Monday, April 30, 2007

''Everything you believe you have imagined is real. You have only to outlive it''

such is the harsh reality of life
was looking at movie guide of the year
ok..for all u saw fans..apparently, theres going to be SAW 4. haha i shd bring cherry to watch it. i think watching saw 3 was like watching Disney cartoons for her. as for me, i couldnt remember much of the show. because i spent my time behind my hands

that aside

my scandal with RC is getting ore and more horrible!XXX is like having alot of fun.

so apparently, RC always lunch with this fellow female intern.
and XXX( the same evil uncle) told RC to chase after me instead for reasons i wldnt say because i almost choked when my friend told me abt it...
grrr...... ok i mean RC is quite ok looking ..and he's actually pretty nice la.. there was once i borrowed his office's phone cause mine wasnt working...so later he had to go down to lab..he actually came to tell me to just go ahead to use his phone if i need it as he's not going to be around...
and now things have became rather awkward(must pretend to be looking at the floor for gold whenever i walk past his desk)...and if the girl hears of what XX says to RC, i'm pretty sure i am gonna be hated.

sometimes people are so judgmental abt looks.. the other day i was out with a friend.. and we caught a friend of hers with her bf..and my friend commented that their bf isn't very compaitable with her friend in terms of looks.

my point is..we are under constant scrutiny always and at the end of the day..do you want to live up to your own expectations or other's expectation of you.

that said..how would u feel or think or react if someone tell u ur bf/gf isnt that compaitable with u? in terms of looks or just in general?




TOMORROW is a holiday!
Sigh..


tired of the facade
tired of telling myself everything's gonna turn out fine
there's only so much one can do


Sunday, April 29, 2007

my turn to look spaced out
well..guess where this place is....
was out with a friend..and well...we kinda end up being tourist...
i must say the national library looks pretty decent..

underneath that veil..
all that remains is nothingness and hollowness
do you really know me
negativity gets the better out of me
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Saturday, April 28, 2007

'' i'll take your hand
and bring u under the velvet skies,
and lie beside u beneath the stars
only to wake up to find that
it was all dreams and marred illusions''
if we could all learn to let go
life would be easier
we will all be happier
it is something i am trying to learn


did you seriously think i was going to look back


Friday, April 27, 2007

guess who i met today?
SHARON TEO SHIOK HUI.

haha what a coincidence!
was out in town with elysia. finally had jap food..wee..caught 200 pounds beauty, this korean comedy. had a great time laughing myself silly. and there's a hot babe in the show.. reminds me a little of dawn yeo.
and elysia is a bad influence. she brought me to look at guys. we were like walking up n down from orchard to somerset. seriously, this is the first time i have done such things. and apparently i am so bad at it that when she asked me look at some guy, i can stand fixated in one spot and do a 360 degree turn and not knowing who she is referring to. and that i am so obvious when looking at guys that they always know i am looking at them. because they stare back. bleah. count me out next time. i'd rather look at girls. plus there's only one guy running through my mind everyday now. i aint frivolous ok. one guy at one time.

we came to the conclusion we are not that young anymore. must start paying more attention to looks and dressing while we are still not that old.. i guess.maybe i will try to increase the 5min i take to dress up to go out to 10 min. haha.oh and horror of horror, elysia knows my brother's gf.. i guess the world's really small..


and more abt me and RC. it happened that today, i was going down the stairs and talking on the phone and he, with the whole bunch of lab people came up the stairs. and they all started grinning and smiling. RAWR. i should have just told the one on the phone ''I LOVE U''..only i think he will faint and maybe they will think i am saying it to RC.

i guess.. i should start hiding under my desk. only thing is. we sit next ti each other. sweet. just sweet. thats it. i am printing a life size poster of alex tmr. haha that will scare him off totally.

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Thursday, April 26, 2007

was watching mtv TRL live on tv..
Dam i miss NYC.. hard to believe that a few months back, i was right there, at times sqaure.it still feels very familiar. walking up and down 5th ave, times square, madison ave, wall street, eating dunkin donuts and cold stone ice cream..standing alone at chinatown in NYC for 30 min. i was alone, in new york, at chinatown subway station, waiting for daryl n nick tan. probably the longest 30 min i spent. i didnt feel very afraid despite the fact i was in a place not knowing how to go back, now knowing anyone. just a little surreal and maybe yes,a slight tinge of fear

i'll go back to visit the states someday. to VEGAS(haven been there). NYC, chicago, SF and Florida. Phildaephia.ok iowa. some of my favorite cities.
add that to finland. mexico. europe. brazil.. i'll visit all my SIE friends. ok there's 101 more places actually.
miss those days.
everything's average and predictable these days.

maybe i like changes. i don't like commitment. i adore freedom. roaming the world. there's so much more out there. there's so much more to life. gotta start doing more planning what i want to..else dreams will remain frozen in the mind.

fear is only in our minds ,
taking over all the time

not exactly in the best of moods these days
whenever i ponder about the future and other stuff in life. i am lapsing into the comfort of monotony and feeling adrift with a senseless ennui sometimes. someday nothing appeals to me.
on a brighter note, tomorrow is friday!! movie time + some stoning and chilling.
recently, , i am rumored to be interested in the pink shirt guy-RC i will call, who sits next to me in the office.
how the rumors started, i must thank XXX who told RC i asked if he was attached. which obviously i didnt. so since XXX and RC are from the lab, all the people in the lab think i am interested in him. one of them even asked my friend today '' so kl interested in RC ah?!''
no wonder RC has been giving me weird stares whenever he walks past my cubicle.

*faint*
to this, i came up with several solutions :
1) print a life size poster of the guy i like and plaster it on the wall of my cubicle. but wait the girls see the poster, then they also like him how?

2) well since RC sits next to me, the next time, i will call someone on the phone and say'' DEAR HONEY SWEETIE PIE DARLING CUPPYCUP CAKE I LOVE U''.(<-- by the way, never in my sane mind will i say this to anyone. for those who are attached, try it out. see if he/she faints) but wait, maybe RC will think i am calling him that.

3) start wearing more rings.

alternatively, might as well freak him out :
4) ''confess'' i am truly in love with him, buy a bouquet of blue roses and chocolates and give him a love letter. stalk him, freak him out. *evil laugh*

5) show him the photo of alex, the 20th guy on my top 20 list of guy, tell him i tink he is as 'suave' as alex. (*FAINT)and then ask RC if he mind giving me his phone number. for those who don know allex, i'll show u the photo another time.

6)give xxx a thrashing. RAWR

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

for those who dont know knut, he's real
he resides in berlin zoo because of a whole long story behind it. u can google to know more
knut=my greatest love!
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ok sharon revenge is urs. u can laugh at me too. i know i look bad, like horriblytired,old ghost like and skinny(US fatten me up.damn).. don't say i am evil ok. i post my unglam photo also. lala dont scold me ok. u see, actually the fact i look horrible will make u appear cuter. *cough
i found this phto. CRYS, UR BOYFRIEND IS weird. haha ok i hope jon dont read this.but it was a pretty cool shot. we were all using our phone!
anyway. sharon. hahahahhahahaha nice pose.
i am so gonna get killed. dear all, pls dont make your blogs public. i'll die a horrible death.pretty please?i promise i wont post all the other lovely photos. haha
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

there are many memories i dont want to lose
there are many things i wish i have said but didnt....
there are many things i want to do all over again

i wish i have all the perseverance in the world

Monday, April 23, 2007

look for lala in this ancient photo i found( the weirdest looking one)
i still haven found 'lovely' pics of him. i lost all those ancient photos we took with poei and in NUS(once if u can remember). u are lucky lala, my desktop died. now i
must dig under the mess in my room for that neoprint.*evil laugh* no one is spared!
now... must hide somewhere. a cannibal woman, a Spaced out woman and a crazy bear is after my life.
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dont say i am mean to you crys
this is the nicest photo of u so far
and just look at aloysius
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u know u are suffering from monday blues and severe depression and not thinking when

1) u tell your boss your brain isnt working and you really want to bang against the wall. but all he did was laughed loudly at you

2) u asked ur boss '' don't u find interns very irritating?'', and when he said..it depends on if he gets the good or bad ones.. u asked again ''so am i the good or the bad ones?''

3) when 12000+ 2000+1000=13200

4) when u talked to someone for 15 mins but u dont really remember what u just said

5) when u realised at 3pm that u ate mince meat noodle for lunch at 12pm and u didnt think about the one whom u miss alot and who miss mince meat noodles alot



by the way
i still think Chester Bennington is cute..i forgot who laughed at me when i said so the other time.
and i cant wait for the new album to be out.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

random thoughts:

u know your job probably requires u to buy many many insurance swhen...
1) u climb 12 stories up a tower in open air and when u reach the ground, your feet is trembling slightly.
2) the worst thing about climbing is that you see signs that says "radioactive at *** level''
3) your supervisor carries a gas monitor with him. and you see a sign that says ''High level of Carbon Monoxide. Please bring gas monitors along''

You know you are gonna be late
when you are still at home blogging at 7pm when you have to meet your friends at 7pm. It is a great blessing that i don't put makeup to go out. if not, i guess i'll reach at 9pm. or wait. 10pm.
to sum it up. if we meet in the east side, i'll be half an hour late. if we meet in town(orchard, city hall), i'll be an hour late, if we meet at someplace i have never drove to before, i'll be 2 hrs late.

U know you are very free when u spend time uploading pictures onto facebook and friendster..
and you blogged a whole piece of crap. if u have been reading everything i blogged in great details. i guess...either u really like me..or u are really bored.


u know u are weird when u burst out laughing at things people say(crys knows this the best)
and some say it resembles that of a deranged auntie's laughter

Saturday, April 21, 2007


i am perfectly aware of the ramifications and repercussions of posting this lovely picture of Crystal Goh looking,well, spaced out . But since, she's having exams, i assumed i'll be safe for a week or so.
Aloysius on the other hand, seems harmless enough
and on the group photo, i am also very certain that out of all of you, Xiu hUi bitch dislikes me the most. Look at the sheer happiness and euphoria she is int as she covered my face.
Sharon dear, i have spared you from unglam photos. Well, for now.
Dear all, there's more to come. But i must EMPHASIZE. I did not take the lovely pictures. JON DID IT.
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Friday, April 20, 2007


alot of photos..still got 10001 more..for those who want their individual unglam shot, i'll post them up nex time.. haha my C drive gonna explode soon
i love friday night..i love everyone ;)
p.s thanks sharon! for all the lovely handphone themes!
was up till 3am yesterday
time to go back to bed...
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the bitches DEMANDED nice photos on my blog..


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for u sharon, i post all ur glam photos.
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aloy==my new bf.(*faint) so all the mei mei get away from him!
haha joking joking!


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Bitches unite
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crys' house
she(*choke*) cooked an eight course dinner for us.
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Thursday, April 19, 2007

someone. i remembered. i think it was yip kai.at one swimming training.eons ago.we were gossiping about a couple who kept breaking n patching back
''wa like sewing machine ? can sew and patch back ah''
the days where there were crushes here and there and never-ending gossiping and chit-chatting. that ricky always scold us that since we have the energy to talk, we were not training hard enough. i haven swam for god-knows-how-long. that i suddenly have the implulse to jump into the pool right now. because i wonder, if i can stilll swim, if i can still remember something i spent half of my life doing.

but my point is, i don't believe in a sewing machine. meaning. i think i have said this right from the start. that to me, when a relationship ends, it's the end. period. i won't look back. especially not to someone whom i have no nice memories or whatsoever, who gave me nothing but misery.& refuse to give me peace even when we have broken up. it seems like i am the villain here. so be it..
i believe there's no right or wrong in a relationship.. because feelings are hard to comprehend. therefore i can also perfectly accept that one day my bf or husband cheats on me or tell me we are over.
there are many things in life where there is just no turning back

and that’s why your world
I’m over it
So sure
I’m over it
I’m not your girl
I’m over it
-katherine mcphee--so over it--

I love you( i am not saying who=P).

i miss US
I miss ISU
i miss u
i miss everyone else i met there



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finally
the dam paper is over
i'll have time to do other stuff
like meeting up with everybody
starting to do my travel blog. for myself to read.i've got like 1000 photos.10 states. must store somewhere.i like to pen down stuff so i can remember them..today
i was searching for a bag to bring to school today and i found my stinky backpack i used in states. and with it came a whole stack of receipts of the rampage i did at Florida.
ahh i really miss my kitty sis roosa and mummy cherry! out of the 5 days in florida, 3 were on shopping, one for disney and one for universal. thats it. that was florida. haha ok. i miss the endless rounds of shopping, trying on clothes, shoes, and crane folding session at 3am, and bitching abt someone and calling our friends to bitch some more. haha

not forgetting we spent one day shopping at jordan creek and we rummaged through the mall of america. roosa, vodka and making funny animal sound whenever we are in the car is a shopping freak. but we can never beat cherry mummy.
thats it. i am going to finland some day too. and i will bring cherry along. haha


guys dont understand why girls like shopping. i think the fun lies in we get to talk(girls bonding ok), we look at each other try on clothes and comment on them. sometimes, we just need the extra urge from a friend to buy something..
and it isnt to find shopping kakis ok.

rather pointless post. haha well.. i mean i am gg shopping now. i need to justify my actions.

Monday, April 16, 2007


ok sharon, i am using 3 mins of my time for u
this is how she usually look like la..
i am so gonna get killed.haha

Saturday, April 14, 2007






this one's for sharon
there's 101 more but enuf of us. haha
till next time. back to my hiatus...........sigh.
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Friday, April 13, 2007


friday at work.presentation to boss n engineers on a proposal. friday night.Girls night out.exam- next thurs.such is life

missing...beckham.


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