Wednesday, February 28, 2007

its been like 3 hrs since i last posted that photo
and guess what i am still laughing.

uber sweet aint it.. as life got cold(literally) in ISU.. this exuberant growth of love has brought about a touch of warmth in their heart that will conquer all feelings of coldness.

uber sweet also means i am an uber dead piece of meat.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

from sharon's blog
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i guess i sounded overly complacent
i attribute it to stress and feeling a little jaded recently
extreme palapitation of the heart. excessive staring into the space.hahaha
if i were a guy, or if my parents dont treat me as a kid anymore, i would probably pack my bag and go on an escapade to some island or some country somewhere out there alone after my dam internship and HR ends in june. 4 months to go. grr.

on lighter note,i saw another cute guy today and i bumped into cute guy 2 twice today. i think he has nice hair. like that of zhuo jie lun. hahahaha. tomorrow, i'll start walking ard the office more. not that i am interested in him. alternatively, i could spy on that long hair pretty hot babe engineer downstairs.
today, my favourite supervisor brought me out to the plant again to inhale benzene and toxic fumes. i swear my neck was going to break after a few hours of that huge helmet.

that aside.. today, he asked me whats my favorite soccer team.
liverpool was my answer. although seriously, the last time i watched a match was cow years ago.
i think he's pretty weird, pretty strict yet pretty nice sometimes. i like the fact that he treats me seriously. not as an airhead intern. like whenever i ask a question, he listens to it intently and answers them seriously.
i guess the thing to do is. to smile as sweetly as possible.especially when in doubt. hahaha.

also
my new resolution is to spend less time on the net. and start doing more contructive thing. like reading books, doing research , in conjunction with my boring and serious life.
so dumb rambling like this will be reduced. time will be spend on other more important thing
after all, life got cold....

Monday, February 26, 2007

i hate stupid guys
don't ask me what i mean by stupid
don't tell me i am not smart or what
some people are stupid. or rather. in nicer word, dumb

Sunday, February 25, 2007

the view of Singapore from our hotel room on thr 51st floor . nowhere near New York or Chicago viewed from Hancock Tower. but still pretty nevertheless. i don't know. but these views never fail to amplify the feeling of insiginificance of the self in me.
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my project group made the fatal mistake of assuming i can write and talk well.
not only do i have to come up with most of the report. which i did. although i m reading it with disdain now.
but i guess the reason why i feels horrible is predominantly because i feel like i am not doing a good job, not living up to my own expectations and theirs.
now, the worst thing is. i have to do part of the presentation as well.

maybe i need to learn how to cope with stress n getting depressed too easily.it gets a little hard maintaining a facade and feeling like a lone crusade.staring into space isn't working as a sense of emptiness stared back at me.

i guess i need a greater sense of optimism in it.period.
to seek a balance between realism and idealism.


and you really wonder what i am getting at

Friday, February 23, 2007

aloy the photo whore, his pretty girl friend, and his pseudo gay partner
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was taken advantage of by crys 101 times when she tries to prevent me from sleeping. this girl! horrible. just look at where she keeps touching me!
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Sharon's 21st at Swiss hotel
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hee my birthday gal! thanks for the stay at swiss hotel ..had a lot of fun!

sorry i couldnt keep u entertained till the morning

hee my dear babe has grown up! seems like just yesterday how we were pesky little kids at swimming trainings, how we competed in so many races together.. how many times we slack and talk during trainings.. stay pretty and happy always!

Thursday, February 22, 2007

i think i still haven recover from the post holiday blues
beautiful thur afternoon was spent...with my supervisor
2.5 hrs of intense discussion of all those yucky pipes and valves and filters and heat exchangers..dam.i dont even pay so much attention in class.
well..the only interesting thing that got me smiling was when he was talking abt the TF series of valves.. hahaha

and horror of horror..today.having spent my morning in a semi-daze n walking around the offices randomly checking out the pantry and toilets.. i saw a cute guy..from ntu.. now i shall make it a point to go to the pantry and toilet every hour or so..or wait..should i make it every half an hour..
joking la. i only have eyes for one guy.. hahaha

sharon's bday celebration tmr at some hotel. haha nice of her to book a hotel for me to sleep.. nothing beats a nice bed to sleep after spending a day with valves n pipes..hahahhahaha =P

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

maybe there's something called post holiday syndrome
where one feels excessively lethargic and stone
i couldnt really remember how long i stared into space today
i couldnt even remember what i said today



u could either mean everything or nothing to me
and since u have chosen the latter..don't look back anymore

happy 21st birthay sharon babe(bitch.haha)
love u!
welcome to the old woman club=P
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Monday, February 19, 2007

hahaha
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waiting for my hair to dry at 2.30am
grrrrrrr so might as well post the pics we took today..tiring day.3 auntie's house..then the acksx with gabriel came to my house,then to sharon's and then to xiu hui..who live all the way in sengkang..
boo hoo hoo i am always the last to reach home cos i must send everyone home..haha. joking la.... i'll complain..but i will also not allow u guys to go home by urself
been a loong time since we saw that gabriel. who used to terrorise me during swimming trainings.. but i think he has changed so much!
and sharon dear.. dont be too sad abt ur gucci(ya some people rich girl. ) hp strap..a new one will be on the way..hehe
hoho and aloy! dont be too troubled ok! take it easy man.hehe

ok.. must go dry my hair
cny came n past by in a whizz...bleah! wed. must read manuals again..arghgh
love u all!



all of us =D
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ALOYSIUS

TOLD U NOT TO BE MEAN TO ME.
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of pictures and visiting


my house.my bedroom.to sharon's house. then to xh's


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Sunday, February 18, 2007



really tired.
4hrs of driving
of stoning into space.haha. i mean. i am not very close to most of my relatives.my parents are. i am not.haha and i dont enjoy talking...although it seem everyone commented i have really became more talkative since i came back from states. ok la maybe not all my relatives.some cousins. we were reminiscing abt the past.. because it seems only yesterday we were naughty kids playing water guns, running around &getting ourselves wet..n now..he is getting married end of the year.
never fails to remind me i am old already.sigh
anyhow
more visiting tmr
and to all the bitches' house!
really tired.
4hrs of driving
of stoning into space.haha. i mean. i am not very close to most of my relatives.my parents are. i am not.haha and i dont enjoy talking...although it seem everyone commented i have really became more talkative since i came back from states.
just tired
more visiting tmr
and to all the bitches' house!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

happy new year!!
i guess nothing beats spending time and having your loved ones around u.. it's a little sad poei is in melb and not here for reunion dinner..no one to cook for me..usually when we eat steamboat he will keep cooking all the food for me.. haha and guess my parents must miss him alot too..
i like new year because in general everyone around me is happy. sometime last week after work i went down to walk somewhere alone and i could feel the joyous mood..everyone's spending happily.. and its happy for kids because we get to eat, wear our new clothes and get money! though the past week has been a little tiring for me.. today i sat in front of my laptop from 10am to 4pm to write a piece of crap essay. and the past few days must drive my mum around to shop.

well whatever it is..enjoy the new year everyone!
a brand new year, a fresh new start
maybe time to do some reflections
haha for me i guess
i must be nicer to friends. i am actually mean in general. i dont mean mean as in mean. it just means i am probably the kind of person who doesnt go to the extend of doing nice things for people. there are already people i lost contact with over the years.. but it doesnt mean i have forgotten abt them... i even remember the water polo guy who walks like a penguine.haha
work-wise. stop saying weird and unconventional things to my supervisor. the other day, when he passed me my 12th manual..i actually asked''do u actually read them'' hahaha not in those unhappy tone la.. & the thing is he keeps laughing and smiling at me(in a evil manner) the whole time.. grr..
school wise-bleah. after this sem,one more yr till graduation... maybe. i must study more. maybe some of u think i study too much. but i see it more like i just want to put in my best in everything i do. i dont like to have regrets in life.though they seem inevitable
but i still dont have a definite goal........ and to what lies ahead..where i am heading exactly..although i have a vague idea in mind..i'll keep that to myself
lovelife. haha.i'll leave it empty....... i think i am happy the way i am. much more as compared to the time when i was in a relationship.

whatever it is.. happy hongbao collection. haha.
and wherever u are, think of the people out there loving u n missing u!
cheers=P

Friday, February 16, 2007

typing with my eyes half closed
.........
half day work thanks to supervisor............
happy cny................ bleah

Thursday, February 15, 2007


paint is good for someone who is poor at computer and technology
work.school is driving me alittle crazy.
i am now reading catalogs of valves, filter,exchangers, flow meter. like shopping. if anyone wants to buy valves or a heat exchanger, i can help.like if the flush in ur toilet bowl breaks down, u might want to change the valve. haha

love gets a little impratical sometimes
but i m indulging in it..and letting myself fall further...
living for the moment ..

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
------''Keep holding On'', Avril lavigne--------

Monday, February 12, 2007

often, reality is in your head

i really should be writing reports. i promise to start on my 1500 word essay tomorrow. and my industrial attachment report. i mean. u know things are bad when ur essay only has 6 pages and there are people who tells u they are only half way through and there is already 12 pages
ok time for me to get back to serious studying. with cny around the corner...... sigh

work wise, my supervisor is still amused by me.
he:'' whats the drink u are drinking(pointing at my cup of orangy water)
me:'' vit C.my mum wants me to drink. ''
he: '' ur mum pampers u huh?''
me:''no!''
he:'' hard to bring up kids these days''( i wonder if he meant me?)
ok so after that he went on to discuss those sampling system and how to calculate pipings n crap. he was amused i brought along my chem eng process textbk.
me:''oh cause need to know conversion factor''
the next thing i know, he burst out laughing. haha. and then he handed me his secret program of converting. u know to convert from SI units to those British /US units. so now. i have his secret program. hahahhaha

that aside. i guess there are actually cute guys ard me. the guy in the cubicle next to me is cute in a nerdy way. and we are always spying on each other. haha. and today in my HR class, i found a guy from the same JC as me who is cute in the intellectual way.

i mean work gets a little boring. i mean. who spends hours reading abt valves? and today, i got handed another book on filters. but its enriching in a weird way. i mean. who would know a valve cost US$150. i should set up a valve making company next time. they already have 2 ways 3 ways valve. i should design some 10 way valves.

if u dont like someone u have on msn, or dont wish to talk to him
do u use the delete contact function or block function?

Sunday, February 11, 2007

as always
its easier to leave than to be left behind


let all this end tonight

Saturday, February 10, 2007


ok being a little bored from my research on human resources in the global economy,(<--sigh)

heres what i did

maybe after this i should considering moving my blog to somewhere private before weird people tag and scold me.
since my forte is irritating people.

ok
my mum like the song ''My love'' by justin timberlake.
she gets a little high whenever i play it while driving
my HR lecturer often talks about entrepreneurship, life, looking within one self.
so he asked'' why do u think people like bill gates don't have a university degree?''
and he claims that Bill gates is too smart that he already knows what he want

so how far would ur degree gets u?

Friday, February 09, 2007


now i am thinking if i should get this
a coach case for my ipod. i should have bought one when i was in US! argh
maybe i should order it online.
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ok i will get killed for this.
the handsome poei who flew back to melbourne yesterday.who dyed his hair that it somehow resemble that of lala's and there's a shade of ah beng-ness in him . i dnt know. i am amused. haha Posted by Picasa
ok. this is a little bimbotic....taking photo in the toilet.


my new ipod nano! haha doesnt it match the color of my new top too? courtesy of the bitches!










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ok someone asked me if lucky charms were the thing i missed most from US..
on doing some serious thinking, no!
here's what i really miss actually

















but.
if there's anything i miss and think about everyday. it's u
the one who calls me @ 12am.but.i like. =D

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

if u give me a wall now, i could really stare at it now for a few hours..
a tad of fatigue.emotionless
maybe i need to find someone who can stone with me for a few hours without feeling bored

well. i mean. hours of staring at those PID and P&ID diagram which seemingly resemble the blueprint of some building doesnt help. there was only like a million and one distillation column, valves,pumps and pipelines.
the last time i did a PID diagram in design class, it was with my cute american dudes(the justin timeberlake haha). we only designed sthg with a few towers n pipes.
they should attach a magnifying glass maybe
and just two more manuals given to me today. this time about valves, pipes, pressure and some other stuff. so now i have 9 manuals! can't think of a better way my(crap) chemical engineering knowledge is being put to use.

^^I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
You either stand or you fall ^^

Sunday, February 04, 2007

ok another horrible week awaits

n Singapore won the Asean Cup!


is life really that complicated or do we make it complicated for ourselves.. maybe its because for once, i dont know where i am heading and what lies ahead. i really don't.
''its complicated but understand me''
do u?


have a great week ahead everyone! i'll be inhaling fumes as always.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

very much into dress and flower prints recently..anyway as most of u already know this is my latest facebk and friendster pic. the reason being. i think i look thin here.and this is my newly acquired top.
well if theres one thing bad about america.well its the main cause of my tummy!
i promised myself not to shop for 1 yr after coming back from US. but it seems shopping is just my greatest form of entertainment now.
bling bling accessories like those in the pics are almost endangered now. because i cant wear them to work. i still remember when my supervisor gave me my uniform, he pointed to my dangling earring and said
''oh ya and u cant wear them to the plant. wait get stuck.dangerous''
and so being a little bored today, i painted my nails blue as shown below. a little surprise for my boss. lets see how he will react and what he will say on monday when he sees my painted nails. hahahaha

and bought a new bolster for my brother. like the size of lala!
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somethings in life
u just can't forget
reality and dreams

but life will be so empty without dreams and something to hope for

Friday, February 02, 2007

ok friday wee!
weekends..means so much more when u are working..
the week in brief
lets see
another meeting. with me just staring into space. haha
and then i went to the plant site again. this time to the aromatic plant. the more potent and carcinogenic one i assume. my supervisor was explaining to me 1001 stuff about the plant. the equipment i have to use and at the end of it he said" well its a two way thing. u learn but also must contribute.thats why i have 3 projects in mind for u...''
sweet
somehow. i think i may be getting more eccentric. that sometimes i laugh at the thing i said when i think about them.
boss:'' so one of your job is to make sure the maintenance workers are doing their job''
kailing:'' what do the maintainence group people do?!''
boss:'' they damage the machine''
kailing:'' so i help them damage the machines too?''
i dont know why i said that. hahaha but he gave me an exasperated look after that.

anyhow. was suppose to have dinner with my uncles engineer today at some restaurant. but thanks to HR 2002 i had to go to NUS to meet my project group. just more readings to read. grrr..and why is the engine canteen still so crowded at 6pm? and i forgot. to print stuff at NUS must pay! back in ISU, we had 1500 free prints. so i can just print whatever i like. the worst thing is. i cant remember my pin number! seriously. i stood outside the computer lab for some 5 min before some guy came along..sigh
that aside met my two bitches crys n sharon and their other half for desert yesterday. the cheng tng very nice ah?
and that shraon is really a bitch! (hahahah)
well so sharon bitch is having her 21st bday celebration at some hotel. ( she refuses to book ritz carlton!) and she intends to have a Pyjames theme?!! she is going to make everyone wear those old grandma dress kind of pyjames. how horrible! hahha and thats not all...
kailing:'' oh so all of u bringing ur other half ah..then i how? i dont have''
sharon:'' oh i know what. u can bring your laptop. then we can webcam with your dadee in US''

totally horrible right! i know. sharon will kill me.pretty soon. maybe next fri when we meet. i better. hide.somewhere.but.must get my ipod nano. 2GB or 4GB?

ok off for supper now. thing's getting really complicated.
oh and am suppose to go to pulau ubin tomorrow with cherry to meet some of the ISU exchange students! but............... am just too lazy...i feel really drained right now.. really really tired.. just wanta rest at home. theres just 1001 stuff to read and do.one moment i'm reading about ''the safe on electrical equipment in potentially hazardous environment'', the next i'm reading about diversity.. grr..i nedd retail therapy..

''i try to be strong. believe me. i'm trying to move on''
i am getting really confused and lost.. about what lies ahead.and what do i want..
relationship.are too complicated. in fact i dont even know. what i look for in a guy anymore..
well......................till then i walk alone -green day