leaving florida and going to phildalphia. new york city tmr.! broke. horribly.
am i getting a little too emotional recently.. maybe. it was hard prying myself away from ames and all the memories there. of the campus. of you. of the life.
''if i have my way,i'll never get over you''
but on retrospect. some things u have to let go. at least. when i think back at my days at ISU and ames. it will be happy and nice memories of the place and you.its how ironic. sometimes. when u know someone for so long. yet all i can think of are unhappy stuff. but for someone i only know for a few months. there were happier things.
haha. from today onwards
taptap will be the free girl she used to be. no one will be on my mind. no one.

watched broadway musical-phantom of the opera today.. awesome!

after talking to a friend online
i suddenly feel so terribly sad. in a tragic sense. he made me come clear of my feelings. that i have been supressing all along. and all i can say. is goodbye.and shine on. i know u will.

disney!!


 

''I'll dig a tunnel to the center of the universe and hide right now
horrible day.lost my favourite watch of 10 yrs. u know the esprit one i always wear. trhe one i had since i was pri 5. SIGH.
other than that,well did horribly well for my exams. who cares. haha. its S/U. but considerieng all the fun and playing and the late night out. the crazy fun. it sure was a fun n relaxing semester. i m so gonna miss ISU and the people. especially someone;(
well.... just feeling horrible.
anyhow
i m in philadelphia

''don't shut me out''

maybe to me, you are somewhere in between. in between history and being real.

kailing is the proud owner of a pair of birken stock! wee. so happy.
polo rauph.dkny. guess.ck.birkies today=broke+use papa's card. but happy.
ok disney tmr! weee

shopping.sightseeing.chillin in hotel.like now. sunny florida.ah. holiday.
i am broke. 8hrs of shoppin.one coach clutch. one levis jeans.one guess watch.gucci perfume. banana republic. and more tmr. i m so so broke. but i love shopping, i m sorry. i cant buy stuff for everyone. no $. no space. no time.

''Time always reveals The lonely light of morning .
But it's one missed step You'll slip before you know it ''

universal studios! wee to be continued when i m back. haha
 

21st bday cum farewell party @ chris's place. 

chilling in the florida hotel. haha
playing maple.chatting online.random surfing.

my mood really oscillates tremendously
just yesterday. i was feeling like the dawn of the new day couldnt feel more depressing as i was in the car to the des moines and watching the sun rise over the horizon. the transition from dark to light. felt so depressing. because for me. i felt that it was leaving a part of me behind and leading a new life all over again. i know i will pick myself up like always and not look back anymore. but still.i couldnt help feeling grey.
'' beauty is the sheer simplicity of magnificent human emotions''
indeed sometimes i wish i could be the emotionless person i try to potray myself to be. but i guess i am the exact opposite.
''that little star somewhere farway out there.reminds me of u. so far away from me.but i know u will shine on.''

but then again. there's still so much to look forward to in life.
alright. time to sleep. n tmr i will hit the mall n outlets once again. hahaha.

hola from sunny florida
visited universal studios today
in the hotel
wireless
i m so proud of xiaohei! wee
too lazy to blog..see yer all soon!

last night here in ISU...suddenly felt this deep sinking feeling. reality sinking in. that yes.all that few months. all the pple. will be the past.my memory. unreal. maybe i will correct myself in saying i was emotionless. iwas emotionally drained. sometimes i feel like i could relate to the movie before sunrise. ''and then when the morning comes.we all turn back into pumpkins right.''in a weird sense. this is how i am feeling right now. but i guess. sometimes.somethings are just not meant to be. but i'll remember u all the same.
so its my birthday today. and i am really touched that chris oliver ziting ivie emmy n charlotte came down. despite having a finals the next day. thanks oliver n ziting for the lasagne.chris for the peanut butter n cheesecake. athe VS bag frm chris was really nice. i am really touched. it wasnt a crazy party but enough for me. this 21st birthday will be really memorable. in a way. mixed emotions. i kinda find it hard to penn my feelings right now.
sigh. well.some stuff will be kept hidden forever.
till next time.

weather's amazingly nice these days. reaching abt 7 degree. warm n just nice for me. past few days was horribly cold going down to -17 degrees . heres a pic of the partially frozen n melted lake. n the lady in the photo is one of my SEP coordinator. very nice n sweet lady. funky n chew gums. so unlike the miss chia n ho back home.
anyhow. i will be off from next week till jan. will be bringing my laptop when i travel. but. not sure if i can get internet access.

this year will be also the 2nd time i'll be spending my birthday overseas. the 1st was when i was in Pri 5 and went on some swimming trip to perth. ha i m suppose to b a grown up in some 4 days time. but why do i still feel like a kid some times.

alright. take care all of u. dont miss me too much. see yer all in about a month or so. 

hah nope
i wasnt referring to any guy or girl in those previous post. i m still pretty much emotionless
but the sadness upon leaving is real. or wait. i m getting nonchalant actually.

anyhow. 5 days. till i set off for yet another exciting tour around US. florida. orlando.new york for xmas. pennslyvannia. boston. n then back to ames for new yr. and then back to sunny singapore. n then off to jurong island. like living in exile. haha.

anyhow. exams await me. i.so.love.exams.

as i pace into the twilight of my ISU days. i couldnt help feeling sad. somewhat depressed.on the notion of leaving all that behind me. this life here. the environment. the weather. the people.everything. all that seems so familiar now will soon become a memory of the past. some days i will take a slow walk down the road in that chilling -15 degree celsius, seeing the familiar sorority houses and residence houses ,trying to remember the place and keeping them in my memory.

stress level on a high once again as exams drew closer. it's a pity i couldnt be enjoying my last week with friends but instead, am cooped up in my room to cram and mugg. the day seems bleak...

but a nice phone call made up for it all=)

''as u fade to black.will i still remember you?''

```you are crazy beautiful..shine on..``

my blog's kinda incoherent..here are just some random pic of me in san francisco..
anyhow..GUN AND ROSES was in ISU today for concert. haha those in singapore..enjoy yer hols now that exams are over.. i'll be mugging n off from blogging! till next time@

oliver played the guitar and chris sang
great job anyway! 

msian grad night today..the last time i don make up n wore a dress was prom.i went to support my friends--oliver n chris perform.. n to meet up with people..kinda for the one last time b4 i leave ames n ISU..its a little sad to leave memories and people behind..but that's life isnt it.. many things in life are ephemeral and fleeting.. but i will bring back with me pretty memories..as i leave this life behind me
i met a couple of nice people..
oliver,chris.ziting.emmy..ivie,maria,roosa..etc..the friendship albeit short, will be something i remember for life.. these are the people who made my stay at ISU really enjoyable and fun..i will remember the times we had... its kinda weird.. that i m gonna lead another life when i return to singapore..and i will try not to look back at this psuedo american life i had here in ames.. i've learnt and experienced alot.. there's so much beautiful memories.. and for very long..i've been pondering..is it easier to leave or be left behind.. and it suddenly dawned upon today that its still easier to leave..because in a way..its like moving on. wheares being left behind means living in the lingering shadow of the past.alright..shall end off here.. time to get down to hard core mugging.. peace all=)
**
**fariha**ivie**charlotte(fellow singaporean!)**emmy
**chris**ziting**oliver**tai**

a screwed up plant design project 3
a presentation tomorrow n another nxt tue
exams in one n a half week
some graduation night tmr

mixed feelings
fatigue
crazy coldness of -13 degree celcius
i dont even know
if i slept yesterday

ok for those who are wondering
kai the fat
will return on jan4th..night.. haha
i end sch on the 14th of dec
after which i will be gg travelling till 1st jan
and on jan3, i 'll be taking the plane home
so see yer all soon!

see yer all soon in a week's time.. =)(must study!) 

3 weeks left in ISU
i do feel sad. .and i have made a couple of friends here. partings are never easy.
n the nxt 3 weeks will be very hectic.since exams are around the corner and projects are due.
but i'll cherish my remaining time in ISU

my trip was fun. california was pretty.chicago was exciting n scary! i have too many things to blog about. maybe i'll do so when i am back in Singapore. or do up a scrap bk or stuff.

and of cos.not forgetting my dear acksx. congrats to aloy.. finally. kai ling is once again the only one in singlehood in the acksx. but i m enjoying single hood and every moment of it. i say this not to make myself feel better. honestly. i feel so free.
and right now. i have more important things to worry about and to do well in. studies, work. life.countless stuff.

sometimes i wish i werent so pessimistic abt life.
or maybe i just want to be prepared for the worst n dwell in sadness.
morbid. but true. haha

alright..good luck for exams everyone!
n i'll bury myself in books once again
till next time

meeting da buddy bird in chicago-IHOP! nice to meet u in chicago!! see yer soon again bird!

on top pf hancock tower. i hate the chicago photos cos i am like a fat penguine n looking very zombie like after travelling in california!








at lake michigan! 

back frpom california and chicago.with many holes in the pocket, fatter(VERY). i had sushi,dim sum chicago pizza..numerous fast food. and of cos lotsa shopping loots from VS, Abercrombie etc. and 700 photos..pics next time when i am free.. just blogged a few of them! fat kl!argh


 

alright
will be off for holidays in sunny california n chicago for a week
so will be uncontactable
take care all
=p

---its really good to hear your voice
saying my name it sounds so sweet----

ok some long overdue pics from minnesota trip
mall of america was a little disappointing.. i came back empty handed!
other than that
days are passing by so fast
i don't wanta come back to singapore so soon!
its really true when i think back abt what people say about a semester is too short.. its like...just when i m settling down here, having new friends and stuff..and then pofff i am suppose to go back to singapore soon!=(
sometimes i feel
the life i am leading here is really different from that in singapore...

whatever...

the famous mall of america in minnesota



theres an amusement park in the mall..
 

down town minneapolis..

the mississipi river. whatever. i cant spell it correctly
at the science museum 

and it snowed today
pretty scene.. this is taken from outside my residence hall.
minnesota tmr.. two exams next week. and then off to california n chicago..
till next time folks 

uncensored saw 3! i spend 5/6 of the time covering my eyes. bleah.. supper till 3am.these late nights are turning me into a zombie.pics as shown below.sigh. but it was fun...things i'll never do in singapore..

que sera sera

this is bad
my internship company is demanding i return to singapore in december for some medical testings.............
and so goodbye to new york.niagaria falls.pennslyvannia. oh no.. i dunno whats going to happen to me. hopefully i can still go to florida then come back on the 20 plus... that is if STA still have a ticket back to singapore.. i could bang myself into the wall right now.


life sure has its own twists
tap is very sad
very very upset.
its like a nightmare i am gonna have to live with for the rest of my time here

tired
crazy fri night party. of cream and water

weekend was spent mugging
dont worry
kai the fat is still a mugger

too lazy to update this crap blog

till next time
bye all!

no
no zombie
kai the fat was a fat medieval queen. 10usd for costume!  

halloween party tmr.. and i am sure i will not have to fret about what i am gonna dress up as.. i just need to not sleep for tonight n viola. tmr my zombie outfit will be perfect!
some people suggest skeleton. haha oh come on. i am not that skinny. i have gained weigh. the pants feel tighther and the arms, more monstrous. i think a fat pumpkin should be more apt.ha
halloween also means november is here
minnesota trip around the corner
and thanksgiving to california n chicago

BUT
meanwhile. before all that
i m pretty sure i'll go bonkus first.because. all my exams are coming again. and two huge projects. sigh.
n another thing
daylight saving brings me 1hr behind time
if u don't understand, its ok.because i dont
it just means i am now 14hrs behind singapore
so like if its tue 8am here
it will be 10pm wednesday in singapore. add 2 change am/pm to pm/am