Monochrome, 12, CNY's eve

Whenever i am upset or stress, i shop and buy. So, there is a negative correlation between happiness level and amount of clothes bought.

A little tired from work these days. The plant visit left me with a pimple. Heh, the environment is pretty harsh, with all the terrible chemicals. I am deskbound most of the time. But visit to the plant is a must for projects.

Otherwise, i am in a CNY mood. Glad about the temporary respite from work.

Fri, we visited China town, squeezing with the crowd but felt the CNY atmosphere. There were many mini stalls set up that sold food i never tried b4. We bought mochi n jelly from taiwan.

Char Kway teow for dinner.. mmmm..nice...

MAgic ice cream.

Cow year is my year.

Chanced upon some media corp artistes doin rehersal do some CNY event i presume.

Fridays i wear jeans.
and look very tired.

Tuptup with his new sweater from Zara.

Sat, we shop again at Orchard because i was upset. Bought a dress AGAIN.

Looking a little upset here

A little happier after given her fave ya kun coffee and kaya toast


Happy and posing after buying her dress. Haha, I paid for it. In case u guys are wondering, no, i dont make my bf pays for my stuff just bcos i am upset. But he does buy me stuff at times or subsidise my buys :)

Ok. Time to spring clean my room and wardrobe. My 12 poohies will be helping me. After that, i shall sleep and then wake up to reunion's dinneer. My fave steamboat and sharkfin!
Happy CNY everyone!
xoxo~~

life is a korean drama

Life, is a korean drama. Or at least, i felt so a while back.

Tmr's thurs. Thurs is plant day. We are gg to the plant.. Think taptap in her engineer uniform, helmet etc.

Life is dressing up. Putting on a face too.

I think most of u haven seen me when i am very very angry. Think taptap scolding tuptup and throwing cute little poohies around. So cute now, but when u throw them around, they look sad.

Last sat was dress up too. Tuptup says i can be a greek WARRIOR. Some photo whoring session. Well, we shopped too. Can't for the weekend. And then CNY.

Nutt is hungry too!

bad taptap! RAWR! i know, this is becoming such a narcissistic blog. urgh.

Bad Bad heart, bad bad weekend

Kinda feel :(
Looking very tragic here and it's genuine.


After all the anticipation of a happy weekend, i guess the weekend turned out depressing. Cos, my mum threw my retainer awaay. Sigh, i know , what a ??? reason to feel depress. But as most of you dont already know, i lov my retainer and wears them 24/7. I am serious. am really upset . Even after slamming all my bears and scolding tuptup, and having tuptup shopped the whole day with me and buying a dress, i still feel very sad. and i m gonna have to feel sad till wed. Was supposed to go shopping for pineapple tarts and new year goodies at china town. but shelved the idea cos i was not in e mood.

Why cant we go back to yesterday.yesterday was so much happier. NYDC and then Red Cliff 2.Red cliff 2 was awesome.

sigh:(

Oh well. we cant always be happy.
Some random pics from fri.
I told u i was happier on fri.

Nutt loves nut. Taptap loves taptap

"When there's faith, there's hope"
Some random line from Red Cliff 2. i really like Zhuge Liang. He would make a great meteorologist. And he's cute in the show. He's smart but not a show-off. I think smart guys are attractive. But there has to be a balance. Mr I-know-it-all is a big turn off. So is Mr Ultra-huge Ego. And i also like Zhao Yun. He would have been 2008 Beijing Olympics Pole Vault Gold Medallist if he existed now,judging by the way he jumps up and down from his spear. But he's cool. I like the way his hair fly here n there when he fights.

Recently, relationship woes seemed to be a big thing. All i can say is No one has not been hurt before. Some got dumped, some has had someone cheated on them, some has got rejected, some has got terribly lousy gf/bf. Whatever. All i can say is.Get over it. Easier said than done i know. Letting go is something i am learning.
But still, thats e only way.
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it


Back to my tragic retainer story, i think I am just going to bury myself under the blanket n hope wed comes now. Even brownie with Ben's and JErry isnt going to cheer me up. ;/

The simplest thing are often the most beautiful.

Kinda in the new yr mood and productivity at work has dropped.


It's time to make things right.

It's time to plan more and dream more.


Even in the daylight, shine on.

Taptap ke siao alr

haha i guess if i am saying this, i am o.k
It's pretty late now so i shall just write a short post.

Life's is a straight line these days. Straight is good.
Work- i just completed my first project. Relly hope it turns out ok.
Everyday, i figure something more about myself.
i really think i am not an easy person to get along with. When it comes to problem, i choose to run away or give up. Like how i rather go to sleep than talk about it

oki. itme to sleep. Hopefully can catch Chi Bi II tomorrow! no more emo-nemo times. Good times ahead hopefully! Yea, maybe the skies are finally clearing. so Tonight, i choose chris brown's forever.
We can go anywhere
Go anywhere
But first, it's your chance
Take my hand
Come with me
It's like I waited my whole life
For this one night It's gonna be me you and the dance floor
Cuz we only got one night
Double your pleasure
Double your fun
And dance forever ever

Simplicity

The only things i know i had been doing = sleep, work and sleep.

Pooh-ies love duck-ies!

No more drama-mama stories. Simplicity is good. And i also believe, there is nothing time can't take away. I guess i am using some time to understand myself better. Instead of figuring out about others, i really should start knowing myself more. I dont need to be a bitch or a naughty wretch.

On a happier note, CNY's coming!!

& i've been meeting alot of friends these days! Sun was our mini gathering at Jervis's place for some stoning session and Wii. Caught the movie Seven Pounds, which was a tad too slow and predictable for me. Also, i dont live tragic or sad or ghastly movie. I think in the future i shall only watch happy movies or those chirpy and cheerful cartoon movies.

Some random photos taken. Have uploaded e rest on FB as requested.

Brought Flower to work today cos i needed someone to smile when i am under stress



Nutt got taken away :( :( :(
I miss him.

1st post-2009

Hopeu guys had a great new year's celebration. mine was not too bad, iguess being surrounded by friends took away the deafening sound of confusion swirling through my mind. Spent some time alone e past few days and looks like everything's back to normal. I am back to normal. But reality sunk in harder as i dragged my laptop to work today. This is life i guess.


Had a pretty nice chat with a friend on e phone today abt stuff in our lives . And i couldnt help but realise that i haven been thinking much about my own life. What and where do i see myself 2 years down the road? Married with 5 kids?sipping cola at some random place somewhere out there in the world? Looks like i have shelved aside my dream of exploring the world and working overseas. Maybe, home is just too comfortable. Well, the idea isnt totally off my mind. Someday, maybe, who knows. When there isnt a reason to stay anymore. And i finally appreciate the idea of friendship. Friendship unlike love is not possessive or selfish and it is not ephemeral. A couple that had broken off is perhaps like the river water flowing into two separate streams, going onto separate path. Some meet again, some dont. It doesnt really matter anyway. I realise i am really silly n totally human, making silly mistake at times. As 6326 would say :" It's a MisTakE!!"


To lighten the mood of this blog alittle, some picture from new yr's eve party. Retro was the theme. Just in case u guys are wondering why i am dress rather weirdly. Ironically, my wardrobe does have retro dresses and accessories and dressing up was a breeze.

Cherry mumee! this new year, i found all my ISU dysfunctional family member again :)

Cherry n Ax :)



Ax and i

With Cory


Some of the girls

citadel time. and then at 12am. tequilla for everyone but me. i needed to stay sober.

All the guys. aAll the girls. Thanks val for e party n invitation:)

xoxo~~

Last post of 2008

Ahaha deja vu. Felt like only yesterday i was writing my last post for 2007.



Anyhow i am feeling much better already. Ehehehe.
I guess this time last year, a part of me died for some reasons. Then i guess this year, i revived that part of me that died. A proper closure finally. A beautiful yet sad part of my life.
Many things cleared up but many things have changed since. Dont have much to give anymore, somehow tired in a way and have accepted reality, as hard as it is. We know what we want but we also have to accept we cant always have what we want. So the next best thing is to accept and appreciate what we already have :)


My only wishes for 2009

is that all the people around me stay happy and healthy.
For my part, i guess i just want to concentrate on my job and do e best i can.



heh. so what did i do on the last day of 2008. Dragged myself out of bed at 6.45am, drove to work at a tortoise speed, spent the morning in a discussion for a project. since it's half day, went home at 12, fell asleep till 3.30pm. Woke up alittle stunned cos i was supposed to meet samuel at 3 to get some stuff. Got myself a new pair of black heels to kick some ass at work. haha. Going for new yr party later. That's all.


Lastly,
Best wishes to all of u out there in the new year
xoxo

How many pooh-ies?

[MV] Jay Chou - A Secret I Cannot Tell (不能说的秘密)

我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前

在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天

是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

回忆的画面

在荡着秋千 梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远

又何必去改变已错过的时间

你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见

想像你在身边在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐 放下会走更远

或许命运的签 只让我们遇见

只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天

飘落後才发现 这幸福的碎片

要我怎麼捡

Tomorrow will be o.k

i guess it had been a really emotional 2 weeks for me. the amount of tears i have shed should be enough to fill a fish tank by now. . it's been a while since i indulge in such sadness. for a while, how much the heat exchanger costs din matter.
haven slept much too i guess. for the 3 days in KL, it was worst. i clocked probably a total of 9 hours in 3 days.
for now, i can only hope tomorrow will be much better.

love hurts. if it doesnt, it's not love.
at e end, i should be thankful for all that i have and had.
i only know i have hurt many people and it's time to stop.

*smile* and everything will be ok