came home abt 5am. tried to sleep but too much stuff gg through my head.
woke up at 12. rushed to school.
went through some cell culture training, my mind spinning with the centrifuge and feeling fuzzy watching the china grad student pipetting stuff and giddy when he started talking in his heavily china accented chinese that i couldn't really comprehend .so i let my mind wander to you.
Nightmare of working with PhD china students is coming back. In ISU, my group members were 2 china girls who did differential equations in Chinese.. x goes to infinity becomes x something something wu2 qiong.. and i stared blankly at them. They asked me " YOu don't understand chinese ah?" i felt so embarrassed. So today the grad student started talking in chinese. And i don't know why i found it hard talking to him in chinese. so i asked a dumb question like " then zhe ge medium yao gan ma?'' (what is the medium for) and then i paused, realizing it sounded horribly rude. sigh.


one night. and it all came back to me. so this was how it felt, seeing someone u miss a great deal after so long. i cant comprehend how it feels exactly. " this is the best feeling and i wouldn't change a thing about it"