Monday, June 05, 2006

i was wrong
i am not going to be a nun.or rather i do not wish to me one
i hate lonliness. this may sound so faggot-ish. but i realise. i hate night time. when i am alone lying in my bed.armed with only two teddies. i hate the silence.the darkness. or when i am walking at night. i hate it when its dark and quiet(not that i do walk like that. but i will just pass by some places like that)
n when i lie alone at night
i think n think about so many stuff. and it is so hard to fall asleep
and these days. it did not help i am going bonkus.seriously.
in the past. i do not ever confide in people. but these days, it seems i wish i had someone whom i can talk to, someone who will listen to my craps and someone who gives me advices, encouragment
some days
i wonder if its better to be normal and go with the flow or be different n go out of the box.sometimes i am contented with my average looks. average brains. average's the word.sometimes average isnt a bad thing isnt it.
sometimes
i think. that the more we think abt wanting something, the more we will not get it.
i actually thought of alot of stuff yesterday night before i sleep but i can't remember them.
anyway
these days. please ask me out. if i stay at home n think abt stuff i will really need to go to the asylum soom.
ok.
u know. i really don't know what i am getting at. i'll try to sleep well tonight. m not think of rubbish
tata

~here comes the rain again falling from the stars~

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