know how tough helmet is n i was afraid the helmet will follow me from nus back home via the ecp. luckily someway along the road, the helmet decides to free itself .

today, i drove into a rather huge piece of metal stuff...which i waas afraid wld have punctured my tyre n luckily it din..
toking abt road hazard. i found out theres a cool biodiversity museum in nus. and theres a carcass of a leopard cat that was knocked down along mandai road,whose head was severed and in which the museum pple were NICE enough to pick up the carcass to perserve it. and so u can see its carcass floating in a container of formaldehye in the museum.very cool. n sad actually

anyway theres a plant called the cb plant in ns? i dunno wat it it. but it got this indian guy rather high when the lecturer mentions it



and gals n guy who are somewhat narcissist. NEVEr attempt to take a selfpotrait in the lecture. it looks freaking dumb when pple see u trying to pose to get a nice shot of urself on ur phone. jus ask meaty gal's friend who did that today

yup bio was fun. nxt wk is my last bio lecture. i actualli enjoyed the lectures.


oh ya. i still feel dumb today when i woke up.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Happy birthday poei
Happy birthday aloy


today
i woke up still feeling rather dumb
i think i need to bang my head n wake up frm this state of daze

oh ya i saw a guy who llooks like aloy.. or mayb its just me. i keep thinking pple look alike..esp gals.... hmm...everyone are like clones..... dress sense,hair.skin colour. all rather similar.as fer me. if u think u look like a zombie, well, it means u n me. we are alike.
today is just one of those days i feel extremly dumb and stupid cos i clayed my weekly test fer e first time..... it was a tad of dumbness n complacency i guess..some days u just feel dumb n dunno wat u r doing. i hope this dun happen too often=(
shall be more focused frm now on...

nothing exciting abt sch.
i m becuming more n more critical
but i really cant stand it when pple talk loudly during lectures.
skinny gal.prob less than 40kg with voice that can b heard 3m away. i feel like, turning around to tell her "shut up u tecko".
but i know i cannot be so mean to others.
i know i m mean to people. but i dun want to put on a facade well too. like pretending to be nice or be saccharinely sweet to pple i dun quite enjoy being with. and if i m sad. i dun want to hide it. maybe thats y i am weird.

haiz.
just sian today
need to find some inner peace...................................

Monday, October 17, 2005

the following excerpt is from a feedback about a particular module by some unknown freak

"I got back my weekly test no. 6 recently and felt that the marking was not fair. A comparison with my friends, I realised that there should be 2 markers for the scripts. Of course one was lenient than the other. There were no ticks or any markings by the marker who was more lenient and usually those were the scripts which scored full marks even though their answer to the last question was apparently wrong. My point is though the more strict marker is good as he/she points out our mistakes to us by writing the correct answer on our scripts, nonetheless I felt that it would be unfair for us because these marks are taken into account for our finals. I hope that you would look into the matter and address the problem."



this is how absurb pple can get. they complain about this and that. just a pathetic few weeny marks or so they complain like hell as if it will rob them of their life or wat
u know.. everything goes full circle. and its true that there are 2 markers, one more lenient, the other more strict. but sometimes,depending on luck, u get the lenient marker.BUt by complaining, or rather, giving a feedback, u ENSURE that in e future, markings will all be strict.that is. u suffer too. now WOULd u be complaining if u get the lenient marker n get full marks instead? n each test by the way is only 10 marks. and we have 10 test altogther n we are suppose to take the 6 best out of 10.
u see y i m so sick of sch? pple here are so not cool.
although its not really my problem since i HAVE CLEARED all my 6 tests. (no not all 10 marks la)but still. this is just a example to show how competitive pple in chem eng are.
DAM SIAN. i tell u. i mean not that i m not a mugger or concerned abt my grades. but not to such a kiasu extent. mayb thats y i dun do as well as the rest ?
watever.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

i m alr having monday blues when its not even monday
try spending ur weekends with ur lecturer on e computer
doing tutorials. for hours
Beautiful Dawn- but i am chasing time again

life is about grappling with disappointments
how often. do u feel disappointed by things ,people around u, with urself

talked to aloy briefly who is absolutely abhoring army life
i can't say i like the life i m leading right now too

i hate sch.

Friday, October 14, 2005

wat happens when the lecturer tells u there is a mistake in the tutorial n u just ignore it?
u spend half an hour reiterating something that nvr converge. well done kailing
sometimes i really dun know wat i m doing anymore. there are just days. i m blinded by emotions..
sorry to the poor classmate whom i left at com centre
to someone else.....i don't take u for granted...it seems i cant control my emotions well.. although i have been trying to change that..sometimes..its just not easy.maybe i dun show it.....but u r still special to me

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind,
Hold memory close at hand..


more cheerful stuff....=)
poei n aloy bday coming
those who know them.go buy them present
'crap' of the day(by the lecturer)
u know how some animals has certain protective features to guard against predator.. like horns...thorns.. so he showed the picture of a porcupine. n asked. so how does the porcupine 'do' it. that is mate with each other.

don't tell u
n its true.
human are inquisitive. like today i was stoning alone outside some lt, staring intently at the floor behind a vending machine. so this guy who walked past me. who bought a drink, who caught me staring(not at him), turned to look behind to see wat i was staring at. den he saw nothing n turned to look at me.so i just stared at him. he gave me a weird look n walked away.ok i admit. i was staring too intently at the floor

there are many places u can stone at nus. like chinese library. can hide there if u r sian.

organic chem test was ..not very good..did wat i could. dun haf high hopes.. at least i did it on my own. i did not attempt to copy. cos it was in lt n side by side. n i had two smart ones nxt to me.. and i think some pple did copy la..i still have some tinge of intergrity left. (haha i said some, i din say alot k)something i can be proud of. but not so when it comes to results time...

went wif class to clarke quay. ya probably the nightmare of my parents since they think of me as the kind who drinks at clark quay. nah. was just a simple affair of dinner of very delicious fish n chips.. although the guys drank abit . oh well. but i figure if guys dun drink also quite gay la. or rather i mean mama's boy la. no offence.. its some kind of sterotype. i personally wun like guys who drink on a regular basis.

haiz..n i sense wat seemed like a wisdom tooth growing.....die....... sigh......y do teeth give me so much problems.......................................................................
for now
its webcase,tutorials
things dun end sigh

Monday, October 10, 2005

now as mentioned. i sed i will post pic of myself looking like zombie frm resident evil... (this actualli feels freaking bimbotic n narcissist posting my own pics)these are frm a frend called TAX's camera. the veri ghastly pic hidden frm view is me in lab wif a dumb big lab googles. n the rest are takne on a boring fri afternoon.look carefully fer veri awful dark circles. haiz. Posted by Picasa

Sunday, October 09, 2005


Posted by Picasa taffy/ruggi/taptap n ruggie/lala n taffy
arrrgh organic chem is driving me crazy....i cant seem to get those stuff in my head. I m dead. dead. haiz
it din help i m hit by the sleepy bug.. one moment i m with benzene n the nxt moment i haf drift into la-la land n i find a patch of what seems like drooling on my book. haha just joking la. i dun drool on books! n i woke up at 10 today(haiz) and panicked.(like i say i dun like to waste time sleeping), bang my knee against the bed. sigh...spent 2 hrs on one qn of DISTILLATIONs. gawd. who cares how many stages are there in a distillation column. n 2hrs were spent on nothing beacuse nothing much came out of it. n in e end. i contend myself by putting values n applying some formula with rather profound names. SIGh. sch's is so bland.

i forgot to write about ghost gal. if u all remember her still
in addition to dressing like a ghost,( although this guy friend of mine tells me she has nice boOBs. )she has a ghastly laughter. she goes HEE TEE HEE very loudly each time e lecturer makes a joke.
n let me introduce another interesting character called the opera gal. so called because she put on make up that are thick enough for chinese opera singing.n she always dress like she is gg to chiong. but a rather regretful thing is that she is rather pui, n thus, every fri we see a meat ball n rice dumpling.
ya now u know. when i m stressed. i laugh at others. i m mean. haiz.
n then i keep having nightmares these days. i was wondering. since we derive stuff like proteins n fats from food. den so when one gets eaten up by a shark or a lion, can u imagine urself being digested into fats n proteins... EWWWWU.
niway
see u all nxt thursday. i have to spend my nxt 4 days or so with organic chemistry. i m dead. haiz.

Friday, October 07, 2005

yay! 2 tests nxt week!
i m kinda immune. a tad of nochalant.
everyone everything seems far away


drove to bugis today. bugis's rather boring leh. nothing to look at.so i left in less than an hour. but in less than an hour, the damage was done. cos i ate alot. i dunno. i just keep eating alot these days. but on junk food.

yea i was hit by blue bug the past few weeks...but i guess..talking to pple has helped. n thanks.to friends. who talked to me. who msg me. its funny. how sometimes. the pple i end up whining to aint those who are closest to me n who are beside me.

hmm. no cute guys at bio lecture today. nothing really interesting. all we learnt was naming organism. stuff like homo sapiens..i think some guy named a beatle after Bush and called it something-bushi.
aniway. the cute guys wasnt realli that fantastic also. he was a tad too short.

& aniway contrary to popular belief that engine has a lot of guys, n henceforth u wld expect alot of cute guys, i m sad to announce that no, dun haf. haha. prob jus a small handful..any engineering guys reading this pls dun be sad. u are the small handful=P.
and anyhow. who cares abt cute guys. i have more important agenda on hand. like..... reading mcmurry organic chemistry.epoxides.ether.benzene.kailing.alky halide. miss low. will prob kill me if she knew. how her efforts(remedial classes! haha) has come to nought. n her horror student has now,proven to be disastrous in organic chem again.=(

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

ok last one. i hoped i haf included everyone.. though i haf left out some intentionally..i juz randomly clicked la. hahaha yea if u press fer e enlarged version. i think the pics look quite ugly..oh well... no more collage. i got bored liao. haa Posted by Picasa
haa there are no connectivity in e photos...... juz fer fun la hur... Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

dam chio rite! i hate to say this. but lala n tap tap are so chio!! too bad no taffy n ruggie=( Posted by Picasa
random pics
from e past.
this collage thing is so cool.
last time i dun look so much like a ghost.
one of these days i shall take a photo of myself now n scare the daylight out of u guys Posted by Picasa
because i alr look very terrible n ugly. i dun wish to scare more pple by posting my pics. n so...i din include my individual shots Posted by Picasa
feeling down e past few days.
been thinking thru alot of stuffs too.dunno if it has made me feel better or worse. thus explaining fer the extreme mood swings
how much i keep wondering
if i m living it right. doing things i really want to do. and asking myself wat the hell am i doing
and till now i dun haf an answer
sometimes i lament at my own lack of determination. n e inability to take up challenges n risks. like i always so many goals n dreams. but i never set myself up to achieve them

n then this sense of hollowness n emptiness in me. n the life i m leading. its all about books. i cant even remember myself doing anything else other then that. at least in e past, i still train. where have all my time gone to. n its not like i m doing very well in school either. like i said. i mugg to catch up,not to b ahead. i m barely hanging on myself most of the times.pure mugging isnt the kind of uni life i haf wanted or expected.i always wanted some kind of uni life too other than books n just books. but the question is. do i really have the determination to achieve wat i want? m i willing to change the kind of life i m leading.. people always say once u have set ur mind on something, u will be able to achieve it. maybe........... maybe one day. i will try to make a difference. no. not maybe. i will do something abt it. soon. but my enthusiasm probably follow that of a bell shape curve too. i haf to make it into a increasing exponential curve 1st.

sometimes. its really tiring and tough. having so many expectations to live up too. esp that of parents....

and i rembered a few post back where i complained. abt friends, relationship, parents... that i fall short of looking at myself n how i treat them. n i haf to say. i fail very badly in the above roles as well... maybe life is really about learning........ experiences....... i still have so much more to learn.. n i really need to be more open to new ideas n stop living in my own world all the time. be more supportive of others. friends. family. relationship. i need to take into more account the feelings of others when i do or say stuffs........... n that all kinds of relationship.involves giving. not just taking

yea. most of u probably wouldnt understand wat the hell i m getting at..it doesnt really matter..... these days... i blog fer myself.......
the irony is that having said so much, i haf to start some mugging now. yea weekly tests.... n one more point. i need to take things more lightly..........
if i can. i will.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

yea
blogger loves me
juz as i feel messed up enuf
i lost a long post

=(
so i m not gonna retype it


aniway. toking abt karma. everything. goes.full circle.
having criticised many unknowns. fer ghastly dress sense. i have friends. who tell mi. my dress sense is too boring. yea. i agree. but it doesnt really matter. honestly since i put on braces. i hadnt care much abt how i look. and might as well look worse. i m gonna b an old hag n scare every guy off. yea n right now. i m in a self created doldrum again. n i dun realli care abt anything in particular.nothing seems to matter. not anymore

anyway. i realise. its actualli pretty easy if one wants to get noticed in engineering.
wear a 11 inch mini skirt n expose meat. haha. n before u know it. u r the object of everyone;s gossip. haha. so if one seeks cheap thrill. go to engineering. or better still. dress like that ghost gal in white. sure get noticed one. haha mayb one day i will do just that. right.

salicylic acid.organic chem. so cool. i made salicylic acid in lab. n i realised today. that a lot of facial pdts contain salicylic acid.

Friday, September 30, 2005

oh great
spend cow years on a crap biochem assginement. dumb veri dumb

yea
fri is cute guy day
we had same open lab together looking at mutant flies
then we took the same lift
and then i found another cute guy in lecture

today;s lecture is more interesting
there was a girl.in white dress knee length.white shoes.drapped with a long white shawl.long hair. u can imagine, she looks like she juz came from fright night.
n then meaty gal if u all still remember exposed her meat again. but i realli shdnt be laughing cos i haf alot of meat too.haha
n den the lecturer is dam crappy. he said u shdnt let a horse point its foot at u.
the reason is lame. cos evolution has it that the foot evolved from its middle toe. so if a horse point its toe at u.its akin to poiinting the middle finger at u.. dumb hur.
but i remember when i was young. i used to like reading abt animals. u know.animal Encyclopedia.. ya. i was weird since young.

slacking time is over
slacked yesterday. tok to all my long lost buddies. i hope my phone bill these days dun die. been making like hr long phone calls.
but i missed everyone. the other day found yip kai's paddle.ok sorry yipkai. i will return the paddle to u. on ur wedding day.
today went shopping..... but i love the stuff i bought. zara has nice t-shirts
n i like faded denim! but i prob wun wear them.to sch. who cares abt sch. i hate sch. i will dress my worse. my auntie wear. my flooding pants to sch. i dun care.
n somehow... i still find this lingering sinking feeling...each time i think abt...sch.sigh

Thursday, September 29, 2005

its been one hell of a week
here i m sitting in front of my com
looking at the answer sheet of the test i have just taken.....
as usual. i know. i screwed up. not surprising.
as usual. i m gonna tell myself not to look back n focus on the final exam. n i have tried my best.
but i jus couldnt help but feel extremely demoralised..................and somewhat dumb. no not somewhat. extremely dumb.
and den the tests are over.no big deal
bcos i am behind time for so many lectures.tons of stuff waiting to b done
i need a break...... i feel somewhat zombie-like. disorientated. brain not functioning well.maybe dats y i always clay my tests. not enuf slp. brain not working. but there is no time for rest.
feeling extremly down today. n then i thot of crystal.......... crys u happy not. i think of u when i m sad. u can b my lover alr.
haiz
n den after that i started walking ard nus alone.

haiz
is there anything that can cheer mi up now??
=(

Saturday, September 24, 2005

ok sorry aloy.
i cant join u guys tmr. haiz. i m beginning to wonder if my time management skills is realli bad..haiz..niway..loy loy,BOTAK head, take care n hope to see yer soon.
haiz. nxt week is a veri interesting week fer me. with 3 tests. 2 labs. 1 undone assignment due.

will b gone fer a week or so........... to the land of books. after which next fri. i will declare fer myself. mid-sem-fri break. if i can survive mon-thur. n finsh my assignement.
take care all!

Friday, September 23, 2005

so to de-stress
today in school. i looked at cute guys. ya. today no more looking at meaty girls.before u all think i look at girls n wonder if i m straight or not.
today i look at guys. i finally found one very cute guy. who came to sit at the same row as me but at e aisle. n.cos my friend was late .so for some time. he was 'next' to me. 'next' bcos there were a few empty seats btw us. HAA duh.
cute guy dun listen to lecture. he just keeping using his laptop n flexing his arms around.maybe he likes his muscular arms. must show off.
cute guy also have nicely styled hair with some ah beng colour
and cute guy also got pierced ear. but i have more piercings.so i win. 6-1. i win.
cute guy drives cute car to school. i noted down e plate number.lol
ok. instead of helping pple to look out for hot babes nxt time, i will instead look out for guys myself. since its only normal and ok to do so as u all claim. hehe


yesterday before i slpt. i thought abt this funny incident. when i was in j1. when i was e ct rep. there was once. when there was some inter fac sports meet in which attendance was compulsory. n which kl as usual decide not to go. and on that fateful day itself, i was happily in my room thinking how smart i was to pon when e civics tutor, our dear miss koh called me. so she goes " kailing, can u help me take attendance of those who are here." ya here as in in school. haha. so poor kailing has to take a dumb class list to school(bedok to buona vista) to give it to her. n OBvioUSLY onli 1/3 of e class was there.n i also i dreamt abt how one of my 6B classmate.ok shall not mention name. came to be attached to one of my uni friends. hahaha signs of gg bonkus.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

there are just days. i get so out of control of myself

read a ex DHS classmate blog.
ok. i m really somewhat DETached from the world since this mid term break.

apparently. there was MID AUTUMN festival celebration fer ex-dumanians at DHS. free buffet.mayb free mooncake.and hoho out of my class of 36 pple, only 4 din turn up. no prize if u manage to guess who was one of the 4..

DETACHED is the word. because. i just casually ignore email.sms. even msn. no. not chao mugging. i just feel.............. i dunno how to say............insignificant to others .as they are to me.

crap aside. mayb i shd tok abt my dunman days since it seems i onli reminisce about my rj n swimming days
DHS has e unique feature of celebrating MOONCAKE FESTIVAL. so i remember gg to school at NIGHT to celebrate mooncake festival. i think. they played some riddle crap n treasure hunt. honestly i cant really remember what we did. mayb eat mooncake n talk n admire the moon. ok. and we celebreate national day by having cross country.so every year the not so little kailing contend herself by running her heart out to get into the top 20 just so she can bring a lousy trophy home to celebrate national day with it.dumb hur? ask me to cross-country now i rather jump into e river. dun realli hold much memories abt my dunman days. y oh y? except mayb pretending to sing the national anthem every morning lest i get called n humiliate by the discipline master.

now. back to the whole load of stuffs i have CREATED fer myself to do
nitez world
i hope. i dun slp at 5am today

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

oh yea
so yesterday night was disaster again
mayb somethings's wrong with me.
r maybe its the mircosoft excel that perks me up too much
thou rather not dwell on it too much

aint there times i wish there is someone i can turn to

family-who are there but dun know what kind of life i m realli gg thru
relationship-probably 2 separate entities living in our own world
friends- who seem so far away sometimes

yea
a gloomy post
all i see is the silhouette of gloom with some textbooks


midterm. is it over alr. are we back to school.a folllow-the leader world. around pple.who seem so different.whose life i will nvr fit into n wld never want to.
follow the leader. so fun wasnt it. during swimming trg. when e leader turn. u turn. how it applies in uni. shall not elaborate

Friday, September 16, 2005

so feeling bored today i logged on to friendster. after a few month hiatus.
friendster nvr fail to make mi laugh out loud
there was this guy.a 3rd yr student frm NUS MEDICINE. who sent me a msg.
haha. makes mi wonder. wat kind of doctor he will b nxt time.
i guess. he will enjoy making friends with his female patients
ok. cannot b mean
shd b happy. gooD catch right. i think i shd recommand zihua to him. haha

i m becuming so critical these days hur.
i derive entertainment looking at pple during lecture n criticsiing them
like. today when mi n one of my guy friend almost puked at this girl.sitting in front of us. she keeps bending down to get her stuff n in the process, expose her veri meaty body n waist. n as i was bending down to get my bag(gasp! i hope i din expose any unsightly parts). i saw th ebutt crack(unintentionally) of her friend. EWW! low waist hipster.a big nono unless u wear them right
n since as karma would have it. one day. pple will laugh n puke at me too
my dress sense is getting realli awful.mayb i shd start paying more attention to the way i dress n not be so sloppy. i mean. gals my age. all seems so well groomed.they all dress up well n put make up. or haf nice accessories. so who m i to laugh at pple.
anywway during lecture. the lecturer was toking abt how mutations causes cancer
its like. being exposed to sun too often
uv light can cause mutation in ur cell's chromosome n DNA n cause the cell to kinda go haywire n rapidly multiply
so butt crackgal goes like"aiyo.how"
to which meaty waist gal said "thats y nxt time i think we must put more sunblock"
haha

crap aside
mid term 'break'
it doesnt feel like a hols
i haf 3 test awaiting after that
n i feel like i haf so much stuff to do
or mayb i m mentally stressing myself out
so many stuffs..gg thru my mind these days
i just feel..like screaming out loud

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

didnt realli sleep a wink yesterday. somehow it seems my mind was filled with schoolwork n my brain refuse to rest n so i onli slept at 7am. n woke up at 10am. n here i m. typing my essay.it will be nice...to see wat time of the day..i'll KO.. sleepless night are frustrating.

n i m still awake to crap.
the other day. i read an article about how guys look at other girls even when their gf is around. how it irritaes their gf. n the writer gave some interesting ways of how to avoid being caught. haha.ironically. if i know my bf looks at babes. i wun stop him. i will let him look. i will even matchmake him with them. see. how nice i m. why bother stopping them. nothing's really wrong abt it right. we all love looking at pretty objects .but to some extent,it goes to show how much they really admire respect or cherish u. and the point about avoid getting caught. haha.forget it la. girls know it. they just PREtend not to know sometimes. of cos. i m being.somewhat. one sided here. but this logic applies to girsl drooling at hunks too. and this falls under one of those weird n morbid kailing theory.

N. abt public display of attention. .we have all read or heard abt complaints abt couple. doing unsightly stuff on trains. etc. i agree. its disgusting. but. if one day. u r in a relationship. n u find urself not showing ANY signs of affection towards ur other half. or u dun feel like a couple anymore and others dun see it that way also.or chances are. maybe like wat poei will say. u shd make plans fer a breakup.or prolly ur relationship is more platonic. n obviously. u dun realli feel special to him n vice versa. beacuse.such stuff. are instinctive action. if instinctively. u dun care. chances are. u realli dun.

OBVIOUSLY. dun get me wrong. i m not referring to anyone. its just based on my veri bored-observations abt couple ard me. n since. i shdnt be typing abt depressing stuff abt sch. i thot it will be kinda REFRESHING. RIGHT.
theoretically.i consider today the start of HOLIDAY. but in reality its not realli a holiday but a "catching up" session. in term of school work. so i herby resolve to mugg fer this whole holiday n try not to step out of the house. yup mugger me. ALTHOUGH. today. i took a little walk ard a SHOPPING mall.. juz 1hr..was enuf. to make mi feel better.now. e onli thing is. i dun shop. i dun walk into shops.i jus walk.add that to weird things kailing do. WALK on her own.

n den. here i m. 12.19am.watching webcast? y oh y? bcos i always skip lectures. no dun get mi wrong. i dun pon lecture. i choose not to go to save time. but guess wat. watching webcast takes me twice as long. n its half as effective cos. i get distracted so esily. N if i dun reply u or take dam long to reply on msn. pls dun hate me. although i will make it a point not to go on msn fer e nxt week or so.or tryto minimise it. n surprisingly.poei seems to b the one person who knows all abt me..in term of....guys??haha. surprise surprise. cos he's e lAST person i wld tok to about these stuffs. Or at least. i used to think so

n den. today i saw a rather plump gal.dressed like she is gg clubbing. in a chem engine lecture. why oh why do u dress so skimpily. wat oh wat are u showing off?
haha. mayb i m juz jealous u get to flaunt ur body wheares i dun get to cos i haf nothing to flaunt.haha.
but the things abt clothes is that u choose them to portray or accentuate certain parts of ur body u find attractive..or say cover up some parts u dun like. SOME pple haf commented that i wear the same stuff n carries the same image. WELL. i do agree. while most ple think that kailing has a lot of clothes,which i dun deny. u need to undersatnd. kailing BUY clothes. BUT she KEEPS them. n Not WEaR them. now. add that to how weird i m again. n no wonder her mum always ask her to wear new stuff. haha n i believe in karma. since i keep critising pple n how they dress... if i start dressing differently i will confirm get criticised. haha

Monday, September 12, 2005

stupid.idiotic. reckless driver. i hate most. add thaat to the list i created previously of pple i abhor.
n a driver. in a police car somemore.
who lane change INTO me. well.almost.
dun endanger the lives of other please.
n if i cursed and swear at u. u so deserve it.

on a lighter note
two -3 more days till midterm break
finally. time to get away frm sch n everyone else.
i m sick of pple asking around. "how to do this n this".
i m sick of myself asking pple "how to get this answer n this"
everyday. i hear e same things. hear e same complaints.

n midterm break.

its from sunday to thursday. how. ridiculous nus can get. they count sun too. n bingo. its a 5 day break. n to add on. after every midterm. e week starts on friday. friday what?
who cares aniway.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

call me shallow
but
guys relying on gals just dun feel right to me.
n henceforth. i dun think i will want to marry someone less capable than me. or earn less than me.
so go ahead n laugh at me. if i ever get married. n to a useless bum.
and so much for being hating male chauvanisim hur.
but since true love do not exist. might as well set the standard higher.


Whatever.
i m in a dam irritated mood today bcos of freaking tutorials.
sitting front of the com fer 5hr doing essay.
n my mum who starved me till 8.30.
and so i compiled of list of pple i dislike.types of pple
1) e kind who tries too hard
2) pple who are so shallow.
3) pple with low integrity.
4)freeloader. pple who just want to take the shortcut everytime.
5) some pple. u just dun like them on e first look
6) pple who bitch too much. its funny. the exicited n rejuvenated face they wear when they r bitching.dun get me wrong. i bitch.we all bitch. but some pple jus go overboard sometimes
7) now thats basically the whole world isnt it.actualli the list goes on n on n on. suddenly i realise i dun like a lot of pple
and since i believe in karma. i believe a lot of pple dun like me too.


but whatever it is. this is juz a crap post.

Friday, September 09, 2005

weekends=)

can get some rest at least.

i dun like to go out. i rather stay at home these days.
i m so proud dat i haf steered clear of malls since sch starts.
sch's still e same. but i think these days i just take things as they come to me. why bother complaining? things dun change.
the other day. had bio lab. which was a reminiscent of secondary sch bio. it was funny in a way cos i think theres something wrong with my eye lashes n i ended up looking at my eye lashes when i looked thru the mircoscope.

i freaking hate trains.mrt trains. i dun understand y is it that at every single hour of the day. the trains are always full. n its not like the passengers dun pay alot for mrt fares. honestly. i think smrt are making quite a hefty sum of money.

n i finally truly understand what it means by" two's a company,three's a crowd." put me with two pple. i wun bother engaging into any conversation.

my dad told me i haf put on weight. n he's really happy about it
which is also ironic in e sense that if u want a person to put on weight. u dun realli want to tell him he has put on weight rite.
anyway. i dun realli care. i just eat.what i can. haha

Wednesday, September 07, 2005


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himbo loy, we'll miss u.



i feel so sad for ur..er hair..



quote of the himbo:" er..wait. its like the first day of army the relatives can go. den wait the other guys have little sisters who go den they see my botak head how? i better bring a cap."

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bimbo. admiring themselves...*shake head

Saturday, September 03, 2005


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aloy. we'll miss u when u go ns.



ACKSX.esp sharon.sorry.we couldnt stay longer.will miss u all too.



and to a very very old acquaintance..thank for sending that message.it meant alot to me.all the best! =)