Tuesday, January 30, 2007

work now involves mugging notes and manuals, watching video on gas chromatography and sampling system. as if there isnt enough to learn and remember, today, i was handed more manuals--that somehow reminds me of what an electrical engineer should be reading. it is not helping that i have no idea what the diagram is about..all those little boxes and pipelines. and of course it isnt helping that i spent my time in a reverie most of the time, my mind wandering off to some other land and most of time, i fall asleep at my desk.hahaha

i really hope my supervisor dont test me on those stuff..else i will be dead meat. But it really isnt fun reading hundreds of pages of stuff everyday.. and i dont really know if i really need to know all those stuff or is he just finding some stuff to occupy my time.

well at least tomorrow he is bringing me along to some meeting and plant visit. lets just hope i have time to mugg those stuff he asked me to read lest i seem like a bimbo.

that aside
i had a ghastly phone bill of 234 dollars last month
no. not to call my friend in US
some monster wrecked havoc.
haha
ok not funny

now after coming home from work. i must read up of HR 2002..must do project.
such is life.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

this is what i miss the most!  Posted by Picasa
sushi in US.. sigh. i miss. i still cant find really nice and not that expensive..sushi here.
i miss kitty sis roosa n mummy cherry! Posted by Picasa
and so today we visited the alcohol plant. i don my uniform n helmet.ear muff. simply awesome.=/

of fumes and gases. haha ok. engineering's not fun

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

haha i got into deans list at ISU. really sweet way to end my semester there. i study half as hard.play so much. had a great life. sigh..those were the days

anyhow..been really long since i blogged.kinda lazy....kinda busy..
for those who dont already know.
i am now currently on intern at exxon mobil.working at e faraway land of jurong island.i wake up at 6am, reach home at 6pm. my friends are the uncles and old engineer and techinician.

anyway support esso guys. haha pump ur petrol there.
my job title sounds cool--an analytic. i analyse products and stuff at the singapore alcohol and aromatic plant. for the past few days i had to mugg 4 analyser manuals, and how the plant work. today. i tagged along with my supervisor for a meeting with the engineers. today.they gave me my enginneer attire. which includes a fire retardant suit. a helmet. safety google. soon. i will be going to the plant site. i met alot of youngfemale engineers who are quite pretty. haha
anyhow my outift looks like this.see the 2nd pic. hahahah i think i will look like a hot babe in it.




i used to think engineering wouldnt suit me. come to think. today at the meeting, i actually felt quite interested in the stuff they were discussing. i could kinda understand some stuff. in a way. maybe its good thing i am working at jurong island instead of harbor front. i feel that maybe i can learn alot more stuff here. and apply what i learn in chem eng for the past 2 yrs or so. in a way.it may sound crazy. i actually want to do more stuff and be busy at work rather than sit and do nothing and waste my life and time away. n i feel working at the plant site allow me to really see in real life the stuff i have learnt. heat exchanger, valve, pumps etc. i m glad i took design last semester. so that PID diagrams dont seem to strange to me.

maybe an engineer's job suit me also. since as u all probably know i m quite tom-boyish. n office job probably wont work for me as i will probably fall asleep. plus i dont like to dress up.so a mixture of office work n site work may be a good thing.
i saw my job scoop. its abt. well. using analyser, working with maintenence grp, talking to vendor, doing some cost estimation and abt 4-5 projects. sweet.
that plus HR 2002. my life.is pretty packed. no time for other stuff. monday =sch from 6-9pm. and now,must go to sch to do project on weekends. well...in a way.its good. keeps me thinking abt stuff. haha. and i realise i m going to turn 22. pretty old.cannot afford to waste time. must learn and experience more stuff in life.

my mum is now worried. the other day when i was in the car with her i was lamenting abt how life has been monotonous for me ever since i cam back from states. nothing exciting to look forward to.to which she told me its time to get a guy. to which i said. monogamy and relationship is kinda boring. i want to have more lovers at a go.
truth is. i m not in the mood for love.my heart is still in ames. haha lets see how long i can last.
singapore's really getting crowded. nus is getting horribly packed. jams. human jams. hordes of student rushing to get up 96.i swear i was going to explode as the bus meander along and stop at every single stop waiting for the millions of students.argh. and there seems to be 1001 traffic lights.
i honestly miss the peace n flat land of iowa. the ISU campus. never so chaotic. cyride's never so packed. my Hr tutor was talking abt relaxing whenever one has the time to do so. i think i must really try to do that n not get frustrated when i see the hordes of nus students trying to squeeze up the bus. that aside. HR's pretty interesting. talking abt changes and how we must constantly adapt to our environment and change accordingly in order to survive. did i change a lot after i came back? i dont know. mayb more talkative. liking freedom more.. in US, i also learned abt being more polite. singaporeans guy. are really. ugh. ungentlemanly. and of cos. thanks to the american girls, my friend cherry and roosa. i learnt abt putting makeup. not that i did put on much there or back here. but i remember on grad night i was reading abt ''make-up for dummies'' and that was the day i realise theres something called foundation and loose powder. note. i learnt abt makeup.doesnt mean i m gonna don them. like i say. i still cant be bothered to dress up.fer what?

i miss travelling. i honestly want to look for a job that allow me to travel or to be stationed somewhere. exxon's not bad. haha .
ok this is a freaking long and draggy post. time to sleep.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

the way things are
i feel like disintegrating

solitude and peace. is what i love.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

tap must lose weigh
its been more than a week since i came back
yet i still feel hungry every hour or so

company's dinner with some boss n uncles. scratch that. make them all uncles. first time eating indonesian food. one uncle says i look fit. the other says i look like i m good at long distance running. the other says i look like i can do high jump.????
i think i m the best at putting on more fats and ? sigh
working
horrible
i want to go back to school. not nus though.
i miss America n u. sigh.

Monday, January 15, 2007

the days passed by in a whirl
all i remember is. eating. movie.spirit of the victim. poei banging the car to a road divider. sushi. crystal jade. acksx.bamboo sis. and talking to dadee.

Sunday, January 14, 2007



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love all my bitches
unglam photos. haha
lazy day of shopping. cooking.and gossiping n sharing stories.
speaking of cooking. i realise how lucky n pampered i was in iowa. my 'dadee' dear n 'mumee' always cook for me. and i nvr had to do the dishes. dadee's the best. he never allow me to do dishes. haha crys u shd learn from him!


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Friday, January 12, 2007

a fresh new start away from the barnacles of the past is what i need now.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

one of the last show i watched in ames was pursuit of happyness.
not sure if it is out yet here

anyway
how true. that happiness is something we have to constantly pursue.
as thomas jefferson put it. happiness is unattainable
it is something we can only chase after
is ice cream the only thing i miss?
no. i miss my carefree life back in ames. i miss the freedom.
i miss . that familiar voice

''Honestly what will become of me
I don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
We missed everything daydreaming

Why do all good things come to an end
Travelling I always stop at exits Wondering if I'll stay
Living this way I stress less I want to pull away when the dream dies

And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away ''

its amazing how sometimes some songs just describe ur feelings

on a lighter note
these days. i have been doing lotsa catching up
met a pri sch friend today for sushi. yummy. the 1st time we actually talked in real life for 10 years. life's pretty amazing isnt it.all the best in cardiff dude!

off to meet my ah soh
till next time

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

the way things haven been recently
just serve to amplify the dread of having to return home and back to reality.

Monday, January 08, 2007

i miss! Posted by Picasa
life got cold n serious all of a sudden
the changes feel like a tsunami effect to me

do i look happy
i m still trying to forget and move on
dont push me to the edge

Saturday, January 06, 2007

i think i m very into sushi these days. but the nice sushi in singapore are expensive.
what have i been doing these days?
catching up with friends. stoning around. reading mails. wasting time. relaxing. or trying to.
this is like a huge transition. from playing.eating.travelling. to going to school and work.
i have a class at nus next semester and it starts tomorrow.
damn. i cant remember the last time i was studying seriously.
moving on isnt easy. when life has been good for the past few months. too good to be true sometimes. really miss those times and days.

and i apologise for missing phone calls n not replying sms
u see
i was never really a sms and handphone person. 5 mths in iowa.without a handphone was great. (well i had a phone in the room and its free. and msn was great since i lived on campus)
and i still dont have the habit of checking handphone. and basically. these days. i m still very in my own world.

and i have been waking up at wee hours. hahaha. and i still need to be fed every hour or so.
why do all good things come to an end

Friday, January 05, 2007

last day in ames. snow covered fredrikson. tshirt in snow. hahaha Posted by Picasa
everythings getting familiar
nothing has changed much really
i was unpacking stuff yesterday. actually i didnt really buy that much stuff. haha
1st day in singapore after 5 months was boring.
of medical checkups. of packed trains and buses.
must start reading straits time and watching tv. i have no idea whats going on.
my handphone is kinda down. there is still no reception. i think the phone itself hasnt gotten past the US's reception. haha and my contract has expired. has it been so long since i changed phone? my braces and teeth is also kinda screwed up. but i dont really care. my mind is occupied with too many things
2006 marks the yr of wonderful memories. xmas.21st birthday.new yr.all spent in the states. too bad no vday yet. haha

today i realised. stuff in singapore are not cheap.
i miss walmart. i miss lucky charms. i miss oat meal. i miss u
cosmetics and hair care product is so much cheaper in iowa. clothes are nice and cheaper.well at factory outlet. i'll miss outlets shopping. !
junk food are so much delicious there.
lucky charm- my daily breakfast is not sold here
it's really warm here. i hate.

haven really been sleeping well these days
i dont know if its the jet lag and the time difference thing
or maybe
truth is
i haven been sleeping well since i left u and ames.
ur words n mails still so deeply etched in my mind.
u wanted me to call u but i didnt because i dont want to say goodbye all over again. but i know i will call u just to hear ur voice again
grrr
i think alot of u are surprised by my sudden burst of emotions. maybe this is because i am pretty sure no one knows who i meant. haha so i can safely type all these stuff here.
maybe thats me. when i really like someone. i really do. how long it last. i dont know. but once the feeling fades away. i will never find it back. and knowing me. i dont really take very long to get over someone. haha. but to me. i can like someone for no obvious reasons. my idea of love is rather weird. and i can get a little impratical sometimes. like knowing that there are so many incompaitibilities yet still liking someone. but then again. why fall in love only considering all the practical factors. that wont be real to me anymore.


''even if u cannot hear my voice, i'll be right beside u''

anyway
there are things about singapore i miss
acksx. family. taptap.lala.friends. some food.
this is after all. my life. my reality.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

home
but doesnt feel right
like everything feels distant and strange
and i really miss my life back in US and someone
in the few hours of sleep. thanks to jet lag. 48hrs without sleep plus whiskey for the past 2 days. i dreamt about u
in that horrible 24 hrs plane ride. i thought abt u

this is harder than i imagined
but
well
not to worry
i m pretty sure i will leave everything behind soon. some time. somehow

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

after today
nothing will matter anymore

Monday, January 01, 2007

and with this i conclude my dream of touring,living n studying in the US.. the place.the people.the life.the food. all the memories are mine and safe within myself.
bye. Posted by Picasa
delicious food Posted by Picasa
at lancaster city

roaming the streets of philadelphia
us at amish county in lancaster
watching broadway phantom of the opera Posted by Picasa
niagara fall

the white house at washington DC
ground zero.where the world trade centre once stood
pretty NYC again Posted by Picasa
statue of liberty
bustling city of new york

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