Friday, September 30, 2005

oh great
spend cow years on a crap biochem assginement. dumb veri dumb

yea
fri is cute guy day
we had same open lab together looking at mutant flies
then we took the same lift
and then i found another cute guy in lecture

today;s lecture is more interesting
there was a girl.in white dress knee length.white shoes.drapped with a long white shawl.long hair. u can imagine, she looks like she juz came from fright night.
n then meaty gal if u all still remember exposed her meat again. but i realli shdnt be laughing cos i haf alot of meat too.haha
n den the lecturer is dam crappy. he said u shdnt let a horse point its foot at u.
the reason is lame. cos evolution has it that the foot evolved from its middle toe. so if a horse point its toe at u.its akin to poiinting the middle finger at u.. dumb hur.
but i remember when i was young. i used to like reading abt animals. u know.animal Encyclopedia.. ya. i was weird since young.

slacking time is over
slacked yesterday. tok to all my long lost buddies. i hope my phone bill these days dun die. been making like hr long phone calls.
but i missed everyone. the other day found yip kai's paddle.ok sorry yipkai. i will return the paddle to u. on ur wedding day.
today went shopping..... but i love the stuff i bought. zara has nice t-shirts
n i like faded denim! but i prob wun wear them.to sch. who cares abt sch. i hate sch. i will dress my worse. my auntie wear. my flooding pants to sch. i dun care.
n somehow... i still find this lingering sinking feeling...each time i think abt...sch.sigh

Thursday, September 29, 2005

its been one hell of a week
here i m sitting in front of my com
looking at the answer sheet of the test i have just taken.....
as usual. i know. i screwed up. not surprising.
as usual. i m gonna tell myself not to look back n focus on the final exam. n i have tried my best.
but i jus couldnt help but feel extremely demoralised..................and somewhat dumb. no not somewhat. extremely dumb.
and den the tests are over.no big deal
bcos i am behind time for so many lectures.tons of stuff waiting to b done
i need a break...... i feel somewhat zombie-like. disorientated. brain not functioning well.maybe dats y i always clay my tests. not enuf slp. brain not working. but there is no time for rest.
feeling extremly down today. n then i thot of crystal.......... crys u happy not. i think of u when i m sad. u can b my lover alr.
haiz
n den after that i started walking ard nus alone.

haiz
is there anything that can cheer mi up now??
=(

Saturday, September 24, 2005

ok sorry aloy.
i cant join u guys tmr. haiz. i m beginning to wonder if my time management skills is realli bad..haiz..niway..loy loy,BOTAK head, take care n hope to see yer soon.
haiz. nxt week is a veri interesting week fer me. with 3 tests. 2 labs. 1 undone assignment due.

will b gone fer a week or so........... to the land of books. after which next fri. i will declare fer myself. mid-sem-fri break. if i can survive mon-thur. n finsh my assignement.
take care all!

Friday, September 23, 2005

so to de-stress
today in school. i looked at cute guys. ya. today no more looking at meaty girls.before u all think i look at girls n wonder if i m straight or not.
today i look at guys. i finally found one very cute guy. who came to sit at the same row as me but at e aisle. n.cos my friend was late .so for some time. he was 'next' to me. 'next' bcos there were a few empty seats btw us. HAA duh.
cute guy dun listen to lecture. he just keeping using his laptop n flexing his arms around.maybe he likes his muscular arms. must show off.
cute guy also have nicely styled hair with some ah beng colour
and cute guy also got pierced ear. but i have more piercings.so i win. 6-1. i win.
cute guy drives cute car to school. i noted down e plate number.lol
ok. instead of helping pple to look out for hot babes nxt time, i will instead look out for guys myself. since its only normal and ok to do so as u all claim. hehe


yesterday before i slpt. i thought abt this funny incident. when i was in j1. when i was e ct rep. there was once. when there was some inter fac sports meet in which attendance was compulsory. n which kl as usual decide not to go. and on that fateful day itself, i was happily in my room thinking how smart i was to pon when e civics tutor, our dear miss koh called me. so she goes " kailing, can u help me take attendance of those who are here." ya here as in in school. haha. so poor kailing has to take a dumb class list to school(bedok to buona vista) to give it to her. n OBvioUSLY onli 1/3 of e class was there.n i also i dreamt abt how one of my 6B classmate.ok shall not mention name. came to be attached to one of my uni friends. hahaha signs of gg bonkus.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

there are just days. i get so out of control of myself

read a ex DHS classmate blog.
ok. i m really somewhat DETached from the world since this mid term break.

apparently. there was MID AUTUMN festival celebration fer ex-dumanians at DHS. free buffet.mayb free mooncake.and hoho out of my class of 36 pple, only 4 din turn up. no prize if u manage to guess who was one of the 4..

DETACHED is the word. because. i just casually ignore email.sms. even msn. no. not chao mugging. i just feel.............. i dunno how to say............insignificant to others .as they are to me.

crap aside. mayb i shd tok abt my dunman days since it seems i onli reminisce about my rj n swimming days
DHS has e unique feature of celebrating MOONCAKE FESTIVAL. so i remember gg to school at NIGHT to celebrate mooncake festival. i think. they played some riddle crap n treasure hunt. honestly i cant really remember what we did. mayb eat mooncake n talk n admire the moon. ok. and we celebreate national day by having cross country.so every year the not so little kailing contend herself by running her heart out to get into the top 20 just so she can bring a lousy trophy home to celebrate national day with it.dumb hur? ask me to cross-country now i rather jump into e river. dun realli hold much memories abt my dunman days. y oh y? except mayb pretending to sing the national anthem every morning lest i get called n humiliate by the discipline master.

now. back to the whole load of stuffs i have CREATED fer myself to do
nitez world
i hope. i dun slp at 5am today

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

oh yea
so yesterday night was disaster again
mayb somethings's wrong with me.
r maybe its the mircosoft excel that perks me up too much
thou rather not dwell on it too much

aint there times i wish there is someone i can turn to

family-who are there but dun know what kind of life i m realli gg thru
relationship-probably 2 separate entities living in our own world
friends- who seem so far away sometimes

yea
a gloomy post
all i see is the silhouette of gloom with some textbooks


midterm. is it over alr. are we back to school.a folllow-the leader world. around pple.who seem so different.whose life i will nvr fit into n wld never want to.
follow the leader. so fun wasnt it. during swimming trg. when e leader turn. u turn. how it applies in uni. shall not elaborate

Friday, September 16, 2005

so feeling bored today i logged on to friendster. after a few month hiatus.
friendster nvr fail to make mi laugh out loud
there was this guy.a 3rd yr student frm NUS MEDICINE. who sent me a msg.
haha. makes mi wonder. wat kind of doctor he will b nxt time.
i guess. he will enjoy making friends with his female patients
ok. cannot b mean
shd b happy. gooD catch right. i think i shd recommand zihua to him. haha

i m becuming so critical these days hur.
i derive entertainment looking at pple during lecture n criticsiing them
like. today when mi n one of my guy friend almost puked at this girl.sitting in front of us. she keeps bending down to get her stuff n in the process, expose her veri meaty body n waist. n as i was bending down to get my bag(gasp! i hope i din expose any unsightly parts). i saw th ebutt crack(unintentionally) of her friend. EWW! low waist hipster.a big nono unless u wear them right
n since as karma would have it. one day. pple will laugh n puke at me too
my dress sense is getting realli awful.mayb i shd start paying more attention to the way i dress n not be so sloppy. i mean. gals my age. all seems so well groomed.they all dress up well n put make up. or haf nice accessories. so who m i to laugh at pple.
anywway during lecture. the lecturer was toking abt how mutations causes cancer
its like. being exposed to sun too often
uv light can cause mutation in ur cell's chromosome n DNA n cause the cell to kinda go haywire n rapidly multiply
so butt crackgal goes like"aiyo.how"
to which meaty waist gal said "thats y nxt time i think we must put more sunblock"
haha

crap aside
mid term 'break'
it doesnt feel like a hols
i haf 3 test awaiting after that
n i feel like i haf so much stuff to do
or mayb i m mentally stressing myself out
so many stuffs..gg thru my mind these days
i just feel..like screaming out loud

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

didnt realli sleep a wink yesterday. somehow it seems my mind was filled with schoolwork n my brain refuse to rest n so i onli slept at 7am. n woke up at 10am. n here i m. typing my essay.it will be nice...to see wat time of the day..i'll KO.. sleepless night are frustrating.

n i m still awake to crap.
the other day. i read an article about how guys look at other girls even when their gf is around. how it irritaes their gf. n the writer gave some interesting ways of how to avoid being caught. haha.ironically. if i know my bf looks at babes. i wun stop him. i will let him look. i will even matchmake him with them. see. how nice i m. why bother stopping them. nothing's really wrong abt it right. we all love looking at pretty objects .but to some extent,it goes to show how much they really admire respect or cherish u. and the point about avoid getting caught. haha.forget it la. girls know it. they just PREtend not to know sometimes. of cos. i m being.somewhat. one sided here. but this logic applies to girsl drooling at hunks too. and this falls under one of those weird n morbid kailing theory.

N. abt public display of attention. .we have all read or heard abt complaints abt couple. doing unsightly stuff on trains. etc. i agree. its disgusting. but. if one day. u r in a relationship. n u find urself not showing ANY signs of affection towards ur other half. or u dun feel like a couple anymore and others dun see it that way also.or chances are. maybe like wat poei will say. u shd make plans fer a breakup.or prolly ur relationship is more platonic. n obviously. u dun realli feel special to him n vice versa. beacuse.such stuff. are instinctive action. if instinctively. u dun care. chances are. u realli dun.

OBVIOUSLY. dun get me wrong. i m not referring to anyone. its just based on my veri bored-observations abt couple ard me. n since. i shdnt be typing abt depressing stuff abt sch. i thot it will be kinda REFRESHING. RIGHT.
theoretically.i consider today the start of HOLIDAY. but in reality its not realli a holiday but a "catching up" session. in term of school work. so i herby resolve to mugg fer this whole holiday n try not to step out of the house. yup mugger me. ALTHOUGH. today. i took a little walk ard a SHOPPING mall.. juz 1hr..was enuf. to make mi feel better.now. e onli thing is. i dun shop. i dun walk into shops.i jus walk.add that to weird things kailing do. WALK on her own.

n den. here i m. 12.19am.watching webcast? y oh y? bcos i always skip lectures. no dun get mi wrong. i dun pon lecture. i choose not to go to save time. but guess wat. watching webcast takes me twice as long. n its half as effective cos. i get distracted so esily. N if i dun reply u or take dam long to reply on msn. pls dun hate me. although i will make it a point not to go on msn fer e nxt week or so.or tryto minimise it. n surprisingly.poei seems to b the one person who knows all abt me..in term of....guys??haha. surprise surprise. cos he's e lAST person i wld tok to about these stuffs. Or at least. i used to think so

n den. today i saw a rather plump gal.dressed like she is gg clubbing. in a chem engine lecture. why oh why do u dress so skimpily. wat oh wat are u showing off?
haha. mayb i m juz jealous u get to flaunt ur body wheares i dun get to cos i haf nothing to flaunt.haha.
but the things abt clothes is that u choose them to portray or accentuate certain parts of ur body u find attractive..or say cover up some parts u dun like. SOME pple haf commented that i wear the same stuff n carries the same image. WELL. i do agree. while most ple think that kailing has a lot of clothes,which i dun deny. u need to undersatnd. kailing BUY clothes. BUT she KEEPS them. n Not WEaR them. now. add that to how weird i m again. n no wonder her mum always ask her to wear new stuff. haha n i believe in karma. since i keep critising pple n how they dress... if i start dressing differently i will confirm get criticised. haha

Monday, September 12, 2005

stupid.idiotic. reckless driver. i hate most. add thaat to the list i created previously of pple i abhor.
n a driver. in a police car somemore.
who lane change INTO me. well.almost.
dun endanger the lives of other please.
n if i cursed and swear at u. u so deserve it.

on a lighter note
two -3 more days till midterm break
finally. time to get away frm sch n everyone else.
i m sick of pple asking around. "how to do this n this".
i m sick of myself asking pple "how to get this answer n this"
everyday. i hear e same things. hear e same complaints.

n midterm break.

its from sunday to thursday. how. ridiculous nus can get. they count sun too. n bingo. its a 5 day break. n to add on. after every midterm. e week starts on friday. friday what?
who cares aniway.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

call me shallow
but
guys relying on gals just dun feel right to me.
n henceforth. i dun think i will want to marry someone less capable than me. or earn less than me.
so go ahead n laugh at me. if i ever get married. n to a useless bum.
and so much for being hating male chauvanisim hur.
but since true love do not exist. might as well set the standard higher.


Whatever.
i m in a dam irritated mood today bcos of freaking tutorials.
sitting front of the com fer 5hr doing essay.
n my mum who starved me till 8.30.
and so i compiled of list of pple i dislike.types of pple
1) e kind who tries too hard
2) pple who are so shallow.
3) pple with low integrity.
4)freeloader. pple who just want to take the shortcut everytime.
5) some pple. u just dun like them on e first look
6) pple who bitch too much. its funny. the exicited n rejuvenated face they wear when they r bitching.dun get me wrong. i bitch.we all bitch. but some pple jus go overboard sometimes
7) now thats basically the whole world isnt it.actualli the list goes on n on n on. suddenly i realise i dun like a lot of pple
and since i believe in karma. i believe a lot of pple dun like me too.


but whatever it is. this is juz a crap post.

Friday, September 09, 2005

weekends=)

can get some rest at least.

i dun like to go out. i rather stay at home these days.
i m so proud dat i haf steered clear of malls since sch starts.
sch's still e same. but i think these days i just take things as they come to me. why bother complaining? things dun change.
the other day. had bio lab. which was a reminiscent of secondary sch bio. it was funny in a way cos i think theres something wrong with my eye lashes n i ended up looking at my eye lashes when i looked thru the mircoscope.

i freaking hate trains.mrt trains. i dun understand y is it that at every single hour of the day. the trains are always full. n its not like the passengers dun pay alot for mrt fares. honestly. i think smrt are making quite a hefty sum of money.

n i finally truly understand what it means by" two's a company,three's a crowd." put me with two pple. i wun bother engaging into any conversation.

my dad told me i haf put on weight. n he's really happy about it
which is also ironic in e sense that if u want a person to put on weight. u dun realli want to tell him he has put on weight rite.
anyway. i dun realli care. i just eat.what i can. haha

Wednesday, September 07, 2005


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himbo loy, we'll miss u.



i feel so sad for ur..er hair..



quote of the himbo:" er..wait. its like the first day of army the relatives can go. den wait the other guys have little sisters who go den they see my botak head how? i better bring a cap."

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bimbo. admiring themselves...*shake head

Saturday, September 03, 2005


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aloy. we'll miss u when u go ns.



ACKSX.esp sharon.sorry.we couldnt stay longer.will miss u all too.



and to a very very old acquaintance..thank for sending that message.it meant alot to me.all the best! =)

Friday, September 02, 2005

situation at new orleans's getting bad.
bad things come in packages.

veri tiring day.8-6.
screw biochem prac. luckyily.partner.was not as blur as me
i feel. like crap.
spent 2hr looking at fluids mech. n nothing comes out of it. yup one word. DEAd.
walked the most agonizing path today. with a stranger offfering to share his umbrella to me. i said no thanks. he said i should share it with him. so i did. n den. it as the most painful walk i ever walk. because i felt to embarrassed n awkward. i din know if i should like talk to him. say thanks or wat. n i din dare to take e same bus as him. i mean. i get quite uncomfortable accepting favours frm pple. but i can say. he's a nice n decent guy. i doubt he had any ulterior motive. mayb i just looked a bit pathetic in e rain. but i was looking pathetic cos i had to walk frm one busstop to e nxt as the other bus stop was too crowded. n. it was only drizzling. i kinda enjoy walking in a drizzle sumtimes.

sigh. 2 tests. 3 labs. 4 tutorial.1 with presentation.1 undone essay.
how do i ever get thru this.


every time i talk abt my life. my future with others. i cldnt help feeling somewhat disillusioned.

ask urself.
is what that u are doing now. the kind of life u are leading now. wat u really want to.
sadly.
my answer to that above. is............. i doubt so.
maybe things happen for a reason.maybe someday. i will not regret the path i have chosen. maybe.someday.
maybe.

n those reading this.
haha i m fine la. its not like i dun ramble abt stuffs.
juz a way to get me going.

n ah soh. dun shoot me. i would have invaded ur room at ntu long ago if i have e time.count urself lucky. haha
n aloy. dun kill me. if i cant stay for long tmr. gal is burderned with so many sch work. sigh